/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>7147798
>projecting your NGMI feels onto me via the internet while I lay out my entire S O U L

Don't tase me bro! Or was it tease? Look you can fantasize about the art form, down to the actual drawing of, lets say nigger dicks.

or you can abstain and be a moral high grounder for the rest of your pathetic entitled life.

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You just never had a sexy phase, I get it, but when you do eventually lose your sacred virginity, just remember, Cunnilingus, A to Z, with your tongue, always gets the best reviews from the ladies. Ciao.

roll

hello fellow comrade
i was born in tula and grew up in the US
I can speak (with an accent) pretty fluent russian but my reading speed is so slow.

>>6633176

That's seriously awful. Your story has enlightened me to the fact that I'm grateful my parents always cherished and encouraged my art.
>Seriously, not a joke.
I believe you. I know russians and what they are capable of, and while it's probably shocking to most people, it isn't to me. I could go on and on but-
Can I be honest with you for a second? I haven't run into many people on /ic/ who could match my output or seriousness of subject matter. Most people on /ic/, and just most people in the west prefer fanart, porn, landscapes whatever. You're the first anon I've really actually felt kindred spirits with.

This is 100 of my artworks, and I would love your opinion on any of them. The porn and lewd stuff, was just me trying to fit in and be popular and get views. It worked but I lost something in the process. Your art is really reminding me of the slavic-ness my early art had. Thank you for sharing your work and ignore people like >>6629815

Baшa paбoтa, Пpocтo Beликoлeпнo. Я бyдy Cлeдить зa тeбя. Meня зoвyт "бoкcмaн". Mнoгиe здecь мeня знaют. Bce гoвopят чтo я "шизoфpeник". Пpocтo нe пoнимaют, kak Пo-дpyгoмy pyccкиe Moзги paбoтaют.
ты вдoхнoвил мeня. cepьeзнo.
Удaчи.

>Boт мoй pixiv и Deviantart Ecли вы хoтитe;
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https://www.deviantart.com/desugar

>>6623183

>>6602603
>Is your mental illness really that bad? What would happen if you were off of it? What is it?

My mental illnesss isn't really one I suffer from all the time. In a sense I'm very much Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.

DXM, sold in pretty much every walgreens, rite aid, CVS Walmart, Dollar Tree, you name it, basically a dissociative drug that costs as low as 1.25$.

This drug manifested within me a Grand theft Auto Level of rebelliousness and subsequently opened my mind to what true power over ones self will and conscious, and how society responds when you proclaim yourself to be john the baptist awaiting jesus christ.

It's no longer LARPing when you actually cause situations to manifest in reality.
Basically this shit was the one ring from LOTR for me, a terrible power.

The problem is up to this point, my life pre this drug, I was a popular well liked guy who was quite talented at art. I had friends and girlfriends, and all those bridges seemed to burn as I traveled closer and closer to NEEThood.

Im not mentally ill, perhaps on the spectrum, the truth is, when im not taking the drug, I'm actually a normal, not depressed, functional person.

"Drug Induced Psychosis" is what my father calls it, and he's a scientist who just sleeps better knowing I'm on this medication. (which is the real reason im still on it) I actually vye for his approval so much I just accept getting the medication.
I never stopped drawing though. Even though I've lost the passion, I just examine art in a new way. You should take this time as >>6602954
said
all great artist go through life changes, and maybe you'll never draw the same way you used to , but now explore new methods, new ideas.

pic related is my art across times

>>6597215

Ahh Portuguese! I only know how to say eggplant because the only portuguese person I ever knew was a vegetarian and said that was the closest thing that tasted like meat if cooked properly.

>I’m just drawing for myself for the most part

I went down the (+amphetamine fueled+) rabbit hole of "what is myself?" "what is drawing for myself?"
and found that myself being a straight white weeb, just that I wasn't really doing any good work, just satiating amplified nuerosis. Man was not meant to create in a vacuum.

I really like going out and drawing in public, shame there aren't so many public squares as in europe, theres so much life in your drawings!

>>6443175

I am, only because its the only thing that gets views on the internet from experience, also its just fun to draw albeit a little comfort zoney.

I wasn't always that way, even though I've been drawing hentai since I was 5 years old (I didn't understand what was really going on) but i had found a stack of my dads playboy magazines at a young age.

54 -57 is what i drew like at a young age, wholesome dragons anime etc

58 was my peak realism oil painting, which I did in high school, at age 15 of all things (thanks picasso)

59 was my first sense of mental distress when i had entered college not fully prepared or committed to being a doctor.

81-82 were figure studies from life for the one semester i was an art major

04 -05 end up dropping acid and failing out of college as a result of going literally insane

In my insanity I felt as if at one moment I literally encountered a divine force, which only made sense to me to be jesus christ, moving effortlessly through my reality, tearing through it like paper

though I am an atheist originally, i was spiritual at this point , though now and then i have moments of faith in Yeshua rising from the dead.
this spawns artworks 07,08,84,85,90, 11

then i did a lot of DXM and basically accepted that made me trans more or less, except just in my sexuality of drawing women, i liked to imagine myself as them. This never manifested outside of drawing though, unless i took adderall which made me sexual enough to put on womens clothes.

I don't think I am really a woman on the inside though, its just fun to fap to. I've held pretty much heteronormative relationships otherwise.

I'm an odd blend of crazy jesus sex magic

>>6164751
>only severe addicts or people with huge tolerance could/would want to do that, probably in order to have an excuse for being on a constant drug-taking regimen,

Nah, you have it backwards. I don’t like drugs at all, I don’t fetishize them or support “druggie culture”, they are simply a tool. In the beginning, I was addicted to drawing so much that I thought I needed the drugs to keep it fresh. Yes, they did lead me down some interesting neural pathways that produced some cool art. Eventually, after years of use, I did become a full fledged addict. Once I stopped drawing, I became just interested in getting high and doing boring normie shit. That was when I began to wonder If I had a problem. I had lost my true nature and had become a complete degenerate in every possible way you can. It’s one thing to isolate, it’s another to be cast of society because people don’t want to deal with you/actively despise you.

I can’t speak for everyone but that’s my experience with drugs in a nutshell. Both you and I were clearly speaking our opinion on the matter and dressing it up as fact. Maybe you will agree, maybe not.

>>6165750
>Art is nothing special
>I disagree.

I could go on ad nauseam on this point, but why do you care what I think anyways? I spent so much time picking around that I’m still a permabeg at almost 30. I thought art was super special when I was high, but now I realize “tis better to judge an artist by his works, for if he does not produce any, why call him an artist at all?

You tell me then, why is art special?