/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>6602018
you make what a stocker boy at Aldis makes in 2 weeks. That’s sad.

"mental illness" is defined as not being a willing cog in the machine. The "meds" are to make you a better cog.
>Imagine a society that subjects people to conditions that make them terribly unhappy, then gives them drugs to take away their unhappiness.

>>6602018
>make $1k/month off a cult webcomic
How? Do you self-host or use something like webtoon

>>6602024
I self host and have a patreon, and also commissions

>>6602030
That's amazing, anon, good for you. Maybe you are slowly being fulfilled by life and no longer need that series to cope. Maybe end it on a high note, take a break, then start something new?

>>6602054
>Maybe you are slowly being fulfilled by life

It's the meds. Literally nothing has changed in my life except the meds. My problem wasn't about happiness or fulfillment, but a psych disorder.

I am scared that the meds will one day stop working or my mental illness will get treatment resistant.

>Maybe end it on a high note, take a break, then start something new?

I already have the outline for the webcomic done so I will probably just keep working on it if I don't get completely sick of it.

>>6602018
If you don’t feel like drawing your own thing what about being an illustrator for someone else’s comic?

>>6602065
You don't have a "psych disorder". You are falling for medical propaganda. The "medication" you are taking is rapidly sapping all creative energy from you and turning you into a mindless consoomer cattle. You even outright admit this in the op, yet can't reflect for one second on this. You are already gone.

don't take your meds

>>6602070
>being an illustrator for someone else’s comic?

That's what it feels like right now lol

Psych meds virtually never directly tackle a problem, they basically just suppress your mood, which obviously has tons of other side effects. It's even believed that using them or being off them (withdrawal) plays a role in suicidality, which is why so many psych meds have disclaimers about side effects causing worsened depressed up to and including suicide.

>>6602018
Your post reads like someone who is still mentally ill...

>>6602129
anyone who posts on this board is already mentally ill

The thought of going on meds which might make me no longer myself is terrifying, even if I might "feel better."

>>6602150

>>6602022
I'm glad I'm not alone. Meds only pacify the symptoms of a sick society, they don't treat society's illness. Rather, they conceal it. (I'm talking about the illness called capitalism.)

>>6602022
>>6602206
>hey honey did you hunt a big boar today?
>no darling I'm too sad but look I painted a nice boar on the cavewall
>then she moves to grug's cave and you are ostracized from the tribe

you faggots would be dead in a hunter/gatherer society too

>>6602065
>I am scared that the meds will one day stop working or my mental illness will get treatment resistant.
you take the meds along with therapy
and usually you only do this to get your life together. you are not supposed to take that shit forever. you can also talk to your doc to change meds if they are having a negative effect in a specific part of your life. you can also change your doc and therapist any time you want.

>>6602018
what meds are you taking btw?

>>6602018
this never happened.

>>6602211
Why is he sad though? Are you suggesting he has an innate sadness that can be only suppressed by chewing cannabis leaves?
Look at it from another perspective... Maybe Grug is beating him with his club every day and that's why he's sad?

>>6602227
there is no way we live in a healthy society but even chimps can get depression, which may happen, for example, if a partner/friend dies or if there is a loss of status. so yeah, maybe grug is beating the shit out of him. but look, in the case of chimps, giving them prozac can make a low ranking chimp raise in rank very quickly.

in theory, this chimp should stop being depressed even after you take away the serotonin, as he now has a natural source of it from the bonds he formed. given our more complex society and innwards serotonin drainers -such as pessimist ideas or self destructing behaviors- therapy should also be necessary.

if you think creating one kind of art for a niche, *maybe* even becoming famous because of it is worth a shitty fucking life, go on, become the next van gog.

just try different meds jesus christ

>>6602227
in addition, what is your point exactly? it is grug's fault, so society should do something about grug? I don't think you are wrong, but regardless of how good of a society you live, you will still be vulnerable to depression, and having both psychological and pharmacological methods of dealing with these kind of stresses is just practical and necessary. how do you intend to solve the problem? the least practical way, starting a revolution and change society? you might be too depressed to even start doing that. what is the other option? give up and die like a dog in the street? but at least you made some cool paintings while living a life you hated huh

I understand more than you could ever know OP, If I had a simple answer to this question I would have applied it to my life already.
For me, I'm the artistic black sheep in a STEM family.
I've been on a monthly anti-psychotic injection since 2016.
OP it really depends on how debilitating your psych disorder is. Is it you that believes that you have the disorder or a family member?
Are you a danger to yourself or others?
It's very important you have the right answer prepared. I was sent to a psych ward because I joked that "Well yeah life gets hard sometimes" about suicide, which I never have been, but the concerned counselor: “Your choices are to either voluntarily or involuntarily agree to go to a psych ward “
>no longer in mental pain

Elaborate on this. Depression, negative thoughts, or straight nihilism like nothing matters?

>desire to do normie shit like play sports and go to bars

If you're in your early twenties I suggest you take advantage of this feeling. You can draw people at the bar for example. "Normie shit" is how one learns to participate in society and can be great fodder to any concerned parent/authority figure (Look see I can be normal!) Ultimately though, I feel your pain. It’s been 7 years on this med and my passion is pretty much gone. I don’t feel the flow anymore and now just exist as a husk of my former self.

>pic related

>>6602018
Not a single line of this post is true.

>>6602465
Not him but the part where antidepressants dull your emotions and make you feel like a robot is true

>>6602030
>I self host and have a patreon, and also commissions
whats your webcomic?
You should consider posting it on places like webtoons or tapas, if the format of your comic would suit it. You'd get more readers.

>>6602185
OP here. Yeah. I ask myself "are you the same person on meds?"

>>6602218
My psych condition isn't something temporary like depression. It's some serious shit. It's not schizophrenia but along the same seriousness.

I'm not on meds but I too lost the drive to create art in the past few years. Had family shit with corona and run in with very dark people mentally ill people. Don't feel like myself 3/4 the time, like my brain's running at 50%. Not sure what can cure it, maybe I just need more time.

>>6602459
>I've been on a monthly anti-psychotic injection since 2016.

It sucks. It hurts my pride that I have to rely on this med to live a normal life. My medication comes in injection form too, but I take pills for it.

My psych disorder was lifelong and incredibly debilitating. I am surprised I pushed through for so long. But recently it was getting worse and I decided to try meds against my pride and the fear that it will change me as a person or kill who I am as a person. I didn't know how big of a difference it will make. I definitely feel healthier, but it's like I lost a big part of what drove me and what made me into who I am. Who am I without my pain and, in the perspective of others, insanity?

>Are you a danger to yourself or others?

I think I was a danger to myself in a way, and it definitely affected my quality of life. I would not have been able to live a "normal" life without meds. I was disconnected from others. Who knows, maybe I will still never live a normal life and still be disconnected from others. At least I feel healthier than off meds.

>Depression, negative thoughts, or straight nihilism like nothing matters?

None of that. It was something neurologically abnormal that made me think a certain way and drove my behavior even without me being intentional or aware of it.

>It’s been 7 years on this med and my passion is pretty much gone.

Is your mental illness really that bad? What would happen if you were off of it? What is it?

>>6602540
My webcomic wouldn't fit in with webtoons or tapas, it's too out there

it has a bunch of non-pretty guys attacking each other and fighting, suffering, or sweating and pushing themselves with tears in their eyes

now I have no interest in suffering naked sweaty men

>>6602620
>now I have no interest in suffering naked sweaty men
Any chance you are a woman or interested in men OP? I don't mean this derogatorily, but how are the meds affecting your sexual drive, from my experience there's been a direct correlation btween it and my drive to draw.

>>6602682
I've only been on it for like 3 weeks. First week it killed my sex drive, I didn't feel the urge to masturbate at all. But somehow I was fine with it, I felt like a neutered animal that's just content to exist and be comfortable. I was able to draw and work on my comic without issues. I no longer related to my characters, who were like different mirrors of me. My characters were always suffering, or too stupid to realize they're suffering. They seemed like the product of someone else's ideas.

Then second week I started getting really horny, being really attracted to men. Constant fantasies about being gangbanged.

Now my libido is up and down, up and down. I didn't really draw or write much this week.

>>6602540
>You should consider posting it on places like webtoons or tapas
Why would he want readers on a different site - it would lessen the ad dollars on his own site (assuming he's using ads that is).

>>6602018
Take a break and read your own work and see if you can get back into it - alternatively try and change things up in a way that does interest you. You have no publishers you're beholden to, so do whatever you want with your comic.

Drawing is more difficult. If you have no desire to do it, you really shouldn't be doing it. Might be better to just quickly wrap up your comic and retire from art.

>>6602699
That's interesting anon, well at the very least your libido's been impacted. As for mine, it's almost completely gone unless I go over a week without fapping.
>being really attracted to men. Constant fantasies about being gangbanged.
were they men like from your comics or different men? Did you have any desires to draw them out?

Maybe there's a glimmer of hope here, you can find the drive to draw but not in the topics you once related to. Try finding inspirations from going outside and meeting people. Or see if there's other meds out there for your condition.

>>6602018
You are growing quickly as a persona and that is ultimately what is valuable. You started seeking what your imagination wanted, then you gained new life experiences and your personality and thus what you wanted changed dramatically. This is good. You're going in the right direction, however you have not yet incorporated your new experiences into a holistic new identify. Thus you are lost. You can, and will, be still creative and explorative, but you have seen new horizons and so you want to explore new areas of your art and life. That's a very good thing, learn to cherish it.

For now you think "mental illness was fuelling my art this whole time", and you're partially correct, but not completely correct. Your subconscious wanted to move in a certain direction, this drive manifested as art and exploration and creativity, and this is great. However, you may have explored all that your previous desires demanded of you. At this point every artist will feel themselves coming to a plateau.

I want to assure you, actually push you toward your cautious emotions regarding art. Yes, art is extremely difficult and often driven by whimsical emotions. However, I want to embolden you. Your art is a part of you. Most artists seek a taste of individuality that happens to coincide with the universality of human life. Most famous artists have felt this need deep in their very being and have made it their life's work to realize this system, of individuation vs unification. I believe that the highest goal of modern art is the coincidence of individual taste and universal vision.

To conclude my very scatter-brained post: All artists feel deeply disappointed in themselves until they invent their own weltanschauung. High art is always a cultural and inventive process.

I had severe depression set in once I lost both my domain name and the server rental,obliterating any reason to continue with the strip. After 2.5 years of this,marijuana reentered my life after a decade of being without it,and my creative urges returned. I allowed myself a year of not restraining my efforts on any planned thing,but just embracing the joy of letting my pens go on their rampage,and wondering how much my style has evolved,and I am exploring what can be done in pencil,and this is my latest grind so far : it started out as drawing one character showing off a spell of some sort,and once I started designing the Magic Shit Emanating from her Hand,I had started thinking about what she was actually doing. Anything that I make is Canon,the history of my characters lives,so I thought about the premise of this conversation. Two disparate races,anthromorph and Trueborn(standard human species and subspecies) have just ended a long and bloody war for Anthromorph Freedom from the enslavement they endured for centuries, so,historically, these factions have been enemies for centuries, but now both are forced to play nice for the past decade or so. Cassandra was instrumental in forcing a confrontation that ended the war,and the Professor was a strong anti slavery supporter, and raised two war orphans with her approval, although one refuses to age past 2. So,they have a history of being allies,compatriots, and friends who respect their abilities, and...a sexual attraction that neither will ever admit to. But,if you can follow the numbers of the dialogue guide,then you can see how they hint at it,trying to provoke a response from each other, and a twist ending. I was going to make a Bernie Wrightson's Frankenstein type laboratory clutter for the center between the characters, and the hair and fur can always use a few thousand more slashes of black lines. This grind is turning into a grind,but thanks to marijuana, I have fallen in love with it

>>6602021
so? stocker at Aldi hates his life, anon is living his dream.
Congratulations you were sold a lie.

>>6602711
>Take a break and read your own work and see if you can get back into it

I read my own work while on meds and found out I still like them. It just doesn't feel like I am the one who came up with them, which feels as fucky as it sounds. I don't see myself in the characters anymore. The struggles and character growth my OCs go through seem very distant from me. I can understand the appeal though to other people.

>Might be better to just quickly wrap up your comic and retire from art.

Maybe I might do that. But I think of all the other stories and art that "the old me" would have come up with. I am sure "my" fans will miss me.

>>6602713
>were they men like from your comics

Surprisingly no. Though I would probably fuck my own characters. But I am not that picky.

>>6602954
>weltanschauung

Feels like I had that but it's changing with the meds.

>>6602713
Lol whore

>>6603303
thanks

don't listen to the fake life coaches in this thread throw your pills away and get back to doing what you love

>>6602603
>Is your mental illness really that bad? What would happen if you were off of it? What is it?

My mental illnesss isn't really one I suffer from all the time. In a sense I'm very much Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.

DXM, sold in pretty much every walgreens, rite aid, CVS Walmart, Dollar Tree, you name it, basically a dissociative drug that costs as low as 1.25$.

This drug manifested within me a Grand theft Auto Level of rebelliousness and subsequently opened my mind to what true power over ones self will and conscious, and how society responds when you proclaim yourself to be john the baptist awaiting jesus christ.

It's no longer LARPing when you actually cause situations to manifest in reality.
Basically this shit was the one ring from LOTR for me, a terrible power.

The problem is up to this point, my life pre this drug, I was a popular well liked guy who was quite talented at art. I had friends and girlfriends, and all those bridges seemed to burn as I traveled closer and closer to NEEThood.

Im not mentally ill, perhaps on the spectrum, the truth is, when im not taking the drug, I'm actually a normal, not depressed, functional person.

"Drug Induced Psychosis" is what my father calls it, and he's a scientist who just sleeps better knowing I'm on this medication. (which is the real reason im still on it) I actually vye for his approval so much I just accept getting the medication.
I never stopped drawing though. Even though I've lost the passion, I just examine art in a new way. You should take this time as >>6602954
said
all great artist go through life changes, and maybe you'll never draw the same way you used to , but now explore new methods, new ideas.

pic related is my art across times

How did you make $1k a month?

How was it monetized? And how long ago was this?

>>6603872
boxman is that you?

>>6603872
oh boxman I remember you. I don't get it, why does your dad want you on drugs that is hurting your social life and giving you drug induced psychosis?

>>6603934
the 'drug-induced psychosis' was from the DXM consumption. There are many ways to peak behind the veil. Seeing the patterns and mechanisms of influence, and interconnectivity of reality can be overwhelming. Some are unable to reconcile the truth once they return. The truth that the world is an illusion, but the illusion is real.

>>6603939
so why does your dad want you on this drug? it seems to be hurting your social and personal life. does his approval really matter that much?

>>6602018
Antidepressant, are you pn prozac, fluoxetine? That shit makes you stupid.
Stupid people can't makw art. Your serotonine system is hacked. You are a robot now. You are numb.
You are healed, but at what cost?

>>6603872
>daddy is a faggot in a lab coat pushing drugs on me because he's brainwashed into believing he is saving the world and bettering humanity
I prescribe you buckshot. apply directly to the forehead and all your problems are solved.

>>6603975
Get out of your house, don't touch any druug , man remember YOLO

>>6603945

He doesn't want me on DXM, we wants me on the Anti-psychotic. The DXM was causing me psychosis, and the anti-psychotic basically "makes me more normal" in his eyes.

IT's a constant struggle whether its the dxm or the anti-psychotic causing what.
It's less about his approval, and more just about me surviving. I think it's just how my mind is rationalizing the situation.

>>6603975

You have no idea what you're talking about, go back to your /pol/ with your paranoid big pharma shilling.

>>6603939

The dao which can be named is not the eternal dao.
I don't think I ever came back and I'm still stuck somewhere else entirely.

>>6602459
>"Normie shit" is how one learns to participate in society
Is sketching stuff while alone in the bar good enough?

I’m sure your feeling things you haven’t felt in a long time or never at all. When my medication started working I too shifted interests.

Then years later I got my art spark back. Something inspired me and I wanted to create again. There’s no shame in changing intrests. If drawing didn’t make you feel as good as you feel now keep taking your meds and do what makes you happy.

>>6602211
>He's so domesticated that he thinks nothing of comparing hunting and gathering to wagecucking
The greatest muse is your connection to nature, faggot.

>>6604425
I want to live in nature

>>6602211
I think hunter gatherers actually clock a bit more than modern waggies, but they do it in one go. They hunt game in one long burst lasting two days (nap included) and spend rest of the week resting.

I'm not going to tell you to get off the meds because I don't know you, but the only time in my life where non-functioning depression got a hold of me (zombiebrain, 100% apathetic, 21 hours of the day in bed) it was because my therapist prescripted me Prozac.

Recovery from the meds (2 years on them) and dealing with the subsequent depression (that obviously was still there) was hard, painful and it took longer than I thought - But sure enough, I'm getting out of the hole.

Never believe that you can't fix your problems anon. If you haven't tried everything to fix them yet, don't resort to medicine and try something else.

>>6602018
pyw or it didn't happen

>>6604990
It's a neurological disorder, not a situational depression thing

>>6604179
>The dao which can be named is not the eternal dao.
>I don't think I ever came back and I'm still stuck somewhere else entirely.
Fair enough. I didn't mean to imply you couldn't handle what you experienced/experience. There are countless iterations of the archetypal truth. Sometimes we shift perception and are able to see a new one. Increased dopamine levels (whatever that really means, fundamentally) increase awareness, pattern recognition, sensitivity to various forces typically passed unnoticed.

>>6603872
>This drug manifested within me a Grand theft Auto Level of rebelliousness and subsequently opened my mind to what true power over ones self will and conscious, and how society responds when you proclaim yourself to be john the baptist awaiting jesus christ.
>It's no longer LARPing when you actually cause situations to manifest in reality.
>Basically this shit was the one ring from LOTR for me, a terrible power.

I think a fatal flaw is falling for the erroneous belief that it all centers around you, or that you are the only one that can influence or see. I think in these states, a person is so attuned to the collective, that it can seem as though it stems from you, when it's moreso flowing through you. No doubt individual capabilities vary greatly and many people are dulled or have their energy and potential subverted and exploited. No doubt that in these states, your psychic ability is heightened, but I figure there are countless more powerful above, as there are lesser below. (just my humble ramblings, hopefully they conveyed what I meant)

Overall, I think it depends on your ability to reconcile your various states and observations of truth. And I don't think a person can stay over there forever and still integrate into regular life. Even going full hermit, it may be good to take breaks.

>>6605373
>It's a neurological disorder, not a situational depression thing
A person does need to recharge their energy. Spiritual experiences can be taxing.

>>6604977
you are retarded. go back to posting 'le uncle ted' memes on reddit, nigger.

>>6602018
So stop taking your pills then, dummy.

>>6603884
I want to know too

ITT. schizos

>>6602206
>waaaa no one buys my shitty drawings!... this is capitalisms fault!...
cheer up bud, daddy might send money this week

>>6604179
You fried your brain on cough syrup pills. The only retard here is (you).

>>6603884
I invested a lot in ads and my subject matter is niche with a niche community.

I get commissions a lot because I am known in the community.

>>6602018
>realize my creativity and intensity was fuelled by pain
I suspected as much. So basically my theory is true that once I finally get a life I probably won’t draw comics anymore…

>desire to do normie shit like play sports and go to bars
Sounds pretty fucking good to me.

>be artist
Ngl art has only encouraged my hermitic habits and made me lonelier over the last decade. I’m ready to move on and I honestly hope that I never want to draw again once I get a life. I just want to be a normal person, ffs. Drawing is a coping activity for dysfunctional people, sort of like psyche medication.

>>6606894
Yeah man , if do't do art I start to feel seriously bad. Like I don't fucking exist. I FEEL ALONE and miserable.
Art is ny favorite coping mechanism , fuck drugs

>>6606903
Same man. It’s like being on a medication everyday. It helps me cope in what would otherwise be boredom and depression. I think it’s because my life lacks variety. I seek out that variety with the only outlet I have, drawing. But it’s not a solution, just a bandaid. I need a life bad. We need a life!

>>6606910
I know right? This is the only thing that keeps me going.
I seriously need a life. Any ideas? I started to learn how to cook and making calisthenics workout in my room. It helps. At least I'm not fat anymore, I'm also reading books with epub reader voice app while I'm drawing, but besides that I must admit isolation is a bitch.

>>6602018
The meds are supplements. They're destroying your creativity because it was never real in the first place. You lacked discipline, relying on mental illness motivation to get you to create, and now you're barren and destitute.
You have lean harder into your art and push through this. Don't you even care about being an artist?? This is nothign.

>>6606926
tortured artist is a trope for a reason

>>6606946
True. Yet the experience and skills are transferable. It should be salvageable.

>>6606925
Gotta get out of isolation and socialize. I’d do it myself right this second if not for the situation my family has inflicted on my life. Eventually I’ll get out from underneath it and once I do I aim to get friends and hopefully a SO and eventually get married.

In any case, skill building is not the solution to this problem. Sure, learning to cook or going to the gym is healthy, but not if it’s just another cope to avoid making connections with real people in real life. We need to get out and live life man, we need bonds with real people. We need to touch fucking grass. Everything else is a cope. Everything else is artificially induced isolation meant to pull you under, make you comfortable and kill you slowly with little doses of dopamine as it saps all meaning from your life as a human being. As it stands, we may as well be fucking corpses locked away in the caskets of our comfy tech-laced domiciles. Human beings were never meant to live this way, disconnected. I’m breaking away as soon as I can and I’m never coming back.

>>6606962
I am still working on my comic and going with the flow. It just doesn't feel the same.

>>6602711
>Why would he want readers on a different site - it would lessen the ad dollars on his own site (assuming he's using ads that is).
Maybe so that people using those sites could find him?

>>6608077
Nah

>>6602018
Mental illness often occurs in the same parts of the brain as creativity. Meds are a sledgehammer solution, not a scalpel. Talk to your doctor about it and maybe get different meds. Either that or ditch the meds and live through your struggles. I don't know you so that might not be advisable.
Take care.

>>6609563
It apparently takes 3 months for the meds to stabilize me before they decide to switch me to something else. That's a long fucking time IMO.

>live through your struggles

That's what I've been doing for the past 10 years. Just muscling through the pain. I realized it was like swimming in milkshake.

It's been almost a month on these meds. I have a headache now and a lot of my mental illness symptoms are back (though not as bad as off meds). I both relate to and not relate to my stories. My mind is fluttering back and forth on this.

At least I am drawing and not dealing with as much of an art block. I am drawing way more than usual. It just flows out like oil.

>>6602018
>doesn't say illness
>doesn't say name of meds
>won't share comic name
you guys love larping huh

Glad I have adhd my meds just let me actually work on my comic. It does suck some creativity out so it's good to go off every once in a while. Withdrawals are a bitch though

>>6610124
If I mentioned what illness I would get made fun of

>>6610159
WHAT IS IT

>>6611152
Autogynephilia

>>6609563
you gotta be a little crazy to make it as an artist

>>6602022
>"mental illness is being free from the system lmao" says he after, a particular manic episode of shitposting and baiting on an anonymous imageboard, decides to hang himself now that he realizes that his life never amounted to anything
nice cope bro

>>6613365
Mental illness is caused by the broken capitalist system, so why take its advice? We are not exactly free but we are free to not believe in lies.

>>6602018
Not the same as you OP but,
Unironically I cannot write unless I'm stressed out. The ideas are still kind of there and I can sort of express them but it's just not the same. The emotions I want to convey are just gone, and when I try to write something raw, I feel like I'm writing something from the viewpoint of the outside looking in rather than writing from right there
It's hard
I don't have any advice, but you aren't alone

>>6613507
>mental illness is caused by something i don't like just because i don't like it even when the latter is already ancient before the former even became a thing!
sure buddy, keep telling yourself that

>>6603171
> I read my own work while on meds and found out I still like them. It just doesn't feel like I am the one who came up with them, which feels as fucky as it sounds.
Honestly, it doesn't sound so unique, anon. I don't have any condition, but sometimes looking at things I made I don't know what inspired me and wouldn't be able to replicate it. It almost feels like a work of another person in a way. Maybe you are experiencing something similar? Your mental state affects what you give priority to, same as emotional state and it can skew your perception.
Don't give up on your art yet. Maybe you can find different inspiration and grow on top of your previous experience.

>>6613570
>looking at things I made I don't know what inspired me and wouldn't be able to replicate it.

Interesting.

>Your mental state affects what you give priority to, same as emotional state and it can skew your perception.

Yeah the meds are skewing my perception. It's amazing how just some chemicals can change a person's whole world or the person himself.

>>6603007
That drawing is quite antisemitic.

bump

Reminds me of a certain webcomic curator

>>6602018
Hi Howdie get off the meds xoxoxo -Randal
PS make ivorycest canon or else i tell your dead dad about all the incest
PS i cut your name into my thigh the other day. <3

>>6616805
who

>>6613532
Similar. I seem to lack creativity without pain.

If you can, smoke marijuana.

When Covid bankrupted me so badly that I lost both the domain name and the server rental to my webcomic site,I got too depressed to draw fir over two years. Then I found a $50 bag at work,and suddenly I was creative again. And it has been helping me with my job's physical destruction.

>>6617416
I am not allowed to smoke weed.

I think the way how I write and work on my stories will also change. My personality has changed so much since starting these meds. For example I used to be really into MMA fights and watching guys fight but I can't handle it anymore it's so upsetting. My stories are all about guys getting beat up, I can't believe I came up with all this shit. Instead if I was going to draw, I want to talk about my sex life and I never talk about my personal shit. It's so weird how different I am I can't even recognize myself.

What was your website? You didn't have a backup of your work and website? What about Wayback Machine? Losing all my work is my biggest nightmare.

>>6617469
I feel like I just woke up one day in someone else's house, and I inherited the home and everything inside it that belongs to someone else and I am just going through all the stuff and wondering about where the previous tenant went. Like I just inherited all his memories and life work and wondering what I am supposed to do with all of this. I am still working on it just out of going with the motion, it's so weird though. I wonder if my readers can tell something has changed.