/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Because I've never been to a psychiatrist.

Everyone's depressed. It's not cool to be depressed anymore. Get with the times, elation is the new depression.

but i do

Because "crippling" sounds exaggerated and whiny.
I prefer "existential". It makes me sound clever.

I already shot and paralyzed someone in the line of duty. I think that's enough depression.

Reported.

>>8580227
Actually laughed at this.. thanks bro

>>8580225
This. Hypomania is where it's at.

I do
IMA COOL YET GUIZE XD WE NEET NOW

>>8580239
>IMA COOL YET GUIZE XD WE NEET NOW
You don't need to do this. Even in a thread as shit as this one.

>>8580228
what duties could a /jp/ poster possibly have

Because that would make the people around me sad and annoyed. I don't want them to put up with a whiny and annoying cunt. I'm already bad enough as it is.

I used to, but I had good reason to. I was failing college and went from living in a house with a bunch of fresh-off-the-boat Chinese guys to living by myself in a tiny hotel room, and all my college buddies had graduated and moved away. I thought multiple times about stepping into traffic.

Thankfully I got through it and I hope you guys get through your depression, too!

I've been crying a lot recently. A friend I've known for 7 years hasn't been online or replying to my emails for about 4 months. He didn't even say goodbye...

>>8580243
This is why I stay out of everyone's way. Unfortunately that is apparently wrong, and then people get concerned that I don't have daily conversations with them. Then I do get irritated and whiny and wish they would just fuck off and leave me alone. I never understand why they do not.

I should add I also have Asperger's syndrome. I am not a sociopath as far as I can tell, though I will have to look into it.

>>8580258
nigga you gay. i'm a depressed neet and i haven't cried in 18 years now.

>>8580258
I've done this (ignore) to a person, once. It was because I felt like I was being an annoyance. Don't worry too much about it, I'm sure he loves you.

>>8580263
Based on your post, I doubt you've even been alive 18 years.

After a while you do stop crying though. I guess your brain gets tired of depressive episodes and switches to a flat, consistent apathy.

I was happy and content until recently.

>>8580264
I did this to a person and she desperately tried to contact me. Eventually I gave in and started talking to her and she was all sad, but after being a shut-in for almost a year at this point I was all apathetic and cold without really realizing it. Now I think she hates me.
Oh well.

>>8580274
That is the case for me, too. What a coincidence.

>>8580274
Did something happen? Or did you just become depressive for no real reason? (It happens!)

>>8580278
Also extending this question to >>8580277

>>8580275
>oh well
A true neet's apathy, something to be revered and terrified by

I have depression and it's very cheerful!

I go to therapy and have had my meds adjusted. Touhou helps too.

>>8580279
I just wonder, why am I trying so hard to do everything? There's no point. No point. I suppose that what triggered it was meditation. Ignorance is bliss, right, or so they say.

>>8580288
In what sense? "I'm going to die anyway", "I'll never accomplish anything", or what?

>>8580253
That's me right now.

>>8580214
what's the source of this pic?

>>8580297
How about both? It all comes to nothing, the universe will end anyway, why bother, you know how it goes.

Semi off-topic question:
Do you people prefer talking about yourselves or reading about others in these threads?

On one hand I imagine most of you are quite self-loathing and prefer to empathize with or help other people. On the other hand this is an image board and we're all anonymous attention whores here.

>>8580300
http://www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=234068
It's fan art of Madotsuki from Yume Nikki, in case you weren't aware.

iqdb is your friend.

>>8580304
I prefer to read, but I do post if I have something relevant to say. I'd rather not go on full blog mode and start spouting random facts about my life, though.

>>8580304

I find the people on /jp/ fascinating, and I empathize with them a lot, when it comes to social and personal issues. I sometimes like to post because I figure if I'm in the same boat I may as well share.

>>8580300
http://danbooru.donmai.us/post/show/1013401/aosora_-mizore-chair-closed_eyes-cup-desk-drugs-em

Damn it Omegle.

Guess I'll ask you guys since I'm curious:
How many of you have actually been diagnosed with a mental disorder? Depressive or otherwise.

>>8580315
Is that an SH2 reference?

Ever wanted to be depressed? Now's your chance!

>>>/mlp/

>>8580317
Not that I'm aware of. Maybe I did it unconsciously? It's been years since I played that game.

>>8580309
>>8580312
ah, thanks a lot!

>>8580315
How do people get diagnosed? I can't imagine myself going to a doctor and telling them I think I have a mental disorder.

>>8580320
You should do what Leon did.

>>8580319
i,m going to kill myself on friday #wow #whoa

>>8580324
I don't get it either. I wish I could just get a doctor to come to me.

>>8580319
Whoa. WHOA!

>>8580325
He is The Professional that molested Natalie Portman in that one movie.

I have nothing to be depressed about. I'm living the dream.

>>8580324
Depends. Here in the UK you go to your GP, mention you've been feeling down or whatever, then you can get referred to psychiatrist. As far as I'm aware it's quite rare anyone over 17 sees a psychiatrist regularly. As a teenager I used to see a child psychiatrist once a week. When I became an adult they cancelled my sessions and now I see a "social worker" once a month instead, and she just tells me to get a job or go to school every session.

>>8580334
Do you have to pay for a psychiatrist in the UK?

>>8580334

do you get autism bux

>>8580337
Nope, not on the NHS. Though I guess there will be private firms for therapy and such. I'm under the impression they're in high demand, and if you're 18 or older you're simply not important enough for more than one or two sessions followed by a referral to someone more stupid.

>>8580333
Pretty much. I wanted this lifestyle as a kid. The only thing I could ask for is more money but that would only be spent on material shit like figs which I honestly don't care for much.

>>8580349
I really wish I had the courage to go to my GP.I feel bad for leaching of my father and I don't even have the courage to get job seekers allowance.

Why do you try so hard to stay alive? Your parents/family will feel bad if you commit suicide? Your friends will miss you? Man fuck that shit.

The truth is your family will get over your death. They'll rationalize it and give excuses for you killing yourself. Your friends will also get over your death. Everybody will be fine without you.

Don't worry about them. Just kill yourself.

>>8580384
But my mom would be lonely~

>>8580384
I can't help the feeling that I don't even have the right to trouble people who are far more accomplished than I am by killing myself.

>>8580384
I don't really want to kill myself.

>>8580384
Death scares me and something that'll make my life better could happen.

existing is pretty fucking crazy if you really think about it

>>8580384
I feel like I'd miss something in live if I killed myself know.

The only way to live life happily is to delude yourself that you have a happy life.

>>8580312
SOMEBODY MAKE A GIF OF THIS

>>8580258
Damn nigga you. are. gay.

>>8580426
nope, some people acre actually happy

I've been on meds on anxiety for a while now (six months), but thats not really my point (it relates a bit however as least in my mind (as mixed up as it maybe)).
Having had regular employment, I've noticed that most (if not all) 'normal' people repeat the same things over and over again, just to different people. this might not seem strange to some, buy to me saying something (even its to a different person) seem like a wasted effort and as such I come off as unfriendly, distant, and 'creepy' (I've been called this to my face). Recently (Read: over the past week) a person I'm around (caused by my job) told several people the same story (I was there for 'ALL' the retellings). So, tonight I heard the same story five times in a span of four hours. I was ready to commit murder at the third retelling, but I noticed something (that to me seemed strange) everyone she told the story to seemed genuinely interested and even had a conversation and related similar experiences or expressed sympathy for the situation. Is this how normals work? How cant they keep repeating the same thing and not feel like its a waste of time?

I'm literally cutting myself right now.

>>8580455
Pics please

>>8580455
Does it feel good?

>>8580470
That's why I used to do it.

At least I had enough sense at the time to not do it anywhere too noticeable.

>>8580474
Where do you usually cut?

>>8580474
Could you tell me what part of getting cut felt good?

>>8580225
>Cool to be depressed.
You think this is a fucking game?

>>8580485
>>8580487
Thighs usually.

>>8580485
Stress relief.

>>8580487
Upper arms. I can never go shirtless anywhere, but it's not like I'd be doing that anyway.

>>8580513
That's not what I asked you in this >>8580485 post you cutting cunt. I asked what part of getting cut felt good. Does getting hit with a hammer have the same effect? What about getting your balls kicked? Are you a masochist?

>>8580523
What part of getting cut releases stress?

This thread is an eyesore. Kill yourselves already and stop posting these shitty threads.

i was fine till lunch today when i learned the girl i love is dating this faggot ass hat i want to kill my self

there's no point.

>>8580530
>>>/r9k/

>>8580529
But I want to live.

>>8580533
why

>>8580536
Drink your problems away. It's the only way.

>>8580539
there's no point

>>8580536
Because you don't fucking belong here you dumb shit.

>>8580529
That is not nice to say. Their death will be on your hands.

>>8580541
The pain will go away if you're too drunk to think.

>>8580542
k
>>8580544
underage

there's no point

>>8580530

This is the kind of poster these threads draw.

Go cry about your lives in /r9k/ or /adv/.

>>8580546
u r right. why live n e more... yuo should comit suiciude....

may be she will rmembebr you then.....

>>8580559

dat grammar

there's no point

>>8580560
i no dat feel /b/ro.......

>>8580565
It's ironic shitposting.

>Why don't you have crippling depression?

I'm in the same situation as most of you guys (or maybe even a bit worse) and I love my life. I wake up, drink some tea while browsing /jp/, maybe cook some food, and then go to sleep. Then I wake up and do it again. Occasionally I'll go for a drive somewhere or to a store to buy myself a treat. I love to go for drives to the outskirts of town on full moons. You eventually run into farmland and it's such a nice atmosphere.

Once my only real life friend moved away all I could do was feel overjoyed that I would finally be able to be alone. I really enjoy being alone and left to do whatever I want to do. I don't know who wouldn't. I don't know how anyone could get depressed living their life like this.

Maybe I have some kind of chemical imbalance or a brain tumor or some kind of mental disorder.

I've always blamed myself for everything but /jp/, why won't anyone help me? Can't they tell that I'm lying and I'm really not ok? Why didn't my friends help when I started to never talk to anyone anymore. I just want some help, someone help me.

>>8580579
How do you get money?

>>8580579
I never understood this either. I feel as though I'm in some sort of position to be depressed or feel depressed, but I don't. I'm just, happy.
I thought it was some sort of mania but I had a psych evaluation done and I'm perfectly fine apart from my underlying paranoia. if I could give one you guys my excessive Serotonin I would.

>>8580597
My parents pay for most things in my life which are basically food and car expenses. I get enough money (either from saving food money or from holidays) coming in to buy a few things for myself every now and then. Only got $20 of my own money right now though.

>>8580584
Where do you live?

I went through the whole depression phase when I was in middle school, had an existential crisis, wanted to commit suicide.

Now I'm perfectly okay, never taken medication, never get sad.

>>8580637
That's great, anon. I'm real happy for you.

>>8580584
I'm sorry to hear that. I wish you were in my situation, because people are trying to help me, but I'm perfectly okay with how I am. I just changed, but people think I'm depressed or angry.
I just feel bad for being nice to them for so long, before changing and not getting along with them, leading them to think I hate them.
Sorry.

>>8580634
PA, USA but nevermind, I shouldn't have posted.

But I do.

Have you ever been institutionalized?

It's fucking purgatory.

The clinicians make you jump through these fucking hoops when all I want is either to be shocked or to be left to die.

Just, unlike the myriad drugs, at least the shock works. For a while.

Until then you'll be shut up with all these manic depressives who are so outgoing and inappropriately confident and exactly the kind of person you wish you were.

Still, it's better than laying in front of gay ER nurses who think catatonia is a fucking life preference, a try to get a 'reaction' out of you by ripping out your catheter.

>>8580645
No point in deleting a post, you can see them on the archive.

Anyway, just wanted to know if you lived locally. Sounded like you could use a cheering up.

i probably have chronic fatigue
makes me depressed. antidepressants do help

>>8580384
I still can't do it.
Worst feeling ever, because I hate them for it. I hate them for giving half a shit about me. If they didn't, I'd have ended it long ago.

Because I keep trying to cheer myself up. I kind of do have crippling depression, but I can make myself really motivated sometimes. And then I slowly go back to depressed.

I bet people would think I'm bipolar. It's too bad I'm not and that my depression isn't caused by something that I could just take anti-depressants for. Anti-depressants make me want to kill myself.

I do. It's just I've never been diagnosed.

Because I'm fine as long as I don't have to leave my apartment. I visited my parents last weekend and met some high school friends while there but for some reason ended up feeling like complete shit for 3 days.

I guess I just don't like being around people.

You need to give in and finally suck a cock. It really helps.

>>8581545
How do you afford your apartment?

>>8581527
He's pretty much arguing why that doesn't matter. Be honest with yourself, be really honest: if you wanted to kill yourself, you would have.

>>8581553
Disability benefits. Living in a welfare state helps a lot.

Psychiatrists don't like my attitude, nor does my mother but I try not to care about them too much.

>>8580312
I really like this.

>>8581569
How much do you get?

>>8581604
~700€ a month.

More than enough for someone like me.

>>8581654
I get something like 760 AUD or so a month, but I don't think it's enough for me to be able to live alone here.

Delete this shit off-topic thread meido.

Meidoooo....

This is a really nice thread. It's okay. Take it easy.

>>8581654
>>8581666
I fucking hate euro aussie scum. I work full time and only make twice as much as some faggots sitting on their ass all day doing jack shit.

Why should you be allowed to live when you don't even contribute? Starving kids in Asia work in a life of squalor so you can fart in your chair for hours on end and smell your balls.

>>8582734
I love the "starving children" argument. I'm sure there's some planet somewhere where some of the alien inhabitants endure horrific torture from birth to death. All those pussies in Iraq and Gitmo need to stop being such babies.

>>8582734
No more hamburgers for you punk.

>>8582741
I like how you just dismiss the argument that there are children working in slave conditions across the globe. They exist, whether you like it or not.

>>8582759
I don't dismiss it, I just think the there-are-people-worse-than-you argument is stupid. I'm sure there are children even worse off who would happily be enslaved if it meant they had enough food to survive, even if only barely.

We live in the Western world. We're used to nice things. We should be "allowed to live" as much as the worst off (or best off, depending on how you look at it) children in Poor Environment X should be.

>>8580258
Don't worry. He didn't reject you. He probably just died.

A certain drug helped with my ruminations, but I switched out of it some months ago and now they're back with full force.
Yesterday I went to buy a pair of headphones from an audio store, and more than 24 hours later I'm still ashamed of my stupidity.
"Umm, could I try a CD I brought? It's not like I need you to help me change the CD, but I supposed I should ask you first..."
Christ, what an autist. But I'm depressed enough, I don't need this compulsion to mentally punch myself over my autistic interactions.

>>8582779
You're indirectly exploiting these kids by paying the low prices that you do for food and other shit and you add salt to the wound because you're not even working to consume any of the products they make. They're essentially working for some jackass they don't know for free since you're not contributing anything back. Those of us who actually do contribute are the only thing allowing these kids to get any pay at all. You freeloaders are just making it worse for them and not giving a shit. If I took one of those kids working his ass off in your room and told them this they would probably kill you and live a life of relative luxury in an American prison.

To summarize this topic: the world is shit.

>>8582865
>the world a shit.

ftfy

>>8582856
Not this bullshit again.
a) I can't do anything about it. If I could, I would. No, buying products with a "Free Trade" label does not make that much of a difference. Even if we used hard working Americans/Europeans for everything, then the slave children would starve. Think workhouses in 1800s England. You be poor and die, or be slightly less poor and live horribly. Which is the lesser of two evils is up to you to decide.
b) I don't care. I am a human being and I consider myself a kind person, but I honestly could not care what's happening to people I will never meet on the opposite side of the world. I get that closing your eyes to a problem is bad, but I'm not doing that. I'm accepting that I cannot help these people and choosing not to care about them. It's far better than faking empathy or being "charitable" for PR.
c) My unemployment means one more job is available. Since I am unqualified, that means a low-paying job. Some poor, unskilled person is employed because I am not. Of course this is a simplification, but overall that's what's happening. There will always be unemployed people no matter how small or large a society. I am filling that gap. Furthermore I am giving up luxuries to fill that gap and being content with my situation. I may not be helping starving kids, but I'm sure as hell helping someone.

This thread is bad.

>>8582905
didn't need to write "and you should feel bad"

because all u homos already do lol

>>8582913
Iced burn !!

>>8582884
Oh, how deluded you are.

If you don't work you don't eat. That's how everyone else who doesn't live in your entitled fantasy land lives. You don't "deserve" to live, but you do anyways because our economic system exploits workers and allows this shit to happen. Sure, you can tell yourself you can't do anything about it, but you happily partake in this system of exploitation and therefore support it. In a world where everyone is treated fairly you would be dead.

Trying to rationalize that it's everyone else's fault that you get away with it doesn't put you on some moral high ground. If you actually gave a shit you would realize that you're a leech on society's ass and get a job or get the training to fill an open job position that wouldn't replace somebody else.

Alcohol > depression

>>8582936
I'm saying nothing of the sort. I accept that I am the dregs of society. I even accept that I'm a leech, though not to the extent that people make NEETs out to be.
Even if I'm absolutely despicable and people are in poverty because of me, I would not care. Not in an angsty teen or self-entitled way, I would simply be apathetic about it. I have found a way to live a life I enjoy. I have given up both luxuries and obligation and settled for a 30-90 year existence that doesn't bother anyone. Though I'm still part of the system--I consume and I pay taxes, frankly in quite a disproportionate amount to the worth of the lifestyle I lead.

Go make some Facebook groups about how sports stars are overpaid compared to bricklayers or something.

>>8582936

It's wonderful to hear people say things like this. Everyone wants to believe that everyone is equal, but the world simply does not support all life equally. For that reason, people must establish a system to choose who will live and who will die. Presently, that system is Capitalism. The rich live in abundance, the poor either work in shitty conditions or starve to death.

And I fully understand that this belief of mine condemns myself as someone who doesn't deserve to be alive. I accept that as the truth.

>>8582958
What if you were born into a rich family that could support you without any additional "damage" to the economy? Would you then consider yourself to deserve to be alive?

>>8582954
I don't get why you're arguing with me then. You admit you're a leech who lives off the backs of exploited workers and makes their lives that much harder because you're yet another freeloader they have to support. You just don't give a shit because "it can't be helped".

You're obviously doing less damage than the assholes who run these exploitative businesses and spend the profits on luxury items and yacht trips, but you're also not doing anything to stop them and contributing to the problem.

But I do. The government agreed, and pays me for it.

>>8582968

That's not it. My family isn't rich, but they aren't poor. They can support me well enough, without relying on exploitative systems.

The reason I said that was because I'm 21, yet I've never had a job. I've never done anything that could earn being alive. It makes me feel absolutely pathetic.

It's actually a different case, now that I look at it, but I treat it as being the same thing.

Depression is weakness. Inferiority is where it's at. I bet 45 billion yen I'm ten times inferior to anyone posting in this thread. Nay, in this world there doesn't walk one human being more inferior than me, man or god, it doesn't matter, I will continue being the most inferior being in existence for as long as I care to breathe!

>>8582958
Capitalism isn't the problem. Horrible economic efficiency that doesn't put everyone to work is the problem. If you don't have a job you shouldn't be getting paid because it leads to waste.

The only thing you should EVER get paid for is training to get a job if you can't get one with your current training. If you get fired or laid off you either find a new job, get training in another needed job, live off your savings until a new job opens up, or be proactive and become self-employed and create jobs for others in your position.

If the world took advantage of the internet and created a single site with every job listing, training programs for those who want to fill the positions, and what jobs are currently in demand for new businesses to start up we wouldn't have these problems and wouldn't have to rely on exploitative labor.

I'm sure it would still occur because different countries have different technology and economic systems, but it would certainly make things go smoother for those who do follow capitalism.

>>8582990
I'm pretty sure there are people more inferior than you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RtdwdgyPGp0

>>8582990

Try me.

>>8582969
I'm arguing because you're putting words into my mouth.
I consider myself to opt into the NEET lifestyle. Whether jobs are available or not, I'm not taking them. This is because I am happy to be a NEET. I don't see myself as a "a leech who lives off the backs of exploited workers" and whether that's the case is inconsequential to me.

You also need to understand how low my self-worth is. I could not do anything to stop our evil capitalist overlords any more than I could help child slaves. Yes I, a relatively healthy young male, could conceivably perform physical work if it was available. However given my options and situation in the real world, I couldn't. I cannot talk to people without freaking out. It's not just being a whiny little bitch or whatever, I do have panic attacks and they would physically impair my ability to work. Though, I am happy to accept that this is because of the society I was born into. I often wonder what life would be like if I was born into a different society or time period, if I was forced to work instead of seeing a psychiatrist. Sometimes I even wish that, say, the Nazis had won, because then--had I still been born--I would undoubtedly be a hard-working breadwinner. I may have even been happy and have a family by now.
But, unfortunately for you, I was born into Western society in the 20th century and this is just how it is. I think I deserve to live because of my low "economic footprint" on the world ("But if everyone thought that way...") and I am living the life I want. That's just how it is.

>>8582991

>Wouldn't have to rely on exploitave labor


Full retard. Capitalism only works via exploitable labor at some level. Pull your head out of your ass, and stop sucking Adam Smith and Ayn Rand's dicks.

I'm happy with my present life.
And back when I feelt a bit depressed because of a massive failure in life, /jp/ actually managed to cheer me up. I always see people that have a very much worse life than mine, always makes me want to try harder and become a good person. Thanks guys.

>>8582995
Oh god that's really creepy.

>>8582996
>I don't see myself as a "a leech who lives off the backs of exploited workers"

But that's exactly what you are and it's my point.

Your "low economic footprint" is about the size of a hundred Asian laborers just by continuing to live.

>>8583001
A true capitalist system is never exploitative. It is a system of voluntary exchanges. In some of these countries, if you don't work or you protest about the working conditions you get beaten to death. I hardly call that voluntary.

>>8582995
Hah, that's pathetic, shameful display. Looks like she hasn't penetrated the upper levels of inferiority yet. All she's doing is whining on the internet, she's not even suicidal.

>>8583015
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Surplus_value

>>8583030
>Karl Marx
>Capitalism

Nigger, I don't even know what to say to that.

Suck my dick.

Has anyone here managed to transition back into society? Because I started working today and it was a disaster, I was drenched in sweat and felt like puking, I farted every 2 minutes, and when I got home and all the tension left my body I unexpectedly shitted myself. I'm not even joking. I'm not sure how much long I can keep this up

>>8583048
Capitalism was invented by Karl Marx so yeah. schlurp schlurp

>>8583052
It won't get better. You'll just get more used to it.

>>8583056
Dammit!
I should have listened to the warnings!
It's all too easy for a capitalist to break into my house and suck my dick.

>>8583052
Did you just go straight from complete shut-in into work? because that's asking for trouble

Depression is not logical to me, but I say the same thing about math so I'm not exactly the most reasonable guy around.
Being alone is nice, you take care of yourself and if you ever need to face society just put on the ol' mask of outgoing personality and act your way through life.

>>8583067
I couldn't pass up their offer, I've been looking since October and they were the only ones who called me back

>>8583070
It gets easier with time. Just hold out and try not to fart on anyone.

>>8583015
Who is talking about slave labor?
>>8583048
He just displayed in this theory how employers exploit their employees and he should be qualified enough to criticize capitalism. So i don't really understand your outburst.

>>8583015

It's a system of voluntary exchanges (arguable) for a very short period of time. Have you not been paying attention to this cycle? Such simplistic and idealistic notions of capitalism are what got us into this economic mess.

Communism is no better, before you call me a pinko or some shit, but they are both unrealistic and idiotic extremes. Mixed-market economies are the only economies that can possibly have any stability.

>>8583056
Really? Adam Smith was Karl Marx?

>>8583073
I hope you're right. I really need the money to buy Atelier Meruru & the fig when they are released (march) I can't lose this job.

>>8583078

>capitalism
>Invented by adam smith

Market economy wasn't invented by anyone, you dumbass. Smith just wrote a book based on the observations of markets he had made, and theorizing about a bunch of dumb shit.

>>8583078
Eh.. hm. I dunno don't look at me like I'm some kinda professor. I was just joking, Yeah that's it.. AHAHAHA I WAS JUST FOOLING AROUND AND YOU FELL FOR IT! AHAHA JOKES ON YOU

>>8583100
Don't you take that tone with me.

My depression comes and goes, such is life as a manic depressive.

In a few more months I might try living on my own, I just need to save a bit more, and wait for rent prices to drop just a little farther. Fucking autism bucks need to pay out about $150 more a month.

>>>/adv/9227193

>>8583206
that is just awful.

cuz i go to see a shrink, HELLps me regulate my EMOTIONS

>>8583206
Damn. First world problems huh.

Day after day, I always tried my hardest to succeed, but always met with the same result; failure.
I watched as people half as good as me put forth a fraction of the effort I made and still managed to succeed.

So I stopped trying completely. I just gave up on everything and now I feel a lot better because I'm not wasting time on failure; failure just comes second to whatever I actually feel like doing.

Please don't copypaste my posts into other boards.
They're meant for /jp/ and don't make much sense out of context

>>8583248
Let me guess: DQN's CTRL+V thread?
A lot of /jp/ posts have been popping up there lately.

>>8583239
You for sure got many, lol.

>>8583253
... I think he means >>8583206

Because I'm a successfag.

>>8583272
I just wanted to show how knowledgeable about textboard culture I am!

>>8583281
You're not me. And I'm not Tokiko.
Just a lot of people have been posting /jp/ stuff there. About /bun/ and Jewnes and whatever.

Probably Tokiko.

What is the greatest lie every created? What is the most vicious obscenity ever perpetrated on mankind? Slavery? The Holocaust? Dictatorship? No. It's the tool with which all that wickedness is built: Autism. Whenever /jp/ wants others to do their work, they call upon their Autism.

>>8583295
Make sense, please.

>>8583306
Point proven.

>>8583317
That doesn't make any sense either. You're both talking absolute babble.

Try drugs /jp/, they work temporarily. That and videogames make for a perfect escape from the world.

>>8583371
I can vouch for this. 30 mg of adderall makes everything fun again for roughly half a day. It feels like being very happy and energetic for anything you ever felt like doing or will feel like doing. If I can have that feeling every day without drugs I'd be the happiest little girl on the planet.

I'm pretty small though so you might need to take more if you're huge. I've heard some people take up to 100mg of adderall for their day. That's a lot of money.

>>8583381
40mg is a good zone for me.

By the way, taking magnesium supplements helps keep your tolerance from skyrocketing.

>>8583381
Only if you illegally acquire it.
Back when I still had thoughts of living a normal life I went to a shrink to look for help and at the first consultation I had a prescription for the stuff at a rather hefty dose.

Drugs aren't my thing, and a mixture of apathy and anxiety stopped me from ever going back, but the process itself was rather quick and straightforward.

>>8583295

Actually, I think the greatest lie ever told was that blacks are equal to other races

>>8583499
Nah, the holohoax wins that award.

>>8583621
http://nizkor.org/features/qar/qar00.html
Enjoy your ``Holohoax''. Don't worry--I'm sure all these authentic historical documents are forgeries by the big, bad Zionists. Failing that, you can find another conspiracy theory to jump on!

>>8583634
>``
>''
STOP THAT. Stop it. I won't bear with it anymore.

>>8583641
This. I fucking can't stand when someone uses that retarded style of using "s.

>>8583634
But there's literally nothing to back them up, in fact many contradict each other, and the numbers and story seem to change arbitrarily.

You've got nothing buttface, enjoy your lamp shades and soap, becuase it's all equally believable at this point.

>>8583644
I like how the lampshade hoax "still needs a page created" per that website.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Balfour_Declaration_of_1917

>"No lamp shades made of human skin?" False -- lampshades and other human-skin "ornaments" were introduced as evidence in both trials of Ilse Koch, and were shown to a U.S. Senate investigation committee in the late 40s. We know they were made of human skin because they bore tattoos, and because a microscopic forensic analysis of the items was performed. (A detailed page on this is being prepared.)
>(A detailed page on this is being prepared.)
That's how it goes with all of these ``facts'' doesn't it?

>MUH DEAFCAMPS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbJDZcPJ1lc&feature=feedf

>>8580449

I've noticed the same behavior as well. For some reason, it is difficult for me to accept that it ought to be considered normal social interaction, but what do I know.

>>8580449
>How cant they keep repeating the same thing and not feel like its a waste of time
it's just a sweet tooth. you surely have something you like to re-experience too. like a beverage or something.

>>8583634
There's a reason your kind has been kicked out of every European country in the last 500 years.

Nobody likes you, get the message already.

>>8583679
The Nuremberg trials were essentially forced confessions to outrageous claims like the lampshades.

The soviets are the ones who rebuilt places like Auschwitz and Dachau, and imprisoned East Germans from the places the Red Amry stormed through.

because im not a fucking weeaboo faggot fuck who likes to fap to hentai over the fucking internet and think that my dick is 6 inches when its really 2 cm

>>8583958
Nice try, but you gave yourself away by spelling weeaboo correctly.

>>8583961
who gives a shit this fucking thread and board is being saged out the vagine

Get your 3D politics out of my /jp/, scumbags.

>>8583958
Projecting much?

>>8583967
But the outside world is so important to us!
le_trollface.jpg

One of my doctors prescribed me a benzo that I'm currently starting to take. Is this really a good idea? What I read about these things doesn't exactly sound reassuring.

because i finally decided that being weird is ok.

>>8584000


Yeah dude they're like drunkenness in a pill. Sounds you scored big.

What exactly is he prescribing them for?

>>8584027
Anal AIDS

Why don't you have crippling depression?

>>8584027
Epilepsy. Depakine and tegretol don't seem to get rid of my seizures completely so we decided to add another drug.

>>8584044
Benzos are a druggy's dream, and what they do for anxiety is nothing to scoff at.

But if you're not looking to "score" and you're not too interested in having a normal social life, then I'd stay away. I don't have epilepsy, so I can't say if I'd rather have the side effects of benzos or seizures, but you should still do some reading and consider it carefully.

>>8584000
I've been on Klonopin before, and am on Xanax now. They don't really do much for my anxiety, at least not anymore. With the Xanax I just get really tired, so I take it when I feel like sleeping. It doesn't make me any less anxious about being around people at all.

Cyanide or arsenic? What would be a more painless way to end this miserable life?

>>8584354
join army.

let someone else have your life if you're not going to use it

>>8584043
>pic

Dear god that meme's spreading

>>8584378
That would most not likely be painless. Plus, you get paid like shit in ROKA (or navy/airforce), so I'd hate my life even more until the North Koreans decide to finally re-commence their unfinished business from 6 decades ago.

>friends

Does it rustle your jimmies?

>>8584394
Or just you Americans finally decide realize that there would be something to gain again by bombing.

>>8584434
That didn't make any sense.

>>8584044
Just stick to the doses you've been given and don't self-medicate above what you've been told, since they can get quite addictive and the withdrawal's a bitch when that happens.

>>8584440
I'm sorry. This sleep deprivation is making me drunk. Anyway, you should get the idea though... I hope. That would be nice. Let's just stick to that "realize" part. And "again."'kay? *collapse*

There is always another option

I can't think, I'm depressed,I don't know what's going on half the time, having brain fog everyday I can barely read and speak anymore.

Don't mind me, I just want to complain. Yay depression and spell-check.

>>8584473
I love how the first warning is 'don't use this if you're just pretending to kill yourself for attention'. /b/, /adv/, /jp/, /a/... the suicide threads pop up everywhere here. Heck I think I even saw one on /v/. IMO mods/jans should just start removing such threads on sight since we're not equipped to deal with them anyways even if they are real and 4chan/anons certainly don't want any legal fallout either. Pic related. Extremely rare one that was actually legit... Power to him I guess.

>>8584577
Add /k/ to that.

>>8584596
ahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahhaha
hahahahhahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha *POST OF THE YEAR* XDD XDD

>>8580214
but i do!
and it's very bad!

>>8580428
http://hijiribe.donmai.us/data/2d3579df8ebb2da4d24cfb5905cf8b63.swf
not exactly a gif but close enough

>>8580579
fucking fag, I don't even have a car