/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Tenshi's hat is wrong.


Not happy however death is scary, stacking guts to kill myself, maybe one day.

>i am depressed
We know blogfriend, we saw your thread earlier.

Plus you have NO RIGHT to complain.

I'm still pissed about my Coke.

I'm happy and content with my life.

I don't believe in happiness.

Not really.

No. I am not. I have very high ambitions but I have no job and my grades are bad. It feels like everything is falling apart around me. I'm trying to avoid having to get Autism-bucks but it looks like that's where my life is headed.

Seeing this same thread again alerted me to the fact that i'm lurking jp too much and need to go back to writing my essay.

Thank you OP's depression for alerting me to my proctrasination~

Life and happiness do not coexist.

I'll be happy when I sell a spec script to finally pay my bills. Until then I'll just continue my degree in computer programming, sigh...

Life is suffering, Life is Despair

Happiness is allergic to outside world

I dont believe anyone can be 100% satisfied and happy, but you can always go for 99%!
I guess i am lucky enough to not have any problems or needs at this current time, so overall i am quite happy~

Remember to try and smile and be happy /jp/!

I am extremely happy with my life. I dwell in my solitude, watching anime, playing video games and entertain myself with /jp/'s amazing ability to shitpost. This is the epitome of my life. I can't ask for anymore.

I'm meant to be going back to university in October, but I've got 2k debts, too fat and unhealthy to do any of the shitty manual labour temp jobs I could get to afford going back, haven't secured accommodation, or student financing.. I just want to take it easy. I will probably end up dropping out again anyway. Don't really know what to do with myself.

being hikikomori is suffering

I have an erectile disorder, I'm in a thousand dollars of debt, and I have no friends.

Come at me, OP.
so I can hug you

I feel tired with everything I used to like. Is that depression?

/jp/ - Emo culture.

"Could be worse"

This has been my coping strategy since I was a kid to try and keep myself from looking like a whining faggot.

Looking back I should've been one of the whiners, maybe things could have ended up differently. The nail that sticks up the furthest gets hammered.

No, but things will get better in a couple of months, if everything goes according to keikaku.

I am totally happy and only need a waifu for my life to be perfect.

>>8695388
I feels ya. That's where I'm at right now.

I'm quite satisfied with my current life. 90% playing shitty MMOs and F5ing /jp/, 10% doing programming projects and taking easy electives to maintain a 3.0 GPA at uni.

Being depressed is too much work anyway. I love laying on my bed and thinking about absolutely nothing
or fuking 2hus

Can't complain.

I'm not homeless/hungry or on fire, so it's not too bad I guess.

It's alright.

>>8695467
3.0 GPAs require maintenance?

Don't worry, you can just send weak electric pulses into your brain, that will temporarily relieve you of depression.

>>8695396
I didn't know depression was being emo

>>8695501
Apparently you haven't met too many.

>>8695505
Joke's on you, my brain sends itself millions of weak electronic pulses every second.

All I want in life is money for internet food and lodging,
time to take it easy,
and 2 certain friends of mine.
Im happy right now.

i'm happy right now.

once i'll have to stop my neet life and actually find a job, i'm expecting this to change a lot for the worse though.

i couldn't even stand the "working" practice part at the uni. after an hour or 2 i was all but ready to go home. after a week when it was over i was almost ready to kill someone if they told me to work more.

no, i have to deal with others

>>8695499
At what school and what major?
At mine, it apparently requires 10%

I have health problems(physical, painful as fuck) that make me miserable and prevent me from achieving anything. I wish I was a fairy in gensokyo flying free and taking it easy... ;_;

My life is really good right now but sometimes I become depressed for no reason.

I recently had to withdraw from two of my classes because they had too much groupwork and/or social interaction in them for me to be able to cope. I've been down for the past few weeks because I legitimately enjoyed them, and that it's now too late to withdraw the tuition for those particular courses and i've wasted money.

I've told myself I would at least teach myself the material, but whenever I look at those textbooks, I feel depressed that i'm missing out on the classes themselves.

>>8695549
The same about me. Everything is fine but I feel depressed, bored and tired of everything without any reason.

Actually, I am.
A couple of years ago I went thru some rough shit and planned to suicide by cutting my wrists. I even started some sort of "training" to get over the fear of hurting myself, but suddenly I started enjoying the life again.

>>8695568

>planned to suicide by cutting my wrists

>>8695568
Go drink some potassium cyanide and stop being an idiot.

>>8695568
I did this when I was 16. The scars piss me off because now I have to wear long-sleeved shirts for the rest of my life. I can barely have a conversation, let alone walk around announcing to the world "HELLO I AM A WEIRD, DEPRESSED FREAK AND/OR WAS AN EDGY TEENAGER."

It's surprising how much your options are limited by something so trivial.

>>8695575
lol furfag

>>8695508
In my experience, most emos aren't even depressed. They're just try-hards who want to seem cool and special by being super deep, gloomy, and weird.

/jp/ - Bodies Under Siege

>>8695607
can't you tattoo over it or go to a clinic and get the scarss removed?
also take a photo

>>8695640
>can't you tattoo over it
Full forearm, so no. Not without getting something ridiculous. Like a long black rectangle.
>go to a clinic and get the scarss removed?
Considered it. Don't have the money and I'm too embarrassed anyway. I tend to avoid problems rather than face them. That's the NEET way.
>also take a photo
No.

>>8695518
Yeah but these are weak current forced into your temples to stimulate brain activity.

>>8695607

I think you're overthinking this.

Unless you live in an unusually hot climate that makes long sleeves already unbearable there's nothing weird about wearing long sleeves as a fashion choice in themselves.

>>8695518

ECT doesn't relieve depression. It relieves you of memory consolidation (which indirectly, tends to relieve a depressive episode).

>>8695607
Put some coverup on it.

My life is shit and I like it like that.

I'm incapable of being happy.

>>8695659
If you're the same guy who posts that gif in these threads all the time then I like you a lot.

I am happy. I spent all my days reading VNs, watching animes and having fun with my waifu. Only thing that could make me happier is to graduate and get steady job.

>>8695661
You don't know me.

Step off.

>>8695669
Man this auto gif thing just makes the experience a whole lot better.
So cute.

I hate my life, and it gets worse and worse every single year. At 22, I can confidently say I will never be truly happy. The fact that I will have to work for most of my life just to subsist is the worst part. I'm sick of school, I have no friends, I'm becoming an alcoholic, and my dick doesn't work right anymore because of SSRIs.

>>8695689
how long have you been on SSRI's
I've been on them for a little over 2 years and my dick still works, I think
should I call it quits?

I just realized that 'social anxiety disorder' = SAD.

>>8695710
Since October 2009. They're fucking useless for depression, but they make me far less obsessive and worried, so I continue to use them.

It's not that my dick doesn't work at all, it's that my libido has been massively decreased. My dick also doesn't get as hard as it used to.

>>8695720
>>8695720
>>8695720
>>8695712


Manly Tears.jpg

>>8695689
>The fact that I will have to work for most of my life just to subsist is the worst part.
Ahaha, he thinks you have to work.

No, I'm quite miserable and don't enjoy anything.

Ch-cheer up /jp/! You're an intelligent, interesting individual and bound for even greater things! Your real life just hasn't begun yet.

>>8695739
Even me?

>>8695745
Yes! Even you'll get yours.

>>8695728

I don't think autism bucks would provide me with enough money after I leave my parents' house, and they won't let me live there forever.

>>8695763
But everyone runs away from me.

You can't be happy if you constantly ask if you're happy. Happiness is a choice. A mindset.

I go to college for free
what's a good degree to get??
I thought they were all useless

>>8695772
It's not autismbux alone. Doesn't your country offer welfare programs where they pay for most of your shit?

>>8695782
Dual major in Psychology and English.

Yes.

>>8692286
I'm Happy.

>>8695783

Not him, but no. My country doesn't even have autism bux. Not everybody have it that easy dude.

>>8695720
Maybe I'm just lucky but I do alright I think

>>8695803
What 3rd world shithole do you live in?

>>8695807
forgot to add:
Maybe you should try getting off them for a bit to see if your condition improves.

>>8695782
Physics or Math.

>>8692286
I have no clue why I'm depressed. Everything is so confusing.

>>8695817
Must a country be socialist to be first world?

>>8695824
Socialism and a welfare system are two complete different things.

Very depressed. Sometimes I fantasize about hanging a hope around my neck and just sitting for a while to see what it feels like.

I've made so many mistakes in my short life, and I keep making them. If I was just more clear headed, and thought out my decisions a year ago, I'd be in a much better place.

If you'd like to know more, just ask.

I've achieved a kind of pleasant numbness. I imagine it's like constantly being in the moment that immediately precedes freezing to death.

It's probably not happiness, but it's close enough for me.

>>8695837
I don't really care.
Let it out anyway.

>>8695837
>Sometimes I fantasize about hanging a hope around my neck
>hanging a hope around my neck
Strangely uplifting.

I'm not happy with my life but I've been depressed for so long that I just stopped caring and accepted that this is how things are supposed to be.

>>8695837
>If you'd like to know more, just ask.

That's some ego you have, asshole. What makes you think we're so interested? Fuck off.

>>8695846
Wouldn't a rope be even more uplifting?

>>8695853
Nah, you usually drop down in that case.

>>8695844
I'm aiming for this. Ataraxia, or whatever they call it.

>>8695870
fate/hollow ataraxia

That feel when your depression has become an inseparable part of who you are.

I'm quite happy the way i live, i'm pretty carefree, i don't have problems and i consider this my personal way of happiness
the only think i worry is that i must tell my mother to repair my new bloomers (first time buying femenine
clothes and I've yet to tell her), i can consider myself lucky

You are all depressing idots. Even the dead look down on you.

I've got a job and enough money to both eat and pay my internet. I'm living the dream.

>>8695914

I guess I'll look down upon us idots[sic] soon, then.

If I live in the moment, and I'm not too lethargic to do anything, then yes.
For those times when I'm feeling down, sometimes listening to denpa and dancing like a little girl for a while helps.

>>8695922
whats your job
is it a cool one

>>8692286

Tell me where you live and I'll come over there and shoot my load on your dead body.

>>8695954
Of course not. I stock shelves.

Sure, I spend most of my time on my hobbies and doing what I like, why would I be depressed?

What a faggot question to ask. I oughta...

I think I was, but then I moved to this shitty house on a shitty city with shitty internet and nothing has been the same since then.

Today i squatted 1 plate. Feels baby, but still better than where I started.

>>8695914
they're dead, they can't look down since they're either below us already, or already decomposed.

hell, they can't look because their eyes're probably rotten already.

I left my bedroom and started doing shit with my life about 3 years ago now. I am quite happy with my life at the moment; I really have no idea why I'm still here.

I pretty much do nothing and get paid for it. There are people who dream of my life.

>>8696136
where do you work?

>>8695850
Seen this around but was too lazy to look it up.

Google tells me it's Princess Remilia Scarlet ...

I'm on it!

I hate all everyone this site. You're all twats and dick bitters.

>>8696153
get a load of this attention whore

>>8696138
I'm /jp/'s resident night audit at a hotel

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Night_auditor

Last night I was playing Galaxy Angel Moonlight Lovers for about 5 hours.

I've also got all of Hirameki's VNs to go through and I'm looking forward to Swordgirls.

I should go back to translating shit for /jp/ that I started last year but I got pissed when my computer died 6 months ago since what I started translating was on there (it's still dead).

I feel bad but only a little.

>>8696162
i will punch you dead in your dick. don't fuck me with, asswipe.

Yes. I love life.

>>8696208
go ahead. i'm sure you'd fall down and beg for forgiveness after i looked you in the eyes once, pathetic beta.

>>8695607
Just cut some neat designs over them, that's what I did, arm looks bad ass now.

Eh, I'm very unhappy with my current life and I can't get it sorted out. There's all this stuff that's expected of me yet I can't bring anything to the table. I guess I reached my end of line and while at first it was troubling, I've become a bit more accepting to it and the only thing left now is to decide how to kill myself.

Anyone wants to play pretend?

Already sorting my life out.
My plan is:
>Go to college
>Get job
>Get girlfriend

>>8696304
>Get out of /jp/

Everything's perfect, I can relate to Based God's lifestyle pretty well. Fucking bitches all day, etc.

>>8696320
Who are you quoting?

I'm happy right now because I just made a delicious omelette.

>>8696363
The future.

Get out of /jp/

>>8695817

I'm that guy. Brazil.

>>8696002
It doesn't sound too bad, honestly.
>>8696129
We still love you.

Cant complain about me life

>>8695388
I am so tired...

I'm happy when happy people lose their happiness and become unhappy.

>>8692330
>degree in computer programming

Computer Science? Software Engineering? Or is your major actually "computer programming"? That would seem kind of odd.

>>8697231
Spoony for moderator.

That feel when no gf

>>8696148
ಠ_ಠ

Yes. A few things could be better, such as not having a potentially life threatening disease, but I'm happy with how my life is.

I love being a useless fuck, I love not having to get a job, I love sitting on my ass all day, I love talking to /jp/, I love fapping half the day and sleeping the other half, I love everyone not having any expectations of me, most of all I love how my personality changed from a ignorant normalfag to a enlightened arrogant cynic over my time on 4chan.

You've gotta have spirit! Don't look at just the negatives, look at the advantages of being how you are now!

>>8697409
Go to bed, Wojak.

>>8697409
fuck off

>>8697425
Don't you also want a cute gf to have feels and cuddle with?

Just stay positive!

I've dealt with serious illness for 8 years and have been largely alone during that time.

Am I happy with my life now? Well I'm satisfied that I'm doing what I can to make things more favorable. That's good enough I think.

I work a shitty job for shitty pay to come back and be too tired/uninterested to do things I like anymore. Some girl I know from WoW 6 years ago still talks to me on skype and really likes me even though I'm probably the most uninteresting person ever and I give her half caring replies. I don't know I'm depressed but I don't enjoy my current life, If I was faced with an ultimatum on my life I wouldn't even flinch.

More happy than I used to be, but not really in a place where I'm comfortable yet. I'll get there someday. Hopefully soon.

>>8697446
wwww
I a,m insane due toservere depression

>>8697475
Should of mentioned we don't voice chat on skype, just write to each other. Talking would be weird and awkward.

>>8694002

please respond

some of you assholes probably have chronic lyme

>>8697484
>Should of

You should have gone to bed already.

I am healthy young man.
my 21st birthday my parents bought me a house.
this year they gave me complete control over my trust fund.

I spend my mornings watching the news and trading stocks.
I spend my afternoons playing tennis with my friends.
I spend my nights either depressed at a bar or with my lovely /jp/ friends :)

The only problem right now is that I cant find that special someone.

>>8697517
of = have, dealio wiv it!!

>>8697531

guess even the 1% have their problem huh

>>8697531
Do you have much luck with stocks?

Honestly, you're pretty much fucking gambling. You may as well gamble for a living. Go learn to play poker or hand out poker stakes or something. It's fucking easy money if you find the right deal.

>>8697556

Its not really luck once you understand how it works. I pretty much just focus on making what i spend every month in the first week or 2, and the rest of the profits i put towards new ideas, whether they fail or work out it wont affect my living standards.

day trading is pretty simple. If you understand the different terms and have a bit of background in psychology, you can pretty much piece things together.

after a while of not making the best choices, you start seeing patterns that correlate to news, such as a merger/acquisition or simply earnings report estimates simply effect those "normal" people's minds and their low level of corporate financial understanding. those who understand it capitalize upon this very easily.

I wouldnt suggest trying it out except on paper at first if your interested. learn a bit of how corporations operate and stuff.

but personally i do not like day trading, its quite stressful to try and pull out everything in low/med caps. Instead I apply it throughout the week, trading around 7-20 times depending on the short term performance and news that happen around that time.

Probably my biggest expense would have to be taxes. I just hate cap gains tax. I dont know how to 'pros' handle theirs and it makes me want to go back to school for some corporate tax law courses.

I've been accepted into a pretty good university and I have the money to pay for tuition but I'm so scared of going. I haven't talked with anyone who isn't immediate family for so long.

>>8692286
>Are you happy with your life /jp/?

I am discontent enough to try to improve things, but it is a feeling of motivation rather unhappiness.

>i am depressed

I used to be. My future was bleak and hopeless. All of my dreams had come to nothing. I daydreamed about death constantly, and made a half-assed faggot attempt at taking my own life. Even then I didn't want to get help, since it was obvious I didn't really want to die if I couldn't go through with it -- as much as I hated myself, being the kind of person who pretends to have problems to get attention would be even worse.

Now I take Prozac, and all those odd feelings don't occur anymore. I can remember having them, but I can't even fully understand my mindset at the time. It's like it was a different person.

>>8697603
You are gambling. What you just described is a gambling system. You use your in-depth knowledge of a system to give yourself an edge. Like a professional gambler.

Still, sounds like a grind, but pretty interesting. Will look into if I ever get enough money to mess around with it. Thanks for the tips I'll never have the money to put into practice.

My life is kinda going nowhere but I accept and enjoy things in such a way that frickin budha would like an appretince to me... I trascendentally fucking love life

>>8697556
>>8697603

and if you are interested in it... a secret to see how people will usually react to a certain news if it is not very clear... simply as your friends and family that do not know much about it. normally their reactions will be the market's reaction after several hours or the next day's morning because most working families that invest in stocks usually are at work and read the news or watch the news when they get home -> markets closed and they input what they want, and the orders are carried out ASAP, which is why mornings are quite active.

. what happens immediately after a certain news is usually other traders and investors or would-be traders. Messing with them is cutthroat shit. sometimes they even do stuff to trick other traders into buying a company's stock, only to utilize the small price boost/drop to sell theirs. <- again another reason i dont like day trading.

>>8697629

i guess it would be considered gambling... betting on a certain company to succeed. the tools you use are at everyone's disposal as long as they learn the ways to utilize it.

>>8697387
I recently discovered that there are colleges that even offer degrees in "IT".

(I was trying to think of the best way to express my mixture of bemusement and contempt at such a thing, but I think the idea is ridiculous enough that people will get the idea just from hearing it described.)

I've been through a lot of shit. Maybe not as much as some, maybe more than others. I got bullied so bad that my locker in middle school was lit on fire because the kid thought it'd make him more popular. Went out with a lot of women hoping to cure my loneliness, but my social awkwardness forced most women to either cheat on me, or use me for my kindness.

But somehow things worked out. I have an office job, I'm engaged to a girl with similar interests and hobbies, and most of those people from high school are in poverty living on their own with children.

Yeah, I'm happy.

>>8697643
You should really play some poker. Learn the game, start small, you know, so you're not crushed by high stakes regulars, wait until online poker is back up in the US, and if you enjoy it's there'll be plenty of money to be made when the US does re-enter the ring.

No.

I don't even know anymore. I've been to dozens of therapists and doctors, been on numerous medications since I started High School. I never took them properly and I was drinking a lot with them back then which is not a smart thing to do. It used to be depression but now I'm not sure what it has evolved into. When I try to think about what is wrong with me and how to fix it my mind feels like someone threw a wrench in its gears and it seems its getting to the point that any sort of deep thought causes this feeling. I can't enjoy anything anymore, everything seems pointless an I'm alone.

I don't want to be alive but I don't have the guts to kill myself so I'll rot away like this.

>>8697720
sounds to me like you're just jaded from a rough life and hobbies that have worn out their use.

Try getting out and finding new things to do? Maybe get off the meds if you still take them. I remember mine made me more depressed than anything else.

New things can always help spice things up. Maybe a club or something that involves working with other people yet with minimal interaction as to avoid social awkwardness? Like, take martial arts lessons or something. Go to a gym, things like that. I might be way off the mark, but anything's worth a shot, right?

>>8697742
>anything's worth a shot
This is good advice. Brains are complex, you never know what is going to help in advance.

This last month I've recovered some of my mind.
I can remember a bit of what I read. I think I had some feelings (yay!) when I read Watanagashi-hen. I'm noticing smells and backgrounds again.
One day I just... woke up like that. I'm happier than I had been the past four years, I don't complain, but I'm fucking confused.

Couldn't be happier as I start to near 30 and become wizard.

Work is fine, I got enough monies, and I spend all my free time doing fun things (fapping to animes/eroges, remixing game music, and working out). Not much more I could ask for really.

>>8697755

congrats on your marriage.

>>8697753
You probably have a chemical imbalance somewhere in you that just resolved itself naturally.

>>8697742
Thanks anon but I'm beyond being helped. My brain is broken.

>>8697531
>Trust fund

You have no idea how lucky you are to have parents that were smart enough to make enough money and have such a thing available to you. Don't waste it.

Nope. I got a new phone even, and upgrading PC soon. I just want to die, and have wanted to for 7 years now. But I have people who care about me and need me around.

>>8697788
so are the brains of most politicians. You don't see them just sitting on their asses doing noth- okay, bad example.

But, better to try rather than just admit defeat. We're humans, not animals. We have the ability to go against basic logic and find new paths instinct won't guide us to. Depression drains all motivation. Thing is, unless you fight against that, it will only get worse.

But, I'm not going to try and force you into doing anything over the internet. I probably don't even know how you feel. Still, that's all I got.

I am depressed everyday. I plan on starting HRT and become a girl, maybe I'll be less depressed...

>>8697856
Unless you have extremely girly features already then enjoy looking like an abomination.

>>8697861
even if you do have girly features, Estrogen is NOT an antidepressant. It will make you more emotional if anything.

>>8697856
THATS WHAt i am doing!!!!!

I don't understand what i'm supposed to do to be happy. Everything I've done is because my mom told me to do it. If I had not been told, I'd just be sleeping all day. I feel like a husk.

>>8697867
Source?

>>8697867
>>8697888
TOOO LEWD

>>8697888
and/or not 8-bit colors?

Yes.

I'm a bit lonely, but that will pass.

>>8697894
What? Please respond.

>>8697867
See >>8697753
What I did do is (a) go to a class for a test I had to take, two days per week with people I didn't particularly like, for two months, and (b) take Agomelatine, 50mg/day.
But I had done (a) a number of times before and as for (b), I had been taking that dosage for more than one month.
One day after years of "How the fuck can people be happy, why are they happy and I am not when I do the same things as them, etc.", I woke up and I could 'concentrate' a bit 'better' (well, more like my whole brain got unstuck). I'm not saying everybody has my same problem, but for me, the only conclusion that I can make is that it's totally fucking random.
Exercise? Eat well? Go out? Bullshit.

I don't have enough time to do the fun things I like to do but at least I still find things fun.

I am happy because my body is showing signs of increasing fitness.

Pic related, just a few weeks ago I couldn't do this for shit, but now I can easily do it.

>>8697986

thighs not level to ground; poor squat form.

>>8697655

An associates degree from a technical institute, or a full-on bachelors/masters/PhD thing?

No, but there no point in bitching about it.

>>8697867
Welp, I am still expecting source.

>>8697991
>>>/fit/

>>8698253
Better with kinect:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fEue0UkKH_U

>>8698277

But /fit/ prefers ass to grass squats over parallel squats. The problem with her squat form (weightlifting) is actually that her heels are off of the ground and that her legs are spread too far apart. Her depth is good in terms of weightlifting.

I don't really know how to answer a question like that.

I'm not unhappy. Days go by in a daze. It's full of goals that are missed by a mile and plans that never get off the ground. A few years ago, I would have ]answered, "I don't deserve to be happy because I'm a piece of shit," and then put on a brave front and repeated to myself again, "There is nothing that should truly make me said, and therefore, I'm happy."

I hated myself back then. I liked myself better back then. The fact that I hated myself meant that maybe there was still something redeeming in me. Now I don't care, and there's nothing. I'm not unhappy.

/jp/ - my dark'n'edgy attention-whoring emo newfaggot blog

>>8698321
You are a fucking faggot if you think writing here is going to make you the "better person", I suggest you back to your delusional cave, nothing like an ignorant loser thinking he is better because he isn't "/jp/-like". Fool, typing from mommy's basement isn't rocket science.

>>8698320
That's not a weightlifting squat, though. It's the infamous "Asian squat".

>>8698320

that horrible moment of realization when you see that she's wearing flipflops and not some sort of sketchy sneakers.

Time to lay off the Wild Turkey.

I'm not happy, but I'm not really depressed. I'm just content.

Content most of the times, there are some days on which I'm pretty happy. That's probably going to change soon though, my health has been going down a steep hill the last few months.

>>8698320
I don't lift, or squat, I just thought redirecting a post about squat form to /fit/ was good enough as a joke. Thank you for the valuable squatting info, though.

No because I spent 60€ on the Tenga Fliphole only to find out that my dick is too wide.
>you will never know what it feels like to have a tiny wiener

>>8698379
>You are a fucking faggot if you think writing here is going to make you the "better person"
I didn't say anything of the sort.

>I suggest you back to your delusional cave, nothing like an ignorant loser thinking he is better because he isn't "/jp/-like".
The fuck does this mean?

>Fool, typing from mommy's basement isn't rocket science.
Honestly, it just sounds to me like you started up the flamethrower and start spraying fire randomly, since this doesn't make any sense outside of being vaguely insulting.

No.
I hate working.
I dread having to force myself to wake up to go work.
It would be fine if it is a normal 9-5 job but most of the time I have to work till at least 830 and by the time I reach home it would already be 9 or 10.
And then I would need to sleep early since I need to wake up to go work again tomorrow.
I can only find happiness during the weekend and they are short as hell. I dont even have time for my hobby, I am only at chapter2 of Kamidori.
Treasure your time NEET anons.
You dont want to end up like me.

I wish I am back in school, where I only need to go to class for 2semester which is like 6months a year while having the other half off.

>>8698827
what do you do, out of curiosity?
I'll have to start working soon and god I can't really picture myself doing anything anyone ask.

No.
I don't know why, but I'm depressed for several weeks now because I never had a girlfriend.
It would be great to have a nice girlfriend that also loves anime.

Stars collapse; universes shrink daily.

http://youtu.be/qomiyFlewCI

>>8692286
is anyone else heavily aroused by Tenshi's boots in this picture?

>>8698954

They look like normal boots to me.

I don't have the words to put it right, but try your hardest to maintain a positive attitude on life. It's absolutely possible to find a bad side in everything, but thinking like that doesn't make you any happier. You have your touhous and this silly board, many would be happy to have as much!

that feel when you've been in isolation for so long you've just stopped caring altogether

>that feel

>work 100 hours a week for basically free because LOL NAVY

nope

I miss being a NEET

>>8692286
I have a job and I will graduate this year and best of all last summer I finally found a friend

Another /jp/er. I'm going to meet him again next weekend. Yes OP I am very happy.

You should cheer up! Nice things can happen if you try. I was once a very lonely and sad person, but not anymore.

>>8699334
>Nice things can happen if you try.
That's a funny way of saying "Nice things can happen if your luck permits it".

>>8699334
I wish I had a /jp/ friend.

>>8699334
Are you gonna suck his cock, dude?

Yes.

Though it's 9:30am and I'm too lazy to move to my bed to go to sleep

>>8699346
No we have never done that, but I would suck his cock if he asked for it

I just lost my last friend.
His last words to me were "Are you fucking autistic or something? Seriously, I can't deal with it anymore."
So it goes.

>>8699375
I wish I didn't have friends. I was so much more productive without any.

>>8699371
I wonder if he's reading this now.

>>8699375
Similar thing happened to me. Did you get accused of being an emotionless sociopath too?

It's not that I'm a sociopath or I don't have emotions.
It's that I just can't be bothered.

>>8699344
You don't. Everyone I met from here so far has been very unfriendly, very negative and/or had a huge ego problem.

>>8699389
Or maybe they just have massive scale mood swings. I for one do.

>>8699386
"Autism" and "can't deal with this" do not go hand-in-hand with "emotionless" and "can't be bothered".

>>8699389
That's everybody on 4chan.

When I graduated from high school, I gave up on friends. It's been about 3 years since then, and it's never been a concern for me.

Several years ago, I used to feel lonely sometimes. One day, I analyzed those feelings, and tried to figure out exactly what they were saying. I came to the conclusion that it's simply the desire 'to be known by others.' The reason for that desire is probably a direct result of pride as an individual.

I don't know. Maybe I still have that desire, or I wouldn't be posting here. But it's not something that bothers me as much anymore.

I'm not a sociopath. But when I see people in the real world, I can't relate to them even a little. I can't deal with them, so it makes me frustrated when I have to. And, almost all of them are superficial to the core, anyway. So I can't be bothered to care about them. That includes my entire family, and all of the friends I once had.

There are people I can deal with, but... Even for them, I have trouble. Many times, when I engage in arguments with people, I find that my logic is full of fallacies. I think I may have been born with a mental illness of some sort. But it's not like I'm ashamed of it or anything... I've always been on a journey for wisdom from the start, so I'll just find a way to correct myself.

>>8699414
>on 4chan
In the world.

>>8699460
Too far of a generalization.

>>8699452
I read your post.
I just want you to know that, you'v been heard and, on some level, understood. I hope reading this makes you feel good, I really do.

I love life. Every day is enjoyable to me.

>>8695539
Cheer up, buddy.
I'm your firend. anytime.

Refresh yourself with this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZr6MyfGxYM

The greatest thing you ever can do is trade a smile with someone who's blue

>>8699389
Sometimes I think it would be nice to meet a /jp/er, but then I remember that many people here are the kind of person that I actively avoid and hate.

No ;_;

>>8699494
Don't kid yourself. Everyone hates you and in your case they actually have a very good reason to.

>>8699375
>>8699386
Hahaha, wow. It was kind of the same for me. I keep messaging but they never respond anymore. I was told I was too dependent and over-analytical. But it was my first time having a friend like that, you can't blame me...

>>8699512
>blue
what do smurfs have to do with it though?

No. I can't find any milky holmes with lactation. I want to see the tanteis with milky tits.

>>8699782
>>8699375
>>8699386
You three should exchange contact details and suck each others' autistic cocks, dude.

>>8699414
I'd like to think that 4chan actually made me quite a bit more humble. I realized that the most I could do was try and convince someone of my argument, and that this collective is much smarter than myself. I think 4chan as a whole may be the best thing to happen.

No. I'm not happy but I'm not terribly sad either.

I'm on my first year of college (computer engineering) and I'm getting great grades, I get along quite well with the people there but somehow I feel tired and exhausted. I don't go out except for uni (my mother buys me clothes) I don't know anyone who shares my interests... and I can't stand how slow and boring some classes can be, despite that I haven't missed a single one of them yet. I try to evade myself into studying harder but after the exams period I get completely lost, I can't get me to do absolutely anything and feel like shit for a few weeks.

Sometimes I stalk my HS friends' twitter and they've all become much more "normal", they all started to drink and such. On the other hand, I have become much more immersed into anime and touhou since I started uni.

I feel like crap sometimes but then I remember there are people in a much worse situation than me, incapable of affording college or getting bad grades despite trying their best, so I somehow think "don't be a pussy, there are people that would kill to be in your situation, man up and keep working hard", but that's only temporary.

About girls... well I'm a virgin and haven't had a gf yet. I'm not particularly bad looking, I'm 5'7'' and 123 lbs, I don't wear glasses or have acne or shit... but in my class there's only 1 girl, and she's a disgusting loud landwhale, and since I only go out to uni and then back home, meeting one wouldn't be exactly easy. Furthermore, I'm not interested even the slightest in most girls... I just want some non-obese girl that shares my interests, period, that's all I'm looking for. But I haven't had luck yet ;_;

Pic related, that's me every weekend.

>>8700151
>Welcome back to /jp/
>Now get the fuck out

This is why I love you guys.

>>8700168
who are you quoting?

>>8699340
>That's a funny way of saying "Nice things can happen if your luck permits it".

If you try things will happen if your luck permits it.

If you don't try, if you're lucky your life will stay the same, and if you're unlucky things will slowly get worse.

>>8700151
You seem like a huge faggot.

>>8699340
In my experience, there's no such thing as luck.

GROUP HUG

I am not capable of being happy.

>>8700601

>tumblr

>>8700618
Original artist has two comics going, one of them is hosted on tumblr.

Op here I feel better now. You guys should just learn to smile.

>>8700671
Eat a dick.

No one is ever truly happy with their life, some people are just better at dealing with it than others.

I am endlessly entertained by my childlike sense of wonder. Experts call it autism.

Nah, I'm not too happy with it. It could be way better, if I only put in a little effort, but I'm just way too lazy. Despite that though, I won't say that it's boring. This kind of life... It has its moments where it seems like it's not so bad.

>>8700331
Wrong.

I'll be "happy" when I get my inheritance.

Not really /jp/ realted but I met the most wonderful person in the world, he makes very happy and doesn't care I have /jp/ hobbies.

So while I am a huge mess, a dropout, lazy, irresponsible, childish.. I feel blessed. No regrets, I'm happy. I wish you all the same, I really do.

>>8703903
Isn't there some forum for you guys? Like Fagchan or something? Where you can all discuss being fags together. This is an American website.

>>8700678
Why are you so mad /jp/? You always depressed because your a neckbeard?

>>8703903
That's so fucking sweet, thanks anon.

It's been 23 years that I've been waiting for happiness. Lately, I've been thinking that it'd be a good thing if I started looking for it.

I'm alright.

>>8704153
They say that you shouldn't keep asking yourself all the time, whether it's okay to be happy or not.

I try to apply that advice to my life, but it's kind of hard...

Have any Britfriends tried applying for Employment and Support Allowance or some other LCW benefits for depression/anxiety?
The criteria seem to fit me but I'm not sure if depression/anxiety is "serious" enough (normalfags rejoice!). My social worker suggested it though.

I'm quite depressed. I just was forced to quit two of my classes because they had too many groupwork and/or oral presentation requirements that I wouldn't be able to pass if I eschewed them.

Fuck, why can't I at least have some trauma I can blame this on? At least I would have some other reason to believe that this self-inflicted anxiety isn't my fault.

>>8707513
Are you me?

>>8707513
THIS HAPPENED TO ME LAST WEEK. I was like 10 minutes late for my class. When I opened the door, everyone was working in exact groups of 4. I stepped back, closed the door, and never came back to that class again. I'll never graduate.

I'm always tired.

Not always exhausted, like I used to be - I can actually visit a gym on a regular basis, now - but still... just fucking tired. Even when I get to sleep as long as I want, whenever I want, I always seem to end up back in bed, or staring at a computer screen with a numb, weary mind.

I've got talent... I know that. But that talent is creative, and to make money with it requires a lot of hit-and-miss, a lot of time, effort, and hard work, and I just don't have the stamina for that, physically or mentally. Creative work is exhausting as hell, and I so rarely have the energy to spare. How the fuck am I supposed to manage a career out of it, much less the years of unpaid, desperate work required to even break into the money side of things?

I don't talk to my friends anymore. It's as easy as picking up a phone and dialing them, but I don't have anything to say to them anymore. I really don't.

23 years old and I'm ready to rest, so soon.

>>8707857
Oh look, I found yet another me.

ITT: "/jp/" slowly pieces together that it is all the same, schizophrenic poster.

>>8707873
More like ITT: I want to hug everyone.

;_;

Seriously, I wish there was a way we could help each other.

>>8707857

I don't remember making this post.

I'm being evicted at the end of april and i have no money or job, i've been a NEET for most of my life. I was also feeling increasingly sick all of the time, mostly chest pain, light-headedness, very fast/hard heartbeat etc and. feeling extremely tired all of the time even if I had plenty of sleep etc.. I honestly thought I might be really sick with some kind of heart disease and I was going to die soon but didn't want to see a doctor.

Thats when I googled up a bunch of my symptoms and came across one guy that sounded exactly like me, mid-twenties really similar symptoms and followed his thread on a forum. Turns out after every kind of test they could think of they couldn't find anything wrong with him. He was just suffering from extreme anxiety.

So I forced myself to think really positively about everything and amazingly I feel really great right now. I thought I had some sort of severe heart disease and was going to die if I tried to excercise and now I feel fine for the most part. It sounds strange and it took a few days to get to this point but I really managed to get over the anxiety myself in a short time.

I still get really worried thinking about getting a job and sometimes i can feel my heart beating hard or mild chest pains, but I can get it to stop with 'mind tricks', i guess you'd call them.I'm planning to get a job,but it's still hard thinking about it. I'm slowly working myself towards the idea and I plan to go looking for one on monday. I have a lot of issues with social situations, and fixed schedules but hopefully if I try to keep this attitude I can do it somehow.

I'll most probably end out staying in homeless shelters or something for a bit but hopefully everything works out. I've thought about applying for welfare (while still looking for a job), though I'm not sure how easy it is to get for someone like me.

>>8707857
Tired at work. Tired when I wake up. Too tired to go my hobbies (sports). What the fuck? It's spring too, wasn't this supposed to be the time when the increased light tricks my mind into happymode? I have to squeeze a positive mindset out of myself everytime I leave for work so the day won't be all out miserable.

Just found out my mother's been really suicidal in the past and that's why dad ended up leaving us. She says my life has been exactly like hers so far, solving the mystery of how I ended up here.

After some consideration, it would appear one of the main reasons I feel happy with life is that I can quite easily imagine things about it that could be improved.

>>8707865
>>8707891
>>8707909

Well that's something, at least.

Together depressed.

>>8707857
Could be Hypothyroidism. See an Endocrinologist or just get your blood (and maybe urine) tested by a general physician.

I'm very happy. I have a job that I enjoy, and then I get to come home and do hobbies that I enjoy. What more could I ask for?

>>8707873
Oh, I am one yet many...

My anxiety has turned into fear. I don't want to fear anymore.

>>8707431
I'm on that and Disability Living Allowance right now for autism. I might lose the DLA though, apparently. I'm not looking forward to that.

I say go for it. You certainly won't lose anything by trying. Might even get £400 a month if you're lucky.

>>8708426
Why lose it?

Recently my appetite mostly went away. Yesterday I forced myself to eat anyway, but today I think I'll just go without.

Lately I've also been feeling detached from everything, like things just happen on their own and somehow even my thoughts aren't really under my control.

I've also been really tired all the time. It doesn't seem to make a difference how much sleep I get. Every week I end up just trying to get by and end up too tired to do anything else.

I've also been hit by a wave of illness recently. Its under control now, but when it was spiking a fever (at 103.7 F) I was tempted to just let go of the ice, put on a few more blankets and just let myself pass out and die. I certainly regretted my decision to keep living once the fever subsided and I was then in too much pain to be able to sleep.

>>8708444
Because apparently DLA is given out too freely, the government is poor, and some guy somewhere had a thought that cutting the lowest rate of DLA (which is the only one you can get for autism) sounded like a smashing idea. I'm still not sure if/when it's going to happen though so I'm saving the £150 a month from it just in case.

>>8708458
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-london-17366756

Even when such tragic happens.

>>8708475
I actually heard about that. My mother told me about it this morning. What a strange experience for me to actually know of things happening in the outside world.
>officers assaulted a 16-year-old boy with severe autism by forcing him into handcuffs and leg restraints during a school trip
And the kid got £28,250 for it. I could live on that much for the next 9 and a half years, I'm jealous. Maybe I should jump fully clothed into a public pool and try my own luck.

>>8708517
When I read that for the first time I was wondering what they should have done instead.

>>8708426
What sort of autism?

>>8708527
I still can't really see what they should have done instead. I mean it sounds like they acted based on their better judgement. If a dude who couldn't swim just abruptly jumped fully-clothed into a pool of water, the first thing you'd expect someone to do is haul him out of it and make sure he doesn't go jumping back in again.

>>8708539
High-functioning. I was surprised I was even eligible for DLA but apparently just about any sort of autism can (could?) get you on the lower rate.

>>8708636
> I was surprised I was even eligible for DLA
Well I am going to be properly diagnosed after a psychiatrist suggested I might have Asperger syndrome. I was wondering about this, thanks for existing. I guess autismbux aren't a joke after all!

>>8708785
Asperger's should work too. The UK seems pretty chill about that stuff, like giving out free money a lot. Seems like they've realized that this maybe isn't the best idea but I doubt they'll do anything about it within the next few months, even then you should still be able to get ESA which is the better part of it anyway.
Good luck with that and all, once you get it sorted it really gets rid of one big source of stress for a lot of people.

>people advocating benefit fraud

I wish I could hug you all

I am a coward, /jp/. Fuck.

I CAN'T EVEN SAGE RIGHT FUCK ME

>>8708831
>Asperger's should work too.

Have you ever worked with with people with aspergers? Some of them are relatively fine, others are pretty crippled, which is one of the reasons why they're trying to integrate it back into high functioning autism(though that might leave a lot of people out in the cold).

A lot of kids with aspergers remain just that, kids. Sending them off to work can be like sending off a mentally unstable 10 year old.

I'm all for getting people with difficulties back into work and all that, but it shouldn't be forced on them if it's going to end up being a disaster for them and everyone around them. The Tories just want to make people with difficulties go back into work without paying for the therapy and training needed to do so. In my books, that makes you a scumbag.

>>8708458

Giving the lowest rate for full blown autism is completely retarded because it's actually one of the most crippling disabilities you can possibly have in terms of holding down employment.

Even some people with aspergers just cannot keep a normal routine.

Again, with some changes, the right training and a more adaptable workplace, you can get around this. But the Tories aren't interested in actually making this workable, they just want to make stupid decisions in the name of "saving money".

Doing this in the middle of a recession is doubly stupid too, as in a competitive environment people with disabilities are unlikely to get any kind of job.

>>8708475
>Case I might've sympathised with

>'inhuman or degrading treatment'
>'was said to have suffered moderate post-traumatic stress disorder.'
>'disability discrimination'
>'He was awarded £28,250 in damages'

>Nope.rtf

>>8709533
> Have you ever worked with with people with aspergers?
I've read your posts on /jp/ if that counts.

>>8709533
When I said "Asperger's should work too" I meant it should work in getting you on benefits. Not that people with asperger's should work. Guess I worded that a bit poorly.

>>8709592
Nah, you were making plenty of sense in the context of this thread. PotC just loves to flip the fuck out for no reason and tell people about life, universe and everything.

who cares

Why is this thread not deleted? When did /jp/ become the teen suicide hotline?

Quit complaining about first world problems and grow some balls. You're all just like the pathetic emos at my high school that everyone made fun of for good reason.

how does one applying for welfare /jp/

>>8709627
Oh, look, it's an eagle faggot again.

>>8709627
I guess because depression is related to hikkikomori, maybe? I don't know. The new moderation on /jp/ seems kind of flaky to me.
Also, OP neds to lurk moar to learn the proper terminology for these threads.

>>8709627
Maybe you should be fun of for not realizing some of us have real problems you cunt. Just because you live in a first world country doesn't mean you came from a rich perfect family such as yourself. Also some of us suffer from other problems. Learn some empathy

>>8709674
Shut your mouth, you cumguzzler.

>>8709646
You need to lurk more and learn that it's "lurk more" outside of /b/.

We already lost "in before" to "inb4", I won't let it happen again.

>>8709684
plz don't bully

Lately whenever I've thought about killing myself I also became sexually aroused. As if somehow dying is a turn on for me.

How long is it going to be until I'm found dead, in my bathroom, while naked, covered in dried bodily fluids, and with a rope around my neck?

>>8709674
I have no sympathy for foreigner scum who can't even speak the language of prosperity properly.

I'm not from a rich family, either. My parents got divorce when I was five and lost all their money to divorce lawyers. I grew up as an ignored middle child in a broken house where there was nothing for dinner most days. I worked my way through school with straight A's, got a scholarship to a private high school, and am now a med student in residency at a VA hospital. I'm happy and successful because I'm not a spoiled shit like 95% of your whiny faggots complaining about your "depression". Grow the fuck up and stop looking for sympathy and attention for any mental problems you have instead of working through them like a functional member of society.

Rick Santorum would spit on all of you.

>>8709704
Preach it, brother.

>>8709687
That idiocy started on /a/ within the last year. It has always been lurk moar.

>>8709704

>>8709704
Amen. ;_;

>>8709738
>>8709717
>>8709711
>>8709704
>>8709627
samefag plz go

>>8709742
please respond

>>8709704
Well put.

>>8709704
Eagle-san, why are you posting in a wapanese board if you're this good, you should be impregnating the females of the, every day weaker, American empire who are losing their battle to Mexicans and Asians.

>>8709756
Eagleman already has three sons - Solid Snake, Liquid Snake, and Solidus Snake.

They're the Sons of Liberty.

>>8709780
Colonel? I've got Emma Emmerich here. We've managed to avoid drowning!

>>8709704
So you're fine wasting the vast majority of your time doing nothing more than working. What a fucking normalfag.

Not to mention that you call English the "language of prosperity" which is simply laughable, there is nothing about that language that makes it better than all the others.

I guess you think you're free in America, well let me tell you that you're wrong. Money rules the world, and that's especially true for America, where all these huge corporations have so much influence. It won't be long before those big corporations are monitoring all of your communications. They've already pretty much made the government their bitch.

>>8709897
The day you take eagleman seriously is the day you realize you're clinically retarded.

Did the Rick Santorum and Newt's "language of prosperity" references not make it obvious enough for you?

>>8709940
Maybe with this level of autism, I can get autism bucks.

Anyone experienced an eating disorder coupled with extremely low self-esteem?
How do people suffering from those "disorders" work?
Most of the time when I talk to them, I just think it's because they take everything for granted and are spoiled as fuck, which makes me even more mad since they always have better family backgrounds than I do.

me in 2012

>>8709710
It's lurk more because only mentally retarded people say "moar". We (pretend) to not have people like these here.