Write What's on Your Mind /wwoym/

[Anonymous No.22812525]

Saxon edition.

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[Anonymous No.22812534]

I saw a dog last fall. I petted him and he licked my hands. I spent the rest of the day going through lint rollers. Do not pet dogs in fall.

[Anonymous No.22812576]

Depression, man, it's handing my ass to me.

[Anonymous No.22812747]

>>22812576
I know that feel. Been on and off meds but they didnt help at all except dampen the amplitude of my moods. That's it. I've been going to the classical therapy for almost a year but I'm yet to see any groundbreaking breakthrough.

[Anonymous No.22812750]

>>22812747
I know what things are causing my depression but I fear that it will not go away after I do those things.

[Anonymous No.22812757]

I went and bought chocolate milk and chocolate chip cookies today, the cookies are a bit hard and it's not the best chocolate milk I've ever had, whatever, I'm gonna go watch Clerks and have anxiety.

[Anonymous No.22812758]

>>22812750
What's in your case?
severe neurosis is my cause

[Anonymous No.22812759]

>>22812758
Being a failure. There are certain things that I should be doing/should've done that I'm not doing/haven't done.

[Anonymous No.22812760]

>>22812759
That does sounds like regret. A lot of it is related to the past and especially to timely event which are not going to happen ever again. Once you've missed, it's gone forever, just like losing innocence

[Anonymous No.22812765]

>>22812760
One of the things for example is me not having a job. I'm 21, live at home, pay no rent and have no job. I wake up to no one in the house, do whatever I want all day until people get home and then feel fucking terrible because they worked hard all day and I've been sitting here doing fuck all. I'm a high school dropout with nothing going for me that just sits on his ass all day, everyone around me has progressed in life and I'm still stuck in the same place as I was 5 years ago. This isn't for a lack of trying mind you, I want a job, I've been looking and applying, there just isn't anything that will take me or that I can do without having to travel 1h30m on the train every day because guess what, I also don't know how to drive.

[Anonymous No.22812777]

>>22812525
Why do Qubo shows have so much sovl to them?
Babar & Rupert are the first two cozy shows that come to mind.

[Anonymous No.22812798]

>>22812758
>>22812750
>>22812760
I've wasted countless hours being stuck in a neurotic hellhole. Those hours in turn ruined my productivity for the rest of the day. These days in turn became weeks.
As soon as you stop wasting time thinking of the lost chances you had, a new door will open revealing all the opportunities the future has to offer

[Anonymous No.22812813]

I had a friend over one night to watch the UFC with me, he'd never seen it before and it was a good chance for us to hang out. I talked some much about it and told him so much about it that my throat started hurting. Maybe I am interested in something.

[Anonymous No.22812829]

>>22812798
new opportunities cannot outweight the past ones. getting first kiss at 13 and 33 is just not the same and no damage control will erase it.

[Anonymous No.22812835]

I slipped up on ice and hit my head with concrete. Am I dead, and if yes, why am I still here?

[Anonymous No.22812837]

>>22812829
You are in a bottomless pit of self pity. Even if that is true and getting kissed at 13 is so magical, it won't change things. You're an adult and you need to accept what's done is done. If you don't do that then in the future you'll be even more depressed thinking about all the wasted opportunities you had in your 30s.
Be a hero not a martyr. Escape the bottomless pit before it's too late.

[Anonymous No.22812854]

>>22812835
This is hell.
Your punishment is a thousand, thousand years of /lit/.

[Anonymous No.22812862]

>>22812835
I slipped on a skate park ramp when I was in high school. It was pissing down with rain and the class was walking back from the gym which was across the road and I thought I'd try to walk up the quarter pipe for some reason. I ate shit.

[Anonymous No.22812869]

being gay with the homeboys

[Anonymous No.22812876]

>>22812525
--- Solaria ---

2011

Catullus

If only you knew the music I do,
You'd never have written a word,

[Anonymous No.22812877]

>>22812837
I think that this regret stems from my doubt that perhaps those experiences (and getting them) would make me normal and not an outcast from the rest of humanity.

[Anonymous No.22812885]

>>22812877
Those events in of themselves wouldn't have stopped you from being an outcast. There is a common variable at heart which prevented you from having these experiences.
Trying finding what these variables could be, but DO NOT for a second create alternative scenarios in your head of a better world.

[Anonymous No.22812889]

>>22812885
I know these variables but that doesnt stop me from regretting about non-existing "What if.." scenarios. I could perhaps even do great but what if someone asks me about it and then I'd be exposed and ridiculed. Not to mention that seeing other people always reminds me of my inferiority which cannot be ever erased, perhaps hidden.

[Anonymous No.22812905]

>>22812889
>I know these variables but that doesnt stop me from regretting about non-existing
You are possessed by a demon who is making you waste your life.
>Not to mention that seeing other people always reminds me of my inferiority which cannot be ever erased, perhaps hidden.
I used to be envious of one of my middle school friends after I saw him in HS as a senior. He was taller, had a drivers license, probably had better grades than me, etc. During my neurotic days I hated him. I regret feeling any ounce of envy towards him and wishing the worst for him.
Submit yourself to that which is moral. Don't let these demons control your life.
Aufiderzein /lit/

[Anonymous No.22812907]

>>22812829
First kiss at 28 or 1989, last at 38 or 1999.

[Anonymous No.22812911]

I'm not looking forward to becoming ash. I'd rather stay as bones.

[Anonymous No.22812914]

>>22812905
that demon is me
>During my neurotic days
did you stop being one?

[Anonymous No.22812939]

>>22812525
--- Solaria ---
2014

I wonder often about the fondness of the feeling
I feel for her.

I am not so sweet, nor ever hope to be
But she is my favorite,

Beautiful in feeling as I wish to be.

[Anonymous No.22812940]

>>22812576
Well that was very kind of it. How long had your ass been missing?

[Anonymous No.22812942]

>>22812914
>that demon is me
Not only is that statement cringe, but it's inaccurate. You are not inherently a demon. The "demons" that I described refer to entities which cause nothing but trouble for you inside your mind.
>did you stop being one?
I am still a bit neurotic, but I'm 100x better than I was last yr.

[Anonymous No.22812943]

>>22812747
Therapy and drugs don't work
You need God. Sorry to be so clumsily direct and I'm sure you've heard it all before but I'm just telling you the truth man. You don't need to become a zealot or a blind fool, just pick up the Bible. Legit. Read proverbs or the New Testament. You'll realize everything right away.
Depression comes from being away from God. There is no other cause. You feel like a failure? What was the goal? You feel me? Failure in reference to what goal? Lol, there's no goal in life!!! We feel like failures when we haven't met material ambitions, but those are meaningless! God loves and created you, just so you could live, you are a grand success. Srs

[Anonymous No.22812952]

Books with this aesthetic?

[Anonymous No.22812962]

Every single thing I've ever written or created fills me with a deep burning shame.
Even though i know no one else cares and I'm not that important, i still recurrently go through even semi anonymous social media like discord and will delete old messages
I wish i wasn't so cringy and self conscious

[Anonymous No.22812964]

>>22812962
I care buddy
Well not really I don't care about any of what you said, but I do care about you and can see that you're shitting on yourself so you know. I'm being nice

[Anonymous No.22812993]

>>22812962
Most of what I've created is visually splendid. As for burning shame now and then, who doesn't know it? We all make stupid mistakes now and then, and only the best of us notice them as such in retrospect.

[Anonymous No.22812998]

>>22812765
Every single one of those things is an excuse. You can absolutely get a job rn. That's just a flat out lie that you can't get one but have been trying. You haven't been trying, you're lying to yourself. Not to me bc I see right through you.
You can either change this and face the fact that you don't try as hard as you could, or, you'll keep making excuses and wind up a fucking loser like me.
Incredibly easy to do. Don't fuckin blow it kid. Get off your ass and stop fuckin lying.

[Anonymous No.22813019]

>>22812993
I'm not even an artist or anything like that. Even social media I'll frequently wipe out of embarrassment
I hate social media especially. The knowledge that every stupid thing ive written is archived makes me panic and frequently go on purges
I've wiped out most everything off my facebook wall
And a year ago deleted my Snapchat account out of embarrassment when i took a screenshot & didn't realize it would notify everyone in the group
When i go back to old college essays, most of them are kinda embarrassing
Kinda inevitable but so it goes

[Anonymous No.22813021]

>>22812525
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8E4DLUIVPLA&list=RDMM&index=27

[Anonymous No.22813031]

Culturally I am exhausted. I can't engage with modern media, and social websites for more than 10 minutes before feeling completely disinterested and drained of energy.

[Anonymous No.22813043]

>>22812998
I wouldn't be complaining about not being able to get a job if I could get a job.

[Anonymous No.22813059]

A few years ago one of my best friends blocked me on everything because the girl that he liked, liked me but I wasn't interested and he was upset that I wasn't capitalizing on something that he would kill to have. Fast forward a few months, he and I are sitting around a bonfire at a mutual friend's party (he had unblocked me at this point) and he says "Hey, anon, I wanna apologize for blocking you and getting upset" and I said "It's alright, I don't care" and he says "Why?" and I say "Because I always knew that you'd unblock me eventually" (it's true, I knew he wouldn't stay upset forever) and he says in a sort of disgusted tone "Thanks, anon" like he thought that I thought he was weak and didn't take him seriously or something.

[Anonymous No.22813066]

>>22813019
I've a special obsession with 3D fractals, and rendered and posted quite a lot of them in 8K from 2013-2015. It's kind of like gardening. Quite a few years ago I bought a rare graphics card capable of 11 double-precision teraflops in open CL only for the purpose, but have been rather distracted by indoor and outdoor gardening since.

[Anonymous No.22813090]

Hey, random Subway worker that I was accidentally rude to a couple of years ago, sorry, I'm just not good at talking to strangers and you caught me off guard, I know I was talking to my friend about how I always order buffalo chicken but you didn't need to start making me a buffalo chicken sandwich without me telling you what I wanted first. I know that when I saw you making it, I said "uh uh" like you would to a child who is about to eat or touch something they shouldn't, that was rude and I've felt bad for years, I wish I could apologize to you but I don't even know if you work there anymore, I'm not even sure if I remember which one you are/were, you were/are one of the South Asian guys though. I've always made a point not to treat fast food workers with any kind of disrespect cause I know they go through a lot of shit daily due to fat people and their shitty attitudes. If I'm ever in that Subway again and I see you, I'll apologize.

[Anonymous No.22813097]

>>22813066
this is pretty fascinating to me, are you a programmer by job? What got you into openCL? Is it pure obsession to 3D fractals or is it related to work? What got you into gardening?
I want to get into gardening, but I live in high rise building and gardening is a painfully slow activity
I love the fact that things grow, but I don't have the patience to wait for it to grow

[Anonymous No.22813098]

>>22813066

[Anonymous No.22813101]

Slept all day yesterday (Saturday), it's currently 4am, I got up around 2am and I'm planning on going to church this morning. I finished The Magician's Nephew on Friday and I'm gonna listen to Ham On Rye before I continue on with The Chronicles of Narnia. I've been especially depressed lately but overall life is pretty ok. So it goes ig. I wish I had cigarettes.

[Anonymous No.22813120]

>>22812942
but why did I invite that demon in the first place if that's not me? I guess there was a reason but I forgot.

[Anonymous No.22813122]

>>22813097
With a little research I found that Mandelbulber, a program with which I'm long familiar, and whose sole author is one especially brilliant guy who lives in Poland, is the only fractal program that can make use of open CL. His dedication is almost beyond belief, and he also happens to be a sweet guy.

[Anonymous No.22813125]

>>22813043
Let's face it: yes you would. In fact, you are.

[Anonymous No.22813151]

The guy is right, it's absolutely impossible to get an entry level job right now what with hundreds of people from India applying for every single given advertised position. I saw Indigo near me was hiring but I was like fuck it it's only one opening and there will be hundreds of not thousands of applications. I'm a proud Canadian but I fucking hate the state this country is in.

[Anonymous No.22813162]

I would never describe myself as “cultured” person but I dabble in exploring literature, art, music etc and I’m realizing I need a partner who is sort of into that to so that we can see/hear/taste/read and talk about it

[Anonymous No.22813166]

>>22813151
I've applied to shit as basic as retail jobs that claim to be hiring a bunch right now because it's the holiday season and I've still never heard back from them despite me having retail experience.

[Anonymous No.22813171]

>>22813151
>>22813166
Depending on capitalists is the mistake in the first place. You should buy a cheap homestead in the wilderness and go from there.

[Anonymous No.22813173]

My fwb said im some of his most passionate sexy lay which is flattering but also I know he’s had sex with really gorgeous girls but that that sex was hot because they were stunning to look and I’m not that even though it is still hot for him

I shouldn’t let it bother me but I hate that I wish I was hot and I wish I cared to make myself hotter but idk then my whole personality will revolve around all the effort into my appearance

[Anonymous No.22813175]

>>22813171
You need money to do that.

[Anonymous No.22813177]

>>22813173
So some random dude is literally taking you in the ass and you feel ok about it as a man?

[Anonymous No.22813178]

>>22813171
It's not the fault of capitalism. It's a glut of uneducated, cheap, desperate for work foreigners.

[Anonymous No.22813182]

>>22813175
Not much, about 50 grand in cash. That's 2000 dollars of savings per months and in two years you can buy a homestead.

[Anonymous No.22813184]

>>22813178
Being a wagecuck is still somewhat pathetic but complaining about not being able to be a wagecuck is even more bugminded.

[Anonymous No.22813188]

>>22813177
He fucks my pussy not my ass

[Anonymous No.22813190]

>>22813188
You mean your bussy?

[Anonymous No.22813191]

>>22813182
Get in touch with reality and then come back to the thread.

[Anonymous No.22813192]

>>22813191
Stop being a gigantic faggot and build yourself a homestead you complacent slave cattle.

[Anonymous No.22813195]

>>22813192
Post your homestead.

[Anonymous No.22813196]

>>22813195
What do you want to see? It consists of a bunch of untouched forest woods but in spring I will start toiling down the trees.

[Anonymous No.22813201]

>>22813184
I dunno bro, sometimes disability isn't enough. I might go into a trade idk.

[Anonymous No.22813207]

>>22812765
Dawg, I would kill to be 21. I didn't do anything until I was 29. Just stop giving any kind of credence to any "reason" you have for not having a job. There is nothing realistically stopping you from doing anything you want to do as long as you put in the effort to achieve the necessary prerequisites. There is always an actionable step toward what you want in any situation you can find youself in.
You want a job? Get a GED. It's easier than high school. Literal 80IQ ESL immigrants can get a GED. People will be more willing to hire you if you have one. It's a bare minimum demonstration of the ability to apply consistent effort.
Alternatively, you could just volunteer somewhere, show you're a responsible worker with a good work ethic, and use your experience there as a reference or possibly even get a job referral from someone you volunteer with. I have gotten jobs like this.
>"i don't want to work for free"
Being 21, you have nothing special to offer anyone. You don't even have proof you are capable of doing ANYTHING. So you have to work pro bono just to prove you can show up, learn new things, and be competent. That's just how it is. Nobody owes you shit. Just do the intellectual and the physical work that needs to happen and things will eventually improve. Feeling like you've been useful at the end of the day is a plus even if you don't get paid.
If you don't drop your helpless victim mentality, you are going to be bearing a constant and increasing load of regret.
Stop cooming.
Stop playing video games.
Get off 4chan. Get off the internet.
Everyone here is a loser and every second you spend here you accumulate negativity which will infect your general mindset and derail your sense of agency.
You think other people your age are ahead of you now? Aside from the fact that giving any weight to comparisons between yourself and other people is unhelpful and stupid, wait until you're 30 and have fuck-all to show for yourself. Then you'll really feel like shit.
Focus on your goals. How you feel at any given moment is inconsequential. Nothing but yourself is going to drag you out of wherever you are.
You gotta spend 90 minutes on the train? Boo fucking hoo. Thousands and thousands of people make that kind of commute everyday.
You're not going to get anywhere without sacrificing comfort and familiarity.
You have two options: be the living dead or do whatever it takes.

[Anonymous No.22813222]

>>22813192
Settle down dude. Your solution to the problem of anon not having money, and being unable to get hired, is to do something that requires a lot of money.

Homesteading may be good in the long run, but your advice is useless.

[Anonymous No.22813224]

>>22813207
>It's a bare minimum demonstration of the ability to apply consistent effort.
I feel like that's high school, something which I couldn't even be bothered passing.

[Anonymous No.22813226]

>>22813222
Muh money
Money money money money money money
All you think about is money

[Anonymous No.22813233]

>>22813207
Absolutely pure Chud.

[Anonymous No.22813236]

Coffeetime.

[Anonymous No.22813240]

>>22813236
Ok

[Anonymous No.22813242]

I was talking to my uncle about how I can't seem to find motivation to do anything and he said that I'll get motivation when I need motivation i.e if I'm about to be evicted because I can't pay rent, I'll find motivation to get a job. But that feels wrong because people all around me are doing things that they're motivated to do because they want to do those things, how come I can't find the motivation to do the things I want to do? How come I apparently need to be put in a situation where I'm forced to get motivation?

[Anonymous No.22813244]

>>22813236
Can anyone join in? I only have a mocha

[Anonymous No.22813246]

>>22813226
kys

[Anonymous No.22813247]

>>22813236
Cool mug, I like mugs that have coloured insides.

[Anonymous No.22813253]

>>22813236
Decided to cut down on coffee since i was drinking way too much in the morning, but maybe one cup won't hurt.

[Anonymous No.22813256]

>>22813244
>>22813247
>>22813253
Do it uppp.

[Anonymous No.22813257]

>>22813242
You don't have an uncle you're on speaking terms with.

[Anonymous No.22813258]

>>22813246
Why don't you sell your bussy to rich old men if you can't live without money?

[Anonymous No.22813265]

>>22813257
Why do you think that?

[Anonymous No.22813266]

>>22813258
Nta but imagining anon not being a midnight cowboy situation type of deal is stretching my suspension of disbelief
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9kznTMxOsxo

[Anonymous No.22813272]

Why do I have such a bad imagination? I want to write more short stories and eventually work my way up to a full novel but I just can't think of any ideas.

[Anonymous No.22813284]

>>22813182
50k is kinda a lot. Even then assuming you want to be totally self sufficient, you'd probably need a lot more capital to finance all the other stuff: tools, farm animals, etc
Not to mention the know-how..

[Anonymous No.22813285]

>>22813242
Because uncles are rarely such gratuitous assholes. I am an uncle, and I would never say anything like that to any of my nieces or nephews,

[Anonymous No.22813292]

>>22813285
I don't think he was being an asshole. I see the guy all the time and I text him all the time, we're very close.

[Anonymous No.22813295]

>>22813242
He just meant that when your feet is to the fire, you'll be motivated.
Inner motivation is hard to cultivate, many are driven by hard necessity

[Anonymous No.22813296]

>>22813284
If you buy a forest you don't need so. Buy an axe, chop down the wood and already you have most of the materials for the construction of everything else. Cattle isn't that expensive either and the food for them is provided by the soil.

[Anonymous No.22813301]

>>22813296
You're delusional mate.

[Anonymous No.22813302]

>>22813295
>He just meant that when your feet is to the fire, you'll be motivated.
I know, I just wanna know why I can't just pick up the things I wanna do and just do them, why am I one of the unlucky ones that needs their feet held to the fire in order to do what they want to do instead of just doing it because they want to?

[Anonymous No.22813306]

>>22813296
You have no clue what you're talking about

[Anonymous No.22813307]

>>22813301
Ok, keep relying on globocorps for the financiation of your meager needs

[Anonymous No.22813309]

>>22813306
I know exactly what I'm talking about. I'd even say it is possible to build a homestead without a single penny but to make things easier I say it cost 50 grand wich doesn't take that much time to save up.

[Anonymous No.22813312]

My problem is I don't know how or where to start. There are not footholds. I get these occasional bursts of determination and willpower but there is nothing for me to do with them so they just kinda dissipate.

I isolated myself for too long. I have zero social connections. I have no skills. I can't learn shit cause I am fucking retarded. But then I wake up feeling like I could take on the world but how? I got nothing.

[Anonymous No.22813315]

>>22813272
What do you mean by a bad imagination? I have only to go to bed, and usually wake with more than I could record if it took all day. It's mostly a matter of getting more than adequate sleep.

[Anonymous No.22813316]

>>22813309
You're actually retarded. Do you have someone who holds your hand or do you bumble around every day like an idiot?

[Anonymous No.22813318]

>>22813315
It's exactly what it sounds like. I get good sleep, I just can't think of anything. I'll get a good idea maybe once every couple of months.

[Anonymous No.22813326]

STOP SHOWING UP ON DATING APPS, I SWIPE RIGHT ON YOU EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU SHOW UP BUT FOR SOME REASON YOU KEEP SHOWING UP WITH A NEW BIO AND PICTURES, YOU'RE JUST TEASING ME AT THIS POINT.

[Anonymous No.22813330]

I dont understand that someone can like you that much so you end up having sex. A very foreign thing.

[Anonymous No.22813336]

>>22813307
Well that's the problem isn't it. Don't act like someone on disability can just up and move innawoods.

[Anonymous No.22813353]

Every add for an app or service is just rap playing over bunch of people doing mundane tasks cause our product makes you feel like a gangsta or whatev

[Anonymous No.22813366]

>>22813318
Last's night's was rather interesting. If I told you about half of it I'd be arrested.

[Anonymous No.22813376]

Doing some cool yet rather mindless reading this morn.

[Anonymous No.22813377]

>>22813309
You've never felled a tree in your life

[Anonymous No.22813392]

Too many people say "free Palestine" and "from the river to the sea Palestine will be free" without knowing what it means. It makes me think the majority of people around me are idiots.

[Anonymous No.22813408]

Time is more valuable than money.

[Anonymous No.22813433]

Ah fuck I'm so hungover

[Anonymous No.22813460]

my invisibility shields are broken again
I shouldn't be allowed out in society

[Anonymous No.22813492]

>>22813330
You're just sick (in the mind)

[Anonymous No.22813518]

Leaving for church in less than an hour. Think I'll need to wear my boots.

[Anonymous No.22813605]

>>22813120
No. Well sorta
When you were down one day, Satan's words became louder and louder in your mind. Each day he would remove a gram of self respect from you leading to the present

[Anonymous No.22813648]

I believe in fate. In predestination. All action in the universe is reducible to an equation. It has all already happened.

[Anonymous No.22813651]

i need to buy a gift for my brother who is really into reading the last few years but it can't be a bookshelf and i don't really want to buy him books cause he has alot of money and can just get a nice shelf and whatever books he wants. but something that would make a nice gift for someone doing alot of reading. idk wtf. i thought maybe some bookends but i couldn't find any i liked. lots of "book gifts" i've seen are completely retarded bullshit crap.

[Anonymous No.22813658]

>>22813651
How about a "Book Nook" made by yourself

[Anonymous No.22813671]

>>22813658
i saw some of those but i think the fun in that is putting it together so its not a great gift already assembled. and idk if i could get him to ever do something like that he's a very busy man and doesn't take time to relax very often right now. i think he might take the message of me telling him to relax badly.

[Anonymous No.22813689]

>>22813658
>mouse sized library
cuuuuuuute

[Anonymous No.22813750]

>>22812525
I just learned what a castrado is. Jesus, I thought castrating children was a 21st century nuance.

[Anonymous No.22813767]

It's strange. But I think I've outgrown this place. I'm just as lonely. Just as alienated and disconnected from real community as I'd been when I first came here some 14 years before. And while in the past, when it would take me a couple of threads to sink back into a 10 hour screentime, wasted in this rut. It's been practically impossible to resimulate this again.

I've outgrown my past hobbies, maybe. I've spent irrecuperable time arguing in different boards. Niche and fast paced. But every board I visit now leaves me feeling deflated and empty. /tv/ is... well, /his/ is even more schizophrenic. /int/...

[Anonymous No.22813769]

>>22813750
Had you not heard of eunuchs either?

[Anonymous No.22813784]

I told him I wasn't ready for anything serious or unserious because of my current persistent neethood.
The truth is I am too insecure and neurotic to expose myself in any kind of human relationship. The endgame will be them being aware that Im a fraud, a hack, a horrible, terrible person.

[Anonymous No.22813786]

Thinking about reuniting with family makes me want to claw at my throat.
I'll get another cig instead.

[Anonymous No.22813793]

>>22813784
You can't be that bad, you know how to use spoilers

[Anonymous No.22813795]

>>22813784
what does it matter if you're flawed as long as you are aware of it

[Anonymous No.22813796]

>>22813784
>him
why are you gay?

[Anonymous No.22813797]

When it comes to IRL sex I prefer women. When it comes to fantasies I prefer the fantasy of being fucked by a man. I wonder how common this is

[Anonymous No.22813801]

>tfw piece of art of one of fav artists going to be on display in my country from new year
HYPED don't even care I'll have to spend half a day on the journey

[Anonymous No.22813802]

>>22813796
let anon be gay if he wants, faggot

[Anonymous No.22813814]

>>22813786
seeing family on holidays?

[Anonymous No.22813818]

>>22813814
bad situation where we need to "come together as a family to support each other".
It's my duty. I know this. I'm not resisting it. I'm just dreading the constance of them, their omnipresence and occupation of every crevice of my existence.

[Anonymous No.22813819]

alright i'm definitely taking a perverse pleasure in my own misery at this point

[Anonymous No.22813859]

>>22813769
Yeah I guess I knew of them but that I think wasnt going on in 18th century europe.

[Anonymous No.22813878]

Since I'm not ever having sex at this point, how do I curb my high libido without medication?

[Anonymous No.22813883]

>>22813819
pleasure?

[Anonymous No.22813885]

>>22813878
Stop jacking off, take a cold shower immediately after every relapse and wet dream and soon you'll see the libidinal energy direct it's flow towards other directions
You'll feel the urge to jack off and look at tits but don't act upon it

[Anonymous No.22813900]

>>22813883
yeah, what about it?

[Anonymous No.22813902]

>>22813900
Can I watch?

[Anonymous No.22813913]

I'm gonna be a wizard in 2 years. I'm an insecure mess with a small dick and a shit job.

[Anonymous No.22813920]

>>22813902
you'll get bored quite soon
>>22813913
hell yeah dude

[Anonymous No.22813922]

>>22813913
> ohhhhh noooooooo I never had sex

[Anonymous No.22813923]

Who is the Skrillex of literature?

[Anonymous No.22813937]

i wouldn't marry a woman unless i believed she actually hates me

[Anonymous No.22813948]

>>22813913
How small we talking here?

[Anonymous No.22813987]

My boil is finally shrinking

[Anonymous No.22813992]

Reading Aristotle convinced me that all of our problems are political and reading Aquinas convinced me that all of our problems are actually theological.

[Anonymous No.22813998]

>>22812525
Why does everyone take fucking forever to shit in a public stall? Wtf are they doing in there? Every fucking time.

[Anonymous No.22814000]

>>22813998
you can't rush perfection

[Anonymous No.22814003]

>>22814000
Theres a fucking tweeker in there

[Anonymous No.22814007]

>>22814003
sometimes it's hard to break up the big rocks to a reasonable size

[Anonymous No.22814014]

What did Adam and Eve do before the Fall? They observed and named the things they saw. Modern science is part of the human tradition from the very beginning.

[Anonymous No.22814038]

forgot to go to church,
beat off to seasonal anime instead

[Anonymous No.22814043]

i want to be crucified

[Anonymous No.22814094]

>>22812525
such a boring day that I actually sat down and read something. maybe I need more of these days

[Anonymous No.22814101]

>>22812576
I think mine is correlated with boredom and age. I turn 42 next year and I haven't found a woman to bring my mood up and give me hope.

[Anonymous No.22814104]

The West has crumbled under thr weight of degeneracy.

[Anonymous No.22814106]

>>22814038
repent

[Anonymous No.22814119]

Did that cult of passion guy get banned? Kinda boring without him shitting everything up

[Anonymous No.22814123]

>>22813797
you are fucked up, pal

[Anonymous No.22814131]

>>22813253
I got a one cup brewer from my parents recently for my apartment which does the job.

[Anonymous No.22814212]

Thinking about the time my high school gf grabbed my arm and stroked all the cutting scars for a few minutes. I tried to pull away but she wouldnt let me. I hated it then but wish I had someone to do that now

[Anonymous No.22814217]

>>22814101
Why do so many old people use /lit/

[Anonymous No.22814219]

>>22814038
Every day is a new day. You'll have next week to make it. I personally skipped church because I wanted to go get wasted drunk with a friend last night

[Anonymous No.22814224]

>>22814014
Adam named the animals. Eve was made after that

[Anonymous No.22814226]

>>22813992
What did you learn after reading DEEZE NUTS

[Anonymous No.22814235]

>>22813253
I expected the cat. You fucked up
>>22813236
I'm drinking beer

[Anonymous No.22814257]

>>22814217
Books stopped existing after the incident in 2005

[Anonymous No.22814275]

>>22814119
I don't know, people changed their name to cult of passion and began posting to fuck with him, he kinda unraveled then so perhaps he just stopped posting

[Anonymous No.22814282]

>>22814275
It took butterfly years to get a night of a thousand butterflies'd out, he must have been annoying to get done that fast

[Anonymous No.22814286]

Critical theory of race and gender is and especially anti-racist legal theory are actually really funny in a depressing sort of way when you think about it. It’s basically leftist social engineers concluding that it would be easier to change the law and social norms than to make women competent and get blacks to behave.

[Anonymous No.22814288]

>>22814282
Butterfly never said anything substantial, very strange

[Anonymous No.22814296]

Thinking about moving back to the place I went to university. I’m burned out on the city.

[Anonymous No.22814307]

Do you think there are any degrees which will necessarily make you a better writer? Someone said to me recently that a law degree will make you a decent writer by default. I’m skeptical of that. I generally think that PhDs in all humanities, including literature, are more about ideas than content or style of writing while MFAs are largely useless.

[Anonymous No.22814308]

>>22812962
>>22812993
Two type of faggots I hate

[Anonymous No.22814330]

>>22813207
Not the anon and I don't have it as tough as he does but fuck it, I am going off the internet for at least a week, you convinced me. May Dante help me with guiding my immature and incompetent self away from hedonism.

[Anonymous No.22814338]

Do you live with your parents? How old are you?

[Anonymous No.22814350]

>>22812907
I get it

[Anonymous No.22814363]

>>22813120
this is the point I knew you were a woman anon..

[Anonymous No.22814370]

>>22814338
I live alone. I'm 21.

[Anonymous No.22814376]

>>22814363
>I knew you were a woman anon.
huh

[Anonymous No.22814476]

>>22812525
How come younger people still don't want to admit the vax was a scam that they didn't need unless actual vulnerable. Whilst at the same time having not had a shot since ether first booster from early 2022?

Wasn't the whole idea for boosters cos they wore off in a few months? How come they're magically ok with not having had any more doses whilst going to crowded events and going around unmasked. Then still thinking I was wrong for not having had any?

[Anonymous No.22814481]

I broke up with my fiance a couple of days ago, right after she tried to kill herself and is in the psych ward now.

[Anonymous No.22814490]

>>22814481
Tfw no psycho suicidal wife

[Anonymous No.22814493]

>>22814257
Nah in reality it’s because 4ch is old itself

[Anonymous No.22814497]

>>22814370
I didn’t move out until I was 27. Developmental disability.

>>22814481
You’re a shitty human being that reminds me of my first ex-girlfriend

[Anonymous No.22814530]

>>22814481
I assume that was the last straw. I was always there for a friend of mine who attempted true suicide multiple times but I got tired of her bullshit after she tried to pin her cheating on her boyfriend on me. Why didn't you stay though?

[Anonymous No.22814551]

>>22814530
>>22814497
Maybe i phrased it too ambiguously. I broke up with her first, then afterwards she made her suicide attempt. I've been visiting her in the hospital and taking care of her cats.

[Anonymous No.22814580]

I hate the way I look.

[Anonymous No.22814594]

>be me
>trying to tame horniness of crush
>think I beat it
>proud of self.star collection.jpeg
>suddenly youtube decides to flood me with simulacra of crush
I'm not smart enough to have made this deal with the devil, I need a lawyer and someone track down the real Faust to serve to the alphabet conglomerate

[Anonymous No.22814598]

>>22814551
why did you break up?

[Anonymous No.22814612]

I'm 29 and I haven't had a job, and yet I have a trust fund that is akin to minimum wage, and live on my own.
But it is all for shit as I want to leave this smalltown which has very very few, if any, "entry-level" jobs, the guilt of not working has stained my NEEThood.
Everything demands experience I don't have or can't grasp. I could live happily in denial on my trust fund and just rot happily here, but I want to make a change, a change I can't make because there are no jobs for me.
I'm not qualified to do anything, I'm just trapped here in this small town, thinking of the students in the cities getting laid, whilst I am almost doomed to be autistically dependant on my father for money, with my few friends moving to better places I can't reach. I think about suicide seriously about twice a day.

[Anonymous No.22814620]

is life to be embraced or endured? both (authenticity) or neitber (asceticism)? or is it possible to see balance in all these things and see life as simply to be experienced for its own sake (ascension)?

[Anonymous No.22814623]

>>22814580
Poke your eyes out faggot

[Anonymous No.22814626]

>>22814620
If it has to be an a initialled word, you're going to need to include ataraxia at least to get the SWTG crowed involved

[Anonymous No.22814631]

>>22814551
That’s exactly what happened to me. You weren’t being ambiguous.

[Anonymous No.22814670]

>>22814626
SWTG?

[Anonymous No.22814704]

>>22814481
You should have Wed her then convinced her to kill herself in a car crash so then you might be able to collect life insurance

[Anonymous No.22814709]

I might be a Baconian.

[Anonymous No.22814740]

>>22814704
Nah there's a minimum payment length to not create a moral hazard

[Anonymous No.22814753]

>>22814551
Post pics of cats

[Anonymous No.22814768]

just watched the holdovers. instant christmas classic, especially for /lit/ ppl. at first it was kinda mid, but you'll start feeling it.

[Anonymous No.22814794]

>>22812943
Not the original poster but I cannot convince myself that scripture contains anything more valuable or significant than can be found in the best secular literature.

In spite of being unable to find particular value in religion, I nonetheless strive to live in accordance with higher ethical principles and serve some higher purpose than my own comfort and gratification (without complete self-denial of course).

To anyone reading this who wants to find higher purpose in a secular mode, read Spinoza’s Ethics.

[Anonymous No.22814827]

>>22812525
It's you anon

You are always on my mind

You are always on my

mind

[Anonymous No.22814847]

about to drunkenly walk to the liquor store that great grandpa died outside of and try not to meanmug the homeless lest they beat me to death too

[Anonymous No.22814889]

>>22814612
I'm still looking, and no, no jobs for low IQ autists without a driving license

[Anonymous No.22814893]

what do when these all apply to me

[Anonymous No.22814894]

I hate the art that is being made in art school, it is soulless by definition. I talked with a girl that goes there, she just draws whatever she thinks look cool, then she find a deep meaning to it to please her teacher, and she does this like it's the only way to make art, those artists have nothing to tell and they can't because they're surrounded by retards who also have nothing to tell, fuck them, i hop AI fuck them over as hard as possible

[Anonymous No.22814906]

>>22814894
Art school only takes 4 year man. Basically you can do whatever the fuck you want.
t. went there.

[Anonymous No.22814920]

being a late bloomer is the most soul crushing thing imaginable

do not, under any circumstance, waste your youth on just fun and hedonistic shit, you have to use your years between 16-26 as preparation for your life between 28-48.

[Anonymous No.22814936]

hmm, maybe the shrinks were right and the anger WAS a cover for grief the whole time

[Anonymous No.22814942]

nah actually i'm just angry

[Anonymous No.22815024]

>>22814551
That's kind of cute in a fucked up way. Did she cheat?

[Anonymous No.22815076]

I hope I pass this class.

[Anonymous No.22815083]

I hope I'm never beholden to a class

[Anonymous No.22815103]

[Anonymous No.22815106]

I hope my ass gets passed

[Anonymous No.22815147]

>>22812962
:( i do the exact same thing anon, every few weeks or so i'll have this fit of nervous shame/neuroticism and delete accounts and unsend past messages.

[Anonymous No.22815162]

Brb gonna go masturbate

[Anonymous No.22815194]

>>22812525
Is there any book that covers all of Theodore Roosevelt's life. I was recommended one author but he stretches it over three books and I only have limited money this Christmas

[Anonymous No.22815200]

I remember telling my dad over the phone about my day after I got back from work and one of the things that happened was while I was walking to work, I walked past a house and two of the dogs had escaped, they were big dogs but they meant no harm. One of them was a big brown dog and it was slowly approaching me while I was walking backwards on the footpath but eventually, its owner called it back inside. I told my dad this story but I told it in a funny way (I didn't lie or anything) and he couldn't stop laughing. After I'd finished telling him the story, he said that my story made his day and that he was so happy that I told it to him. I thought about our talk for a while after that and realised that if I told that same story in the same way to someone my age, they wouldn't find it half as funny as he did and it definitely wouldn't make their day. Older people just love stories, man, they love telling them and they love hearing them, that's why the best authors are old. I don't know why they appreciate stories more than this new generation, but they do.

[Anonymous No.22815241]

I am dead on water, floating down the styx like a cheap canoe. Every crevasse of light seems so out of reach. Each of them narrows down in the same way and when I try to climb through any of their openings I find the same difficulties for which I have no elegant solution that will allow me to pass through. And so, I let myself float downwards until the fear wells up inside me again to try and climb.

I believe it isn't hopeless, because I know I can already pass through to the other side if I force it. However, the fear is also somewhere else; in the place that I will be. I don't know what lies on the other side from which the light spills.

[Anonymous No.22815267]

I asked my grandma for cheesecake this Christmas. She told me to go fuck myself.

[Anonymous No.22815271]

>>22815267
You should gift her a cheesecake to spite her

[Anonymous No.22815273]

I want to get back in touch with the girl I used to date, but I only have two equally disagreeable ways to do this. The first one is to ask my sister who hated the fact that I was involved with this girl and the second is to ask the girl’s brother if he’d be willing to help me get in touch with her. I have been hesitating to take action on this, but as we all know— he who hesitates is lost.

I don’t want to lose anymore. I have grown wary of doing anything at all for fear of incurring another loss of face. I am unwilling to suffer another blow to my ego. And yet, I know that there is no other way.

[Anonymous No.22815276]

>>22815271
It's an inside joke. You wouldn't get it as someone outside the context

[Anonymous No.22815283]

i am going to commit suicide

[Anonymous No.22815290]

>>22815283

[Anonymous No.22815293]

>>22815283
Don't commit suicide.

[Anonymous No.22815294]

>>22815276
You just post inside jokes that don't even hint at anything so as to have a cryptic appearance that would suggest that there is something more behind it?

[Anonymous No.22815303]

>>22815283
Alright.

[Anonymous No.22815304]

My new strat is to use "nobody's perfect" to justify anything I do

[Anonymous No.22815306]

After breaking up with my gf almost all women are boring. Not as attractive, not as interesting, the sex not as good. Do I keep banging random hos or give up entirely?

[Anonymous No.22815308]

>>22815294
Sorry. I can see why my post would be missing. Next time I'll add the context.

[Anonymous No.22815309]

>>22815273
Sounds like you need to move on

[Anonymous No.22815311]

>>22815308
*misunderstood

[Anonymous No.22815312]

life is composed of relationships, in its broaded sense the quality of the connection between two things, and it is by these relationships one can reflect accordingly:

>how is my relationship with work?
>how is my relationship with money?
>how is my relationship with health?
>how is my relationship with others?
>how is my relationship with family?
>how is my relationship with myself?
>how is my relationship with God?

it is a curiosity to wonder how one's relationship with these things have all changed and will continue to change over time, sifting and sorting what has been valued from beginning to end

[Anonymous No.22815318]

I just don't see how I'm going to catch up, I'm so far behind that suicide is genuinely the best option for me. The things I want to do are unobtainable and the type of person I want to be is just a pipe dream.

[Anonymous No.22815326]

>>22812525
I don't want to study anymore. I think I will draw, read, and then go to bed. Maybe I'll mix in a lil' frog posting and half-assed opinions too.

[Anonymous No.22815338]

am i supposed to hate the devil or am i supposed to feel bad for him?

[Anonymous No.22815341]

>>22815241
Sounds like a dumbass metaphor for your life’s stagnation. I’ve learned how to deal with stagnation tho. Make a large change that introduces difficulty & novelty into your life. Without this you’ll descend further into pain & nothingness. Move somewhere new & large maybe— even if you have no money. That brings great challenge to you, forcing you to develop character & learn new things. You’ll be given all new problems. Your current problem is you’re existential & retarded & paralyzed by self-hatred. These new problems though are, “how do I make money so I’m not homeless?” This is a better problem than the former because it necessitates practical growth. Perhaps this is me projecting my own shit onto you tho

[Anonymous No.22815344]

>>22815309
I miss her dearly and have missed her dearly for years. I’d given up hope of ever seeing her again, but I strongly suspect that she is back in town.

[Anonymous No.22815353]

>>22815318
Fuckit if your life is fucked drastically pursue your pipe dream. Then if you fail you’ll just end up back where you are now & nothing will have been lost. But there’s a chance you achieve some different outcome—

[Anonymous No.22815364]

>>22815344
Even if she agrees to see you again won’t she find you crawling back to her, with tears & snot running down, abhorrent? Maybe not idk. But if she rejects you again you must move on & gain some dignity.

[Anonymous No.22815366]

i have made myself into a thing

[Anonymous No.22815371]

>>22815366
You are a person not a thing.

[Anonymous No.22815372]

>>22815338
You are supposed to ignore his dumbass and say get behind me Satan then go on living your life without him trying to direct you or even enter your thoughts

[Anonymous No.22815375]

These threads feel more active than ever but the rest of this board feels more dead than ever.

[Anonymous No.22815388]

>>22814794
Scripture is mere words on a page same as secular lit. But it is of such creative genius it can evoke enchantment & fervor enough to create whole religions. Any good book will create similar cults around itself but these are negligible in comparison to scripture. Therefore forget the dichotomy. Read scripture secularly & the secular read spiritually.

[Anonymous No.22815391]

>>22812525
i fucking hate my life but im too scared of nonexistence that i cant kill myself


FUCK

[Anonymous No.22815394]

>>22815341
Based. I'll implement this advice some way. I guess I'm not great with metaphors. It's more about approaching large creative endeavors that require commitment beyond a single day/week. I find the same problem of commitment to be an issue. But yeah, it's just the way I felt like writing it, as gay as it came out

[Anonymous No.22815399]

>>22815391
holy fuck dude, so freaking deep!!!!!! don't you have school tomorrow

[Anonymous No.22815410]

>>22814612
Nigger you’re dumb as fuck get out of town immediately & do something exciting, anything really will excite you since you don’t have life experience. If you leave & pops cuts your funds then you’ll be forced to survive on your own which is what you need to learn how to do since you’re being coddled to death rn. Doesn’t matter if you fail at this. At least you did something rather than shamefully waste.

[Anonymous No.22815420]

>>22815394
Best of luck anon

[Anonymous No.22815444]

>>22813767
14 yrs is too long. Leave now if you can

[Anonymous No.22815447]

>>22812525
I love romance stories. Relationships might not solve EVERY problem, but if you’re committed and you have a good partner it’s a lovely experience and you learn a lot about yourself.

For me, I tend to write romantic stories that compliment the two characters sex’s depending on the theme i’m writing. If you’re writing about redemption, maybe have the girl mean well but be naive in her heartfelt approach while the downtrodden man is the defender, giving a sense stability in her life because he deep down sees the value in her compassionate heart.

Men and woman want connection and affection, but they also have roles that should make sense from a natural law stand point. Woman are built to be motherly, maternal, and gentle. Their presence is that of a home, reminding you of returning home from school or work even if she’s a wife or your mom.

Men are the pillars and providers, they defend their spouse and lead them, or lead each other. It’s not so 2-dimensional like what movies make out to be, nowadays characters have to dominate the other; with its reddit quips and demeaning mean spirited platitudes. And it’s alway some millennial who wrote it. Romance is all rad-fem bullshit now or straight up homosexuality.

[Anonymous No.22815454]

I'm tired of eating ghost peppers every day.

[Anonymous No.22815470]

Why is it that when Dr House is all emo and depressed and withdrawn everyone cares for him but when I'm emo and withdrawn people cringe at me.

[Anonymous No.22815473]

>>22815454
why are you doing that

[Anonymous No.22815491]

>>22815353
I'm not good enough at what I want to do, there's no way I'd be successful at it.

[Anonymous No.22815498]

>>22815470
Because he’s a doctor, which makes him useful.

[Anonymous No.22815500]

Smoking native darts tonite.

[Anonymous No.22815502]

>>22815498
No they have real amd genuine concern for him. When I withdrew people did nothing

[Anonymous No.22815507]

Is 25 too old to try out a new personality?

[Anonymous No.22815508]

>>22815502
Right, because he is a doctor and you are probably a loser.

[Anonymous No.22815514]

i'm about to jump from the second story, not because i actually have to, but because i am ashamed to do otherwise

[Anonymous No.22815515]

>>22815491
K enjoy your wallowing then

[Anonymous No.22815537]

Furrowing my brow and pretending to think so I don't have to acknowledge that I don't actually have a single coherent thought in my head

[Anonymous No.22815563]

>>22815514
Do a flip

[Anonymous No.22815567]

>>22813913
>small dick

Pro tip: You can actually stretch it and eventually it gets bigger.

[Anonymous No.22815576]

>>22815567
Horrible advice. That destroys dicks

[Anonymous No.22815577]

>>22814612

Just move to another country, teach english and you'll have a pretty good lifestyle with your trust fund money and you'll get laid plenty.

[Anonymous No.22815583]

I wonder whether sudden flashes of inspiration are like happening upon gold by chance or like substanceless illusions of the mind. Do they actually have the potential to be the source of something good, or do they just come and go too fast for you to notice how they possess only the form of something vaguely interesting but not its potential?

[Anonymous No.22815584]

>>22815567
jelqing is not real.

[Anonymous No.22815594]

>>22815576

Theoretically anything can destroy it, but stretching it while it's soft is hardly risky at all. Just make a ring with your fingers, put it behind the head and gently pull. Make a habit of it and you'll never be embarassed walking around the locker room again.

[Anonymous No.22815601]

>>22815594
>have lengthy, noodle-like soft dick
>it can never get hard again
Very bad trade

[Anonymous No.22815615]

I wish I could make a living writing but no one reads anymore and there is no viable way to make money from writing

[Anonymous No.22815622]

>>22815601

You would be surprised

[Anonymous No.22815632]

I feel very depressed.

[Anonymous No.22815641]

>>22814620
Depends on a person and his point in life
At points life has to be endured, at points enjoyed or embraced, there is a time for every season

[Anonymous No.22815643]

>>22815632

[Anonymous No.22815651]

i have like ten days off coming up and i feel like i should doooo something but like i can't think of anything except read or play a video game or whatever and i can't get into anything but then i remembered weed is legal in my state now i think i will blaze some treeees over break probably just get super paranoid and stare at the wall

[Anonymous No.22815655]

>>22814920
What if you wasted your youth never having fun?

[Anonymous No.22815676]

i just watching this tony hawk video the thrasher channel posted and while it's good i can't help but notice there is not a single line. every trick is a one off. the dude is like 55 so ok fine.

[Anonymous No.22815679]

>>22815655
Then you fucked up big time.

>t. spent his youth doing hedonistic shit

[Anonymous No.22815689]

>>22815679
I'm 23 i still got time
Or I'll misanthrope-max and make everyone else miserable for my wasted youth

[Anonymous No.22815715]

>>22815689
You're good bro. I went full hedonist when I turned 23. Had a lot of fun. Think I got it out of my system. I'm turning 25 soon and I'm pretty satisfied woth it. Gone back into personal austerity mode happily

[Anonymous No.22815729]

Haven't jerked it in a few days..

[Anonymous No.22815765]

[Anonymous No.22815767]

Does anyone else feel a tension between literature and economy, business, money, work, etc.? I mean not only as a civilizational phenomenon but also in your own life.

[Anonymous No.22815769]

>The natural pedagogy of play and entertainment is no less effective though we do not realize that the biological function of the activity is learning.

>An evolutionary theory of play, drawing on a cognitive model of entertainment as a form of simulation, yields a very simple proposition. It suggests that the biological function of entertainment is learning, that such learning is accomplished by means of cognitive adaptations for running, understanding, and parsing simulations, and that the pleasure and enjoyment we feel in fiction-based forms of entertainment is a necessary design feature of this natural pedagogical system. Since the actual function of an adaptation can differ greatly from its biological or evolved function, an evolutionary theory of entertainment does not amount to a claim that modern forms of entertainment, in fact, deliver genuine benefits. The theoretical significance of an evolutionary model is, above all, that it alerts us to the possibility that an underlying biological function is regulating entertainment preferences, even in a world that has long since outrun the environment in which human being evolved.
- from 'Psychology of Entertainment' by Jennings Bryant & Peter Vordere

[Anonymous No.22815772]

>>22812798
I think it's important that you live the life you have, as opposed to mourning the one you don't.
— Adam Pearson

For the most part, however, Sissy had joined the ranks of the Unhappy Waiters and Killers of Time. Oh God, there are so many of them in our land! Students who can’t be happy until they’ve graduated, servicemen who can’t be happy until they’re discharged, single folks who can’t be happy until they’re married, workers who can’t be happy until they’re retired, adolescents who can’t be happy until they’re grown, ill people who can’t be happy until they’re well, failures who can’t be happy until they succeed, restless who can’t be happy until they get out of town; and, in most cases, vice versa, people waiting, waiting for the world to begin. Sissy knew better than to fall into that dumb trap... but there she was, playing the zombie game, running in place, postponing life until normality was achieved...
— from 'Even Cowgirls Get The Blues' / Tom Robbins

[Anonymous No.22815773]

>>22815767
No monies for books

[Anonymous No.22815776]

>>22815773
Download PDF's.

[Anonymous No.22815782]

>>22815773
Embrace the inter-library loan. Honor it, cherish it.

[Anonymous No.22815786]

fuck shit up and start a riot

[Anonymous No.22815787]

Is Coney Island any good? I'm never gonna be able to go there so I may as well try to live vicariously through others.

[Anonymous No.22815791]

>>22815773
That’s not what I meant man. I meant do you feel like there’s a tension in, for example, writing creatively and working or running a business? And I don’t just mean the tension that arises from sacrificing time and attention.

[Anonymous No.22815793]

>>22815787
The goodness of a Coney Island depends on what the regional owner does with it.

[Anonymous No.22815796]

>>22815729
Drink some coffee.
It makes me insanely horny and degenerate

[Anonymous No.22815872]

It's raining and thundering outside right now, perfect time to read. Have to bust a nut first though, too horny to concentrate.

[Anonymous No.22815895]

>>22812525
there's certain bands/ artists i hear about that feel like they've been infected by the art world's clout mechanisms. people like dean blunt, bar italia, snow strippers. they are relatively small in the grand scheme but the music is so bad it's hard to believe people really choose to listen to this without being influenced by some cool art school current. it really all sounds like demos.

[Anonymous No.22815905]

>>22812525
Thinking about my sci fi universe for my graphic novel (maybe book idk yet)

[Anonymous No.22815908]

>>22815473
It’s like CrossFit for my asshole

[Anonymous No.22815935]

>>22815796
It's 10pm, I've been up since 2am so I dunno. I did heat this morning's coffee up though so we'll see.

[Anonymous No.22815947]

How do I confront a woman about lying?
She's not my gf or anything like that and none of her lies have harmed me so for, but the dishonesty obviously bothers me. It's not like I have proof and every time I confronted a woman about shitty behaviour they either denied, deflected or got mad at me. She's been asking why I'm acting weird with her. I thought about just outright saying "I think you're being dishonest with me and that bothers me". Don't expect her to burst into a sudden confession after hearing that but at least it states my feelings clearly.

[Anonymous No.22815983]

Thought about texting her this:
>I feel like you haven't been completely honest with me and that bothers me.
>I like you, wanna keep chatting with you and go out when you come back, but not while feeling like this.
>I know you've your reasons and I'm not gonna judge you or anything, just wanna be able to trust you.
Maybe it sounds too skittish but I tried to strike a balance between being direct about my feelings and assuring her/not sending her into full female damage control mode.

[Anonymous No.22815984]

>>22815947
You're thinking too much about how to do it rather than the underlying issue, ironically you are doing the same thing as a liar/manipulator. Instead think about exactly how you feel about specific things she says and why and then naturally whatever words will come from a place of truth and you will feel more at peace for having said them.

Just be honest, you are saying these things because you believe them and feel like you see something that is there that she either doesn't see or thinks other people can't see. Don't say things for her sake, you don't need to alter your words in a way that will convince her she is 'shitty', that's not your place and makes you just as much of a piece of shit as her.

The fact that you mentioned the possibility of a confession even though you think it's not likely shows that you are thinking from a place of superiority and this will affect your words and how she takes them, instead come from a place where you are trying to get to a relationship where you can mutually inhabit some truth, if you don't think this is possible with her then find new friends. I think women are somewhat right to deflect when I get this sense about how you think about them (even though I suspect you are more rational)

[Anonymous No.22815986]

>>22815947
Discover her machinations and then leverage this knowledge against her and flex power over her

[Anonymous No.22815995]

>>22815983
>full female damage control mode
Women are incredibly emotionally perceptive, they don't really focus on how right or wrong your words are but they can sense when your words come from a bad place. I hate women as much as the next guy but there is a rational reason why they get defensive over you being incredibly judgmental like this even if you are right. You're literally trying to meticulously craft the most efficient way to manipulate her into believing she is a shitty liar, when she gets this sense (subconsciously) of course she will shut down.

[Anonymous No.22816010]

Everything not traditional is a novelty.

[Anonymous No.22816018]

months ago I saw a black spot on my hip and I was able to peel it off like a blackhead. It was an incredibly small bump so I just forgot about it. now I have a new one in the same area. really small and after I peeled it off again there's a black dot underneath. what is this

[Anonymous No.22816043]

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[Anonymous No.22816071]

>>22816018
Anon you don't peel off blackheads.

[Anonymous No.22816104]

no empire, no sect, no star seems to have exerted greater power and influence in human affairs than these mechanical inventions

[Anonymous No.22816119]

>>22815984
>>22815995
You're right. I was being manipulative. I've fucked things up through text conversations before and that's why I feel a bit neurotic about what to say exactly.
Do you think saying just:
>I feel like you haven't been completely honest with me and that bothers me.
>I like you, wanna keep chatting with you and go out when you come back, but not while feeling like this.
Is manipulative? These are my genuine feelings. I do like her and I want to keep her in my life but the dishonesty bothers me a lot. I don't care about her feeling guilty and that's not my intention, just wanna know why she's been acting like that and if it'll keep going this way.

[Anonymous No.22816198]

>>22816119
Your message seems too passive aggressive (trying to hide an ultimatum and sugar coat things) and vague, either be more specific of the lies or be more specific about what you want. There are so many vague terms that it reads like a manipulative woman (and will never be respected by a woman who can sense these weak manipulations a mile away), 'feel like' (why not admit you are convinced?), 'completely honest' (how dishonest do you feel she is?) 'Bothers me' (why? How much?), what do you like about her? What does she need to not lie about? (She may have some valid reasons or strong insecurities with you to hide certain things and you are basically invalidating them by saying 'just stop 100% of lies').

You can't bully people into changing with ultimatums they dont understand, that will always taint everything and lead to resentment and is a very feminine approach that you should be better than.

I would never take your approach but it's your life and relationships are endlessly complex and personal. If I was forced to I would use language more like

>I'm convinced you are regularly lying about trivial things and I can't see why but it makes talking to you not worth it.
>You're cool and very interesting to talk with but this just taints everything.
>I want to resolve this but unless you help then I have no interest in talking with you.

Then if she says OK then you get specific while trying to genuinely emphasize and see times you have done somewhat similar things (even if to a much lesser extent)

Your ultimatum was basically 'fix this or else vague action' when mine was like 'i need to talk about this' (you dont need to explain that she can refuse, you dont need to explain the consequences, thats implicit), in some ways it's more of a threat but in others it's showing that she isn't necessarily the wrong one but this is a boundary you feel she has crossed and you expect her to put in effort alongside you to resolve it.

I think it's likely that like all women some of the things she lies about makes sense to lie about, it is due to very complex insecurities and she isn't comfortable being this honest with you. Then some of the others are basically just habitual as she naturally has adapted to do them to prop herself up and she never had any reason to feel like she had to be honest with you because you never demanded respect and/or tried to emphasize with her reasons for them.

[Anonymous No.22816222]

>>22816198
Thanks anon. I really am being too vague and it really reads like an obscure ultimatum. I don't wanna act like that. Really don't. I grew up around this kind of talk and I suppose a lot of it still lives on me.
I'll sleep for a bit, wake up, think about my feelings towards the whole situation and then text her.
>mine was like 'i need to talk about this'
That's the approach I want. Being very reductive that's all there's is to it, something is bothering me and I wanna talk about it so things can be fine between us. I've some bad habits when it comes to verbal confrontation, especially when it comes to women due do dating two who had bpd, but damn me if I'll let a good one go because of that.
>it's showing that she isn't necessarily the wrong one but this is a boundary you feel she has crossed and you expect her to put in effort alongside you to resolve it.
This is also all I wanna convey. I don't think she's wrong - after all I don't even know why she's lying - but that is a boundary crossed and something that we have to address before things can progress between us.
Thanks again anon. Do you have any more advice for me?

[Anonymous No.22816283]

Want to drink so bad but need to give my liver a break
At least a week maybe two

[Anonymous No.22816521]

i dislike hanging out with people in a non work environment because it just feels like i have to entertain them. i just wanna chill and be quiet

[Anonymous No.22816637]

>>22815577
I was looking into this but it is such a big leap, it's making me very nervous

[Anonymous No.22816709]

>>22812525
new one
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