wwoym/ - write what's on your mind

[UwO No.23173226]

wwoym/ - write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.23173232]

>>23173226
Life is back to being boring for a bit

[Anonymous No.23173240]

My balls should just fall off at this point they're pointless. They're annoying.

[Anonymous No.23173245]

>>23173226
I was going to type hair but upon further reading of where my mind is I will instead type "Brain Matter".

[Anonymous No.23173517]

>>23173226
Thinking of breaking a nearly ten year long streak of daily writing. If you gathered together the days I haven't written something in the past decade it would equal less than a month. However recently I've started working two jobs and have tried to get my writing in at. While I've kept up this little tradition of mine, most of what I've produced in the past few weeks has been of little to no value. Usually a half pages worth of dragon lore or some shit.
I don't intend on giving up writing by any means. I'm starting to get a ton of feedback on my first novella from the lads, so I'm going to buckle down and start editing that tomorrow so I can actually publish something that'll see the light of day.
As far as daily creative activities, I'll write if inspiration strikes me, but I think I'll be more intentional about drawing these next few weeks. Here's a little doodle I did earlier this evening. Posting in this thread and not the other because I like the character design in OP's pic

[Anonymous No.23174152]

What the fuck is the point of Booker Prizes? The International longlist is horrible. What the fuck is all that?

[Anonymous No.23175493]

my cock dancing in your mind

[Anonymous No.23175656]

As an organism we must divide into micro-collectives to cut off cancer

[Anonymous No.23176961]

>>23173226
---- Solaria ----
6000
Statistical Play

Indianapolis is weird enough from some perspectives.

For instance a few imposing towers
Looming over modest backyards

Like my patrician aunts did.

It wouldn't take much to make an expedition
To the centre of the totality path,

An hour by air, six by car.

Even if I sit here,
And do nothing, it would be the 4th 90% event

In my experience.

[Anonymous No.23178368]

sad how the thread with the cooler picture did not get used...

[Anonymous No.23178827]

Ohio is doing strange things

[Anonymous No.23178832]

>>23178827
Nothing new.

[Anonymous No.23179549]

>>23178832
Stranger things than ever are coming from the Ohio nation

[Anonymous No.23179553]

>>23173226
Who are you voting for?

[Anonymous No.23179557]

>>23179553
Hitler, every second of every day until he comes back

[Anonymous No.23179563]

>>23173226
Boring thread so far

[Anonymous No.23179599]

Now that the IP counter is gone I assume half the post are bots and shills.

[Anonymous No.23179605]

>>23179557
He's never coming back. There's literally only one way to do that and not many know about it.

[Anonymous No.23179621]

>>23173226
Once you start seeing all the strings being pulled — and more importantly, who pulls them — you can’t ever unsee it.

[Anonymous No.23179630]

Who here is cozy? i’ve been reading
Champions of the Rosary by Donald H. Calloway.

[Anonymous No.23179629]

>>23179621
I can.

[Anonymous No.23179810]

>>23179599
Especially in the kike threads. Regards to the people who are making replacement chan websites.

>>23179557
>>23179553
True democracy is infinite organically equal leaders in an exclusive collective.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_opF2Dn6Fk4

[Anonymous No.23179833]

The fire liberates all.

So many people have migrated to Discord.com and many entirely exclusive communities.
Cheers to the truest internet sovl nonetheless.

Also Sylvania and the North are united with Dixie and are crushing the tumour called “Washington DC”.

The nation of Oregon has liberated Xx nation and SanFran.
Oregon has also annexed “Washington state” and liberated the vast micro-nations splintering from it.

Any community with exclusive markets is a nation. Farm-to-table rules.
True police organize paramilitary.

Utopia is the baseline.
Every ideal is an idealism.

Paganism: Each love is a soul and infinite multiverses and infinite dimensions.

[Anonymous No.23179847]

Viva PhilistinaZZ

Philistina is apart of Albion. Britain kills whatever is trying to hurt the world.

[Anonymous No.23179933]

Hey this one is still alive

[Anonymous No.23179958]

I had a Zoom call with my psychiatrist earlier and I'm feeling encouraged. We're gonna work on my anxiety and weight loss. I'm gonna start taking Welbutrin on top of Sertraline – has anyone taken Wellbutrin or this cocktail before tell me about it? Anyways I'm gonna go out for a walk soon and listen to Dune. The weather is getting nicer but the Sun is going down in like 15 minutes so....fuck it, gonna go for a walk anyways. I'll bring some weed with me and it will be a fun time.

[Anonymous No.23180039]

I want to be scalp vored by op pic.

[Anonymous No.23180041]

>>23180039
Finally someone says it

[Anonymous No.23180044]

Do psychedlics/magic

[Anonymous No.23180053]

I enjoy peak italiano sovl.

[Anonymous No.23180068]

Uhhh~

[Anonymous No.23180089]

The true Paris divided into an immense number of micro-nations. Every street is its own fortress. Full of paramilitary and utmost overpopulated. The competition is past full tilt and apart of the fun.

Truest paris sovl is eternal. And getting increasingly intense.

It’s a hell I love.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ACXK3g9hpRE

[Anonymous No.23181538]

Regards to the rising birthrates of ethnic Babylonians and ethnic Egyptians. And the gooddest sort of immigration.

[Anonymous No.23181551]

Need a research question for my thesis...pls halp

[Anonymous No.23181577]

What non-/lit/ stuff do you guys get up to?

[Anonymous No.23181589]

>>23181551
what’s the deal with airplane food

[Anonymous No.23181737]

>>23181589
If only my thesis was about this....

[Anonymous No.23181850]

>>23181551
Abstract communication.
Multi-dimensional communication.
Abstracts of multi-dimensional community. Utmost abstract community.
Mixtures of anarcho collectivism.

[Anonymous No.23181856]

>>23181551
Why anonymous can't get a girlfriend

[Anonymous No.23183069]

I'm trying to remember a book title. For the longest time I thought it was a Mario Puzo book, because the title font looked similar to pic related.

It was a book formatted as a mafia hitman's guide to being a hitman.

[Anonymous No.23183222]

>>23173226
Is pair bonding real? And could my husband still be pairbonded to the only other woman he has slept with?

He never dated or had a gf until I came along. And his only other experience with a girl was literally his childhood girl next door crush he was oneitising for years, who he ended up sleeping with on and off for years. Someone he still sees a few times a year because their families are close, and who basically became my "best friend" on his side of the family since she is always so nice and welcoming to me. They were never a couple but he was essentially her on call dildo. Mind you, we didn't meet until over a decade after they stopped (she ended it everytime because she got annoyed at how clingy he was, yet still exploited it and called him back whenever she wanted sex) and we never had sex until after we got married. I was a virgin but I was open to sleeping with him before we got married but he was always against it saying that it's not right and that we should wait.

Even though I'm hotter and younger than her, I freak out every now and then over her. Especially after I see her, not only because she is still very beautiful, but because it reminds me the she was able to have him so easily and on command where as he made us wait.

Be honest with me. For a guy who has only slept with one other person, would their pair bond still be strong, at least on his end? I know she was a slut so it was probably nothing to her but I feel so intimidated by the dynamic they had seeing that he never wanted to be with anyone for that long until I came along. And the fact I'm very different to her

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.23183403]

about to smoke some weed
might have beer and a cigarette too
https://youtu.be/JZ1R5isMXxk?si=agZ1qj6zsIeMxUqF

[Anonymous No.23183785]

>>23173226
I feel completely anhedonic. Everything is boring, tiring or not worth the effort.
I want to do something new. But it's night so it'll be tomorrow.

[Anonymous No.23183830]

>>23173226
Should I pirate brigador?

[Anonymous No.23183833]

dick doesn't work

[Anonymous No.23183901]

>>23183833
why

[Anonymous No.23183925]

I don't like any form of spirituality and think its all snake oil, but then again that could be chalked up to my American Protestant background. Whatever the case, I just can't pretend to respect the absolute crap some of you people read.

[Anonymous No.23183931]

>>23183403
Cheers xi. This was me a while ago.

[Anonymous No.23183944]

I'm fat and damn sexy

[Anonymous No.23183964]

I didn't check the exact date but she hasn't been on her period for a bit longer than a month now.
Been having sex without protection for 2 months now.
I might have made her pregnant, which we want.

[Anonymous No.23183965]

If I had another chance, I would try to do things the right way. I hate myself so much.

[Anonymous No.23183977]

>>23183830
play mw5

[Anonymous No.23183980]

>>23179557
sic brn bra xDD

[Anonymous No.23183990]

Sen pojawił się ponownie ostatniej nocy. te same słowa raz po raz

>jakałam sie, brnąłam

>Malpa wpatrywała sie, ironicznie słuchała druga niby to drzemała
a kiedy po pytaniu nastaje milczenie
podpowiada mi cichym brzęczeniem łancucha

brnąłam… brnąłam… wszystko, co mogę zrobić, to brnąć dalej. Bóg i moje dzieci będą przy mnie..

[Anonymous No.23183999]

A friend of mine recently told me that he declines sex from his girlfriend consistently out of a fear that he'll get her pregnant. His girlfriend has been acting really bitchy and asinine and I told him that's literally the reason. Lmao

[Anonymous No.23184000]

Im a boring person.

[Anonymous No.23184098]

What would you do to toughen up a stereotypically weak and sheltered zoomer? My zoomer brother is currently delusional enough to think that he’s going to join special ops as an officer once he graduates even though he is in less than great shape from dabbling in the gym a few times per week, hasn’t played any sport since his sophomore year of high school, and never worked a manual labor job. Obviously, he’s delusional. I don’t really care if he gets his bubble popped when it comes to special ops but it would benefit him enormously if he could somehow challenge himself physically in regard to work or sport while he’s still young.

[Anonymous No.23184106]

>>23184098
Playfully wrestle with him and then nibble on his neck a bit

[Anonymous No.23184130]

>>23173226
I’m reading a book which says the modern left is descended from the Illuminati. That sounds like a deranged rightist conspiracy theory but the book is written by the former head of the presidential library and Princeton professor. The book is called “fire in the minds of men” by Billington. The research is impeccable and it makes sense once you put it together.

Basically secret societies were super influential in early modern Europe, notably the masons. These political radicals which became the left were persecuted and so they latched onto the secret societies as a way to organize secretly. These secret societies were steeped in the occult, wanting to bring about a golden age.Thus Masonic lodges coordinate the French Revolution and the revolutionary movement. The Illuminati was a club for German intellectuals in the late 18th century. They believed very similar things to the modern left between social reform towards equality, an atheist, rationalist worldview and rule by the intelligent.

The Illuminati itself was not particularly important but it’s breakup created a diaspora to a bunch of other secret societies. Billington draws the connection of how we see literally the same people doing this and also how leftist philosophy stems from the occult. He shows how the organizational structure of these groups stemmed from philosophic occult positions. He goes through the philosophy and its origins in esoteric occult beliefs. I guess James Lindsay Gnostic position was more right than I thought.

[Anonymous No.23184161]

Americans seem not to appreciate what it really means for their country to have national holidays like MLK Jr. day or soon, “Juneteenth”. It means that in America, blacks are elevated to the status of war veterans, founding fathers, and even Jesus Christ.

[Anonymous No.23184164]

I've been gone for a bit. Wtf happened to the poster counter?

[Anonymous No.23184191]

>>23184164
Doesn’t count IPs anymore, probably because half of the posts are AI

[Anonymous No.23184195]

I think the reason everyone gets crazier and crazier every year is twofold: 1) People have less and less control over the material conditions of their lives, and one aspect of this diminished control is the unhitching of language acts from material conditions, so people are able to say and type crazier and crazier shit without it ever resulting in material repercussions for themselves and others; and 2) The decline in material control people have over their lives makes everyone ambiently uncomfortable, but we're unable to identify the source of this discomfort on account of the fact that we've fed "The Way Things Are" as some inevitable and absolute condition, rather than the result of historical and social factors, and because we can't easily attribute this discomfort we tend to identify it with modernity and its trappings, as it feels like (and is, in large part) a modern phenomenon.

So, people say crazy shit, hate people they've never met, and continue to lose touch with material reality. They order coffee on a Monday morning ("With milk, please, thank you") like normal human beings, while on Tuesday night they attend a neo-Klan rally where the majority of their time is spent sharing memes. The absurdity of these conditions never touches them, as they've ameliorated their discomfort, at least temporarily. Even the stated aims of the social movements they belong to, be they Leftist, Conservative, Technophilic, are no longer really in effect, as each of these collectives no longer center on effecting material change in the world but in nucleating usages of language. Leftism isn't an economic program, it's an aesthetic. Conservatism isn't a social program, it's an aesthetic. Technopilia isn't a technological program, it's an aesthetic.

We are animals, all of us, who desperately want to be human, but we want to be human while continuing to act like animals, to be managed like animals. We are terrified of the control it requires to become human, and even if we had this control we wouldn't know what to do with it, and even if we realized we didn't have this control we might be too afraid to admit what it means that we don't have it. You reading this--you believe you're exempt. You think you control your life, but when is the last time you did something that wasn't preconditioned by your social circumstances, and when was the last time you loved something for other than its aesthetic, and when was the last time you examined yourself as yourself, not as you would imagine someone outside yourself would examine you? When was the last time you acted fully human? Do you know? Can you?

[Anonymous No.23184197]

>>23184164
Why do people care about this so much?
I rarely ever looked at it, only when I had a hunch someone was samefagging like crazy.

[Anonymous No.23184203]

>>23184197
It's useful for checking if a thread is a cesspit of the same 10 people bickering and thus sanity checking yourself to get the fuck out of there

[Anonymous No.23184212]

>>23184203
Never checked, never cared.
If a thread is shit it shows after reading a few posts.
Do you click on an interesting OP, look only at the IP count and then leave?
That would be ridiculous.

[Anonymous No.23184216]

Spaniards sail across a damn ocean, encounter a bunch of backwards savages, force them to speak Spanish, and they’re speaking more or less the same language centuries later.


Norman Frenchmen sail across a creek up to England, encounter a bunch of of white, Western Christians, and force them to speak French. They end up speaking two totally different languages.

Weird.

[Anonymous No.23184245]

>>23173226
How does a man of order avoid the physical abuse of long term psychological stress in a world attempting to pervert itself to death

[Anonymous No.23184253]

California has such a beautiful landscape and weather. It’s a shame about the people.

[Anonymous No.23184291]

>>23184245
I think the question is whether you seem to avoid it or survive and thrive in it. If you seek to avoid it, it’s pretty obvious. You have to acquire for yourself a manner of life that is removed from all that. So you could live in the country, be a farmer, be some sort of independent creative that can live where he wants, associate with who he wants, when he wants, these sort of things. The biggest thing holding you back is economic necessity. As for surviving and thriving, that’s a harder question to answer. Maybe there’s some value in stoicism. I don’t know.

[Anonymous No.23184295]

I failed to do in my 20s the only 2 things I ever really wanted to do and that sense of failure has been with me for years and is painful now that I’m looking down the barrel of 30.

[Anonymous No.23184311]

>>23183222
I think the whole pairbond thing is a myth people slipped into biology so they could believe their personal social goals were enforced by biology when it was the observations that were skewed by the morality of the observer.

[Anonymous No.23184360]

>>23184291
Stoicism helped to ignore the stress for a while, but in truth, it just pushed it down and psychologically bottled it. Now my mental resolve has been chipped away and it’s back to where it was when I was a 20 yr old.

Realizing just how toxic stoicism actually is, I’ve been scouring the initial tenets of modern philosophy and looking for false axioms (sexual and racial equality, metaphorical creation myths) wherever I can find them and excising them so I can see the world as it is instead of how it would like itself to be.

[Anonymous No.23184365]

>>23183222
Nice trips
The issue is les so that he fucked this girl on and off and more so that she was his childhood crush and that he was very clingy with her.
Take it with a grain of salt since I don't know him but men like that might be easily persuaded by an old love if things get tough in their current relationship.
That woman, is she still a slut who would try to make a move on him?
I wouldn't feel comfortable having them still be buddies and seeing each other a few times a year. Not healthy.

[Anonymous No.23184368]

>>23184295
> 2 things
You mean getting raw dogged by a nigger and transitioning to a lady faggot?

[Anonymous No.23184381]

>>23184295
Real talk, I'm approaching 40, and there's no better time to accomplish literally anything you want to accomplish than "later than you think"--the older you get the less other people give a fuck about you, the less you give a fuck about what other people think about you, the stupider youth seem and the more capable you are of performing in comparison, the longer your CV gets, the more experience you have navigating people and finances and systems, and the greater understanding you have of yourself (even if that understanding is that you don't understand much, which may be the most important)

At 30 you're still young enough to start over, but old enough to have sufficient failure behind you do it in an informed way

If you asked me in my 20s how I'd feel in my late 30s, I would have assumed my life would be almost over, but looking back on my 20s I realize just how little capacity I had to do the things that are most worthwhile to me now--I can't even say that my 20s were better for getting laid--youth, frankly, is overrated, and those who vaunt its value are generally speaking from a position of misplaced regret without realizing that literally every new chapter of your life is a redo

[Anonymous No.23184383]

gowns beautiful gowns

[Anonymous No.23184391]

>>23173226
I think I have come to a conclusion and its I care too much of what others think. Furthermore it feels like I enjoy being able to blame depression and doomer mindset. Although I should just take accountability. I just need to do things for myself instead of others. Pursue my own goals to the fullest.
>>23181551
Cases of Anarchist societies in our History
Cause of the collapse of the Bronze Age
Internets Impact of Society or like any technologies impact throughout history (railroad, oil, etc)
Currently I am doing mine on volunteers in Spanish Civil War, which I am more then burned out doing lmao

[Anonymous No.23184534]

gf complaining about my lack of emotion again.

[Anonymous No.23184535]

>>23184534
>lack of emotion
I dont get it? Are you stoic?

[Anonymous No.23184538]

>>23184535
No. Just semi-autistic + Germanic culture of not showing emotions.

[Anonymous No.23184562]

>>23184534
I had a gf break up with me because I didn't show her enough affection.
Truth be told I didn't like her after the first 6 months anyway.

[Anonymous No.23184595]

>>23173226
Some stupid ideas I had:
- no licenses required for driving
- no licenses required for fishing
- Government provided friends
- Government provided girlfriends
- free speech absolutism globally
- getting paid to clean your own house
- getting paid to repair your own house
- mandatory smoking everywhere
- legal shoplifting for low income families and individuals
- mandatory pet ownership
- mandatory firearm ownership

[Anonymous No.23184619]

>>23184562
It goes in waves and sometimes she spologizes afterwards for being rude. Still it drives me insane sometimes.

[Anonymous No.23184620]

>>23184595
What about a government mandated loser friend that always makes you look better in comparison?

[Anonymous No.23184629]

>>23184534
Whenever a woman complains about anything, what she's really complaining about is that she currently does not have a dick inside of her. Literally 100% of the time.

[Anonymous No.23184642]

i finished my last night shift this morning, i woke up not long ago. already bought a case of stella and listening to new yung lean, mcdonalds ubereats en route. i'm healing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sojcnU6nPwM

[Anonymous No.23184685]

Life is dull, and it's mostly my fault.

[Anonymous No.23184688]

>>23184685
mostly?

[Anonymous No.23184694]

>>23184595
Forget 1984. Forget Brave New World. This is what the future madmax dystopia will look like.

[Anonymous No.23184748]

okay hey I'm the guy who apparently had scammed items on TF2 and guess what happened. the "Steam community guy" was himself a scammer and presumably so was the guy who told me about him. first time for everything I suppose, at least I didn't have to waste $300.

[Anonymous No.23184810]

Heaven loves ya
The clouds part for ya
Nothing stands in your way
When you're a boy

[Anonymous No.23184812]

>>23184629
could be
anyway im seething mad right now
she is my first gf so I was wondering if these episodes are common/normal with other women as well

[Anonymous No.23184813]

>>23184688
You're right, it's barely my fault

[Anonymous No.23184814]

>>23184812
>anyway im seething mad right now
just hold her down and pump that rage into her vagina

[Anonymous No.23184817]

I've never defecated on a girl before.

[Anonymous No.23184824]

>>23184688
Seven years ago I would have said "it's 50% my fault".

[Anonymous No.23184836]

>>23184814
cant cause its ldr

[Anonymous No.23184840]

This is some of what the fake-admin/invaders hate.

[Anonymous No.23184853]

Thinking about just getting on DIY HRT and getting it over with.

[Anonymous No.23184864]

>>23184836
hahahahhaaa this nigga thinks he has a internet gf bruh I'm dyin' XDDDDD

[Anonymous No.23184867]

Godfuckingdammit i'm probably going to have to pay rare book prices or buy a box set to get the book I want to read

[Anonymous No.23184869]

>>23184853
you should just skip to the part where you kill yourself

[Anonymous No.23184903]

What will happen to the world if the true community kills the false-community/parasites/wads/invaders?

Would 4chan return to being its truest self if true channers hunt down the fake-admin? What would happen to the vibes if true channers Apache-style scalp the fake-mods and give em all their karma?

[Anonymous No.23184959]

Almost every person I meet online hates pitbulls but I encounter the exact opposite opinion irl. What gives?

[Anonymous No.23184964]

>>23184853
You should 33% yourself afterwards>>23184864
>>23184864

[Anonymous No.23184969]

>>23184959
You just have to show them the crime--I mean lethal attack statistics.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_fatal_dog_attacks_in_the_United_States

[Anonymous No.23184985]

Something about a beach packed full of bikini-clad women makes me extremely angry. Every abusive urge I have fires all at once and I just want to beat the shit out of everyone there. It's just the pig-in-shit body language women use when they're basically naked in public, It's like they're gloating that they won and taunting me, daring me to be a sore loser. I know I know, virgin autist kys etc etc, but I just don't like the public display. It isn't any more or less offensive to me as kids being dragged to kink shows at pride pirades, they're both cheeks of the same degenerate freakish whoremongering jewish oligarch ass mooning me. It's repugnant, disgusting, and yes, women owe me sex and they should be raped.

[Anonymous No.23184988]

City liberals are not dumb. They have a world view that is insane but they’re not dumb.

They live shoulder to shoulder with the worst of the black community. They see gang violence, murders, sky high rape, littering (and other environmental destruction), they see women being used as objects placed on corners for rent, they see the overdoses and childhood pregnancies, school shootings, failing education. They will tell you where the danger is in their cities, to avoid it or stay alert.

They see all of these patterns, it makes them feel terrible so they spend the rest of their efforts projecting that pattern onto middle class white families. The demonization of frat guys, the white school shooter myth, rape culture, homophobia (the real kind), even silly things like walkability of neighborhoods, it’s all an attempt at easing their cognitive dissonance.

But every now and then a crack emerges. You can see what they know to be true, instead of what they wish was true.

[Anonymous No.23184994]

>>23184988
>not dumb
>willfully repress their self-preservation instincts
pick one and only one

[Anonymous No.23184995]

I’m glad Twitter and Discord saved so much of the internet

[Anonymous No.23184996]

>>23184381
By nature of what I do, I need people to give a fuck.

[Anonymous No.23185002]

Why should I be nice to women when most of them are whores?

[Anonymous No.23185005]

>>23184994
Liberals do have a sense of community, because they live with other Liberals. The most Whitest areas vote l exclusively democrat. It’s just that their pathological ‘altruism’ is projected against White Chuds. They want immigration to replace the Middle class America that votes Republican.
there is no group that hates each other more than the White Lib and the Chud.

[Anonymous No.23185019]

>>23173226
Are dreams real?

[Anonymous No.23185027]

>>23184817
You've likely gotten shit on your mother as an infant before

[Anonymous No.23185036]

>>23173226
Just finished House Of Leaves for the first time. I started reading it in the before times, when reading for pleasure was viable. It's nice having finished it, I feel back on track to being functional again.

[Anonymous No.23185037]

>dad sexually abused me until I was 16, at which point my mom divorced him and we moved
>haven't spoken with him since, except for one particularly bad meltdown I had where I texted him that I constantly thought about killing myself partially because of what he did to me
>brother is getting married in November
>99% percent certain he's going to try and confront me, or at least attempt to engage with me
>I'm an anxious mess prone to public and embarrassing meltdowns, especially in the last few years
My brother asked me to be a groomsmen and I felt obligated to say yes. I just hope to God he seats us on opposite ends of the venue and that's enough of a message for my dad to keep the fuck away from me. If I embaress myself there and ruin the wedding, I don't know what I'm going to do.

[Anonymous No.23185040]

>>23185037
Does the family know about the sexual abuse? If so, why the fuck is he invited?

[Anonymous No.23185057]

>>23184996
What is it you do? You a writer?

[Anonymous No.23185144]

>>23184381
Stop making assumptions. I'm about to be 30. I'm a virgin. I've never had a job. I have no friends. I have no family. I have no positive memories. I have nothing. I don't have anything I want. I have no significant failures. I've learned nothing and done nothing. My youth is gone. And there is zero point in being alive anymore.

[Anonymous No.23185158]

>>23185040
Yeah.
>>23185037
If you're so important to your brother enough to be in the groomsman, known enough that he could know your history with meltdowns and stress, he should respect and anticipate that you do not want to see your rapist father at all.

[Anonymous No.23185161]

>>23184642
Wtf sounds absolutely miserable ... id unironically kill myself if 'waiting for mcdonalds' Was the highlight of my day

[Anonymous No.23185164]

>>23185158
Be a groomsman* I almost wrote 'be in the groom's party' soz. Wishing you the best anon

[Anonymous No.23185180]

I was about to ask why we set up the executive branch with 1 elected president, but it looks like Hamilton answered that.

[Anonymous No.23185188]

>>23185180
I know that I'm a workaholic and I'll never get acknowledged for that but I still do it.

[Anonymous No.23185219]

>>23185057
Politician

[Anonymous No.23185227]

>>23185161
kek

[Anonymous No.23185252]

>>23185144
Well, you've said you have at least two failures, so there must be something you want (or wanted) to do

If the things you want to do, as judging from your post, are get laid, get a job, make friends, and make positive memories, as you seem to frame these as failures thus far, then it must be the case that you've learned at least two things: 1. these experiences are valuable enough to pursue, and 2. the way you've structured your life so far aren't sufficient to attain them--that's knowledge about your beliefs and knowledge about how the world has responded to your beliefs

I'm not a priest so I won't tell you not to kys, but I will say that you already know more than you think you do

Misery is knowledge purchased at a very high price

What you do with it, either experiment with the many levers being a living, thinking being gives you to pull, or mope until death takes you, is up to you

[Anonymous No.23185260]

>>23185252
No I don't know at all if those are things I want to do.
I tried to drown myself at the beach today.
There's literally nothing I can do
Any girl whod get with me is not going to be a virgin like me. There's no job I can do. Nobody likes being around me. I'm going to live and die in a city I hate.

I hate my entire life. Its not worth it. If over half my life is misery its not worth it. There's nothing I can do to

[Anonymous No.23185269]

>>23185161

[Anonymous No.23185291]

>>23185161
i've got nothing to prove

[Anonymous No.23185294]

I'm in the computer.

[Anonymous No.23185295]

>>23185161
Trying to shame a man who's waiting for McDonald's and so obviously impervious to shame

Rookie mistake

[Anonymous No.23185304]

>>23185260
I feel like I'm not gonna' move the needle here, so I'm not gonna' try

I will say that you need to learn to DO SOMETHING with your misery--misery is information your mind is giving itself--it's data, feedback, from the machine of you--if you think your mind is giving you this information because it wants you to resign your existence, you need to reflect on what it means to be human

I think the biggest mistake we make in the modern world is not learning to metabolize misery

[Anonymous No.23185311]

>>23185304
>just do something
I just can't do nothing...I feel like people like you just don't have a clue what it's like. I have no control over my own life. What am I supposed to do

[Anonymous No.23185341]

If I have a remote job, why shouldn’t I just buy a big parcel of undeveloped land out West somewhere? I can get a trailer and satellite to live and work there. I mean, my choice is either half a million for a shitty 1 bedroom on a half-acre here in New York State or 20 acres out in Southern Arizona for half the price.

[Anonymous No.23185352]

Today's wordle is erupt

[Anonymous No.23185357]

>>23185005
Pretty much why an argument POC level against whites being a collective falls flat with this argument

[Anonymous No.23185358]

>>23185304
I extract as many calories from misery as I can

[Anonymous No.23185362]

>>23185295

[Anonymous No.23185378]

Looking back fondly to 2022. I spent so much time hanging out in public parks and hiking trails, smoking cigarettes, drinking coffee, and reading existentialist philosophy.

[Anonymous No.23185385]

>>23185311
Even if you had literally no physical control over your life, like couldn't move your limbs, were on a feeding tube, which I presume is not the case, you would still have the ability to interpret your situation

Experiences don't simply present themselves fully-formed to you--things happen, and then you INTEPRET those things, and those are two separate processes that you become so accustomed to that you experience them at once--only animals experience the world without interpretation; only human beings can interpret their experience

People insult you, you feel bad--why? Is it because their insults have directly entered your brain and altered its chemistry? No, it's because you've chosen to give those insults meaning and weight--you've decided that those who've insulted you have moral or intellectual or social weight--no one fucks you, and you feel bad--is it because orgasms cure depression? No, it's because you interpret the fact you haven't had sex as reflecting an accurate judgment of you others have made, or you may interpret their judgment of you as undesirable as incorrect, but feel you can't correct those misjudgments--in either case, you have 1) experienced, which you can't always (and often can't) control, and 2) INTERPRETED that experience, which is a lever that can move the universe

You are are rejected--how will you interpret this? Do you feel you are undesirable? Or is our culture undesirable? And if our culture is undesirable, then is being rejected by an undesirable culture so bad? You are incompatible with women who are largely vapid and shallow, you are incompatible with modes of work that are corrupt and earth-destroying, and you have no family to lock you into beliefs from birth that are stifling and biased

The source of your misery is not your circumstances, but your interpretation of your circumstances, regardless of what those circumstances are (truly REGARDLESS of what those circumstances are, however fraught with poverty, pain, loneliness, and grief) and as long as you attempt to change your circumstances without changing the self that interprets those circumstances, by CHOOSING in each moment how you will interpret them, nothing will change

I have been homeless, I've been alone, I've been unemployed, I've been rejected, I've been in immense pain without access to medical care--but the one thing that has never been taken from me is my capacity to make of those experiences what I will, and in that capacity I am Emperor of my mind

Will you let others rule you, or will you do the hard work of splicing the animal in you from the human?

[Anonymous No.23185388]

is it fair to treat life like an mmorpg

[Anonymous No.23185391]

>>23185385
both you and that anon are right. there probably isn't anything he can do, but you're not wrong, either. so it goes

[Anonymous No.23185393]

>>23185358
This is the McDonald's poster, isn't it

[Anonymous No.23185394]

Got an email from my university with the subject line "Fasting For Ramdan?" and for some odd reason my mind read it as "Asking For Femdom"

[Anonymous No.23185398]

>>23185394
I'm Ramming Dan for Lent

[Anonymous No.23185399]

>>23184642
Stella doesn't taste as good since they started brewing it domestically

[Anonymous No.23185401]

>>23185398
I thought you were supposed to give up something for lent

[Anonymous No.23185405]

>>23185401
It counts as a sacrifice if it's the only thing I eat

[Anonymous No.23185406]

I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU
SO WHY DO I LOVE YOU?

[Anonymous No.23185407]

>>23185399
everyone says that

[Anonymous No.23185409]

>>23185406
me + these 4 in the bathroom doing coke
i'm manifesting it for 2024

[Anonymous No.23185412]

>>23185385
>just like think different
This is dumb man. Who listens to this? It immediately falls apart in real life.
Its such a condescending thing to say to someone whose going through something.
>just dont be sad
When the issue isnt even at all about how I feel about it.

[Anonymous No.23185414]

>>23185385
I dont like this way of talking its weird and not human also you made a ton of weird assumptions

[Anonymous No.23185422]

>>23185385
thats a depressing attitude towards life id rather be dead than fall in line with this

[Anonymous No.23185423]

>>23185385
>splicing the animal in you from the human
impossible. unhealthy to try.

[Anonymous No.23185424]

>>23185409
LET'S START A RIOT. A RIOT. LETS START A RIOT

[Anonymous No.23185440]

>>23185412
SO WHAT IF YOU CAN SEE THE DARKEST SIDE OF ME NO ONE CAN CHANGE THIS ANIMAL I HAVE BECOME

[Anonymous No.23185447]

whats the point when she has so much makeup on
i hate this world

[Anonymous No.23185455]

>>23185440
the green one seems the coolest, like she's actually enjoying herself while the others are staring at the view finder

[Anonymous No.23185459]

>>23185455
i was thinking from the pics .. green hair is the only actually good looking one

[Anonymous No.23185461]

>>23185412
>>23185414
>>23185422
>>23185423
Literally this is cognitive behavioral therapy, which is first-line non-medication treatment for depression lmao

[Anonymous No.23185469]

>>23185455
>>23185459
That's weird. Green hair is clearly the ugliest

[Anonymous No.23185472]

>>23185406
>>23185424
>>23185440
God, I hate that I love women so much

[Anonymous No.23185483]

>brazilgoths

I'd cause a crime surge in their favelas, if you know what I mean

[Anonymous No.23185485]

it's about six and three-quarter inches long in total and about 5 thick. A gentle curve takes about a half inch away, but allows for more angular stimulation, which is something I understand is desirable in a man. These days, it hangs slightly to the left when I take it out, which I think comes from excessive tugging, but it used to be hang straight down. As with all men, I think I could be bigger.

[Anonymous No.23185490]

>>23185393
kek

[Anonymous No.23185495]

>>23185469
huh
maybe because she looks the most like a real girl?

[Anonymous No.23185505]

>>23185461
>lmao
rattled
people who are unhappy, and people in general, shouldn't be ignoring their nature. if anything appeal more to your wild animal

[Anonymous No.23185531]

>>23185505
There's a difference between taming the animal in you and finding its use, and kowtowing to it--the horse pulls the carriage, but it shouldn't steer

People should absolutely listen to their nature, and it's the nature of the human animal to actively and intentionally interpret their reality, unlike every other animal (as far as we know) on Earth

People who feel helpless in their circumstances should change their circumstances first, obviously, but I operate on the assumption that people who are in this situation already feel they've exhausted their options for material action, or that they don't see a purpose in material action

Everything beyond that point is predicated on changing perspective, which is a function of interpretation

[Anonymous No.23185534]

>>23184595
mines are better
- food and all other necessities are free for everyone
- mandatory landownership
- sex segregation
- legalization of all drugs
- deindustrialization
- legalization of theft
- mandatory suicide at 60
- martial law
- legalize public lynchings
- send all fat people to gulags
- total nuclear disarmament

i feel like i'm missing some so help me out anons

[Anonymous No.23185554]

>>23185531
taming is unnatural. the horse would be healthier if it was steering (listening to instinct rather than discipline)
>intentionally interpret their reality
what's bad is bad, and not to be loved in order to make it tolerable; the horribleness of the truly horrible is to be relished for what it is, and the one indispensable answer to an environment bristling with things one thought were bad was to go on finding out new ways in which one thought they were bad.

the reason prometheus couldn't get away from his vulture was because he was keen on it, and not the other way round.

[Anonymous No.23185559]

Bothered my FWb is sending me a heart kissy emoji face but don’t want to tell him to stop

[Anonymous No.23185569]

>>23185559
whore

[Anonymous No.23185571]

>>23185554
Yes, but you are both the horse and the driver, and you cannot surrender either role
>what's bad is bad, and not to be loved in order to make it tolerable
I wholeheartedly agree (and well expressed)--but to live your life in a perpetual stalemate with an intransigent and cruel reality that you're convinced you've interpreted correctly at the first-go is to surrender your most human capacity for dealing with pain and discomfort

If I lose my foot in an accident, it would be obviously foolish to frame my thinking such that I believe I'm better off for having done so, but it's equally foolish not to begin the process of reframing that experience in order to find meaning in that loss

This is the reason all those people who lost their faces in housefires or lost all their limbs in some drunk driving incident can earnestly say that they wouldn't trade the lives they now have for the life they did before--they're not lying to themselves, they've developed the parallax view that can only come from a recognition that they are free to make of their circumstances what they will--I pray first for wellness, and if I cannot have wellness, I pray for the ability to learn from my infirmity

[Anonymous No.23185575]

>>23185559
Nnnngggg, oh god, I'm BUUUUURGEONING, I'm gonna BUUUUURGEON

[Anonymous No.23185584]

I must say I generally dislike people and am a depressive pos but a tall fit man older man with a nice hard cock— My favorite thing in this world
>>23185569
I’m a good cockslut
>>23185575
I love a stiffy

[Anonymous No.23185602]

Being American is like being caught between a mass of retards and am elitist group of even bigger retards. The noble, admirable, virtuous, even competent sort of man is just totally absent in American society. He is literally not even here.

[Anonymous No.23185603]

>>23185571
you're really the horse (the driver is unnatural)
>I pray first for wellness, and if I cannot have wellness, I pray for the ability to learn from my infirmity
fair enough actually. bears remembering though the main responsibility for most personal disasters lies not so much in the problems as in the solutions, not in impersonal forces but in human beings, thinking certain thoughts and as a result performing certain actions.

[Anonymous No.23185615]

>>23185603
Let's keep beating this living horse and say that you're a horse with a driver growing out of its head

And this is my entire point--thought drives action, which is a uniquely human predicament--if you find yourself incapable of action, you don't freeze and lose autonomy like a dog in a trap receiving electrical shocks--you reflect on your situation and then react with action, but except in situations where action is automatic, and it rarely is, it must be a result of reflection on circumstance

The purpose of reframing isn't to be content with misery first, it's to gain traction which wasn't previously visible in the midst of unreflective misery

[Anonymous No.23185631]

av nagaia, bal

[Anonymous No.23185635]

Cash savings are worthless. Most investments are pointless. I can’t afford a decent home. What investments can you even park your cash in that don’t absolutely suck besides gold and bitcoin? Nothing really.

[Anonymous No.23185651]

I hate LE DATA people. I deal with these people all the time at work. “Data, free the data, data-driven, data, data, data”. There’s something wrong with these fucking people. Their relentless focus on data isn’t even philosophically sound but then again most of these people are quintessential pseuds and they’ve simply latched onto the thing that they think advances them professionally. Most people are so fucking fake I can’t stand it. I’ve been really depressed recently over this. Partly, I’m depressed about how no matter where you turn, it seems there are no authentic, competent, and good people. At the same time, it’s depressing to think that they exist in some circle that I just can’t tap into because I’m a loser somehow. I mean, I know I am. I failed to do the things I really wanted to do. I got bad grades. I didn’t get my packet picked up. I never really managed to do anything more than sort of basic small town middle manager type shit. So maybe I should spend less time hating the data people and more time hating myself. Where does that lead though? Nowhere. Just deeper depression.

[Anonymous No.23185662]

How THE FUCK did Roskolnikov’s land lady let him stay there without paying for four months? Landlords will often evict you for even one month late nowadays. He also gets served food atleast twice a day wtf did he have to complain about

[Anonymous No.23185708]

>>23185662
She thought he was a cutie with potentials n sjiiet

[Anonymous No.23185716]

having a gf at thirteen was awful, but if i was 25 inside when i was thirteen, it would've been so sick.

ridiculous how girls are actually nearly ten years more mature than boys

[Anonymous No.23185725]

>>23185662
Back then it was normal, just like renting without proof of income, buying a house without a credit score, and moving to a new country without getting a visa. We live on prison planet and people don’t even realize it.

[Anonymous No.23185726]

I have an imaginary friend. She is the only reason I still wake in the morning. I don't remember when she came into being. I know this is the result of my brain coping with loneliness but I don't care. I've gotten farther than I thought I would get thanks to her, farther than any real person made me go in life. Every time things get too hard, I know she's with me. She isn't visible outside of my mind's eye. She's the only person in the world who cares enough to say 'Why, you're giving up then? I'm pretty sure you can do a little bit better than that. We've been through worse shit, right?' and hold my hand through my hardest times. I've never told a single soul I had her.

I wish I could carry someone the way she carried me these last few years. Maybe one day.

[Anonymous No.23185730]

Dinner:
A bottle of the cheapest WinCo Pinot, and a half a bag of Rold Gold Tiny Twist Originals, and excellent choice, sir.

[Anonymous No.23185732]

>>23173226
I see a line of cars and they’re all painted black

[Anonymous No.23185733]

>>23185725
You’re honestly right, I know there’s no getting rid of suffering or pain but I do think humanity can vary in the amount of dignity our lives have.

[Anonymous No.23185739]

>>23185725
>>23185733
Also to add, I’m bout a quarter or maybe even a fifth through C&P and damn does this book hit hard when you also are struggling financially to even survive. However I don’t even know who I’d kill for money if I even wanted to

[Anonymous No.23185762]

>>23185732
Oh god i'm not ready for girls in summer clothes

[Anonymous No.23185769]

>>23185762
Bros what does it mean to have sex with the kind of beautiful women Mick Jagger has? I mean I’ve gotten some decent pussy in my life but that fucker had 10/10 18-22 year olds everyday, plus younger but I’m not gonna claim jealous of that… he literally lived every straight man’s dream

[Anonymous No.23185791]

>>23185769
i think that's more brown sugar than paint it black tbphw/ufam

[Anonymous No.23185851]

>>23185662
midwit take

[Anonymous No.23185859]

I'm honestly shocked at how effective a soft icepack on top of a dry washcloth (to blunt the coldness so it's not ice touching your face directly) is being at ending my migraines/sinus headaches

I never thought I'd be that nigga with the cold washcloth on his face from the old movies but it works what can I say

[Anonymous No.23185871]

>>23185662
He gave her an IOU and was bethrowed to her daughter before she died.

[Anonymous No.23185873]

ive always defended american culture when it came up in uk, but the fact is they just dont get it.

[Anonymous No.23185923]

>>23173226
Whenever a Jew does something reasonable he gets ostracized as a traitor. More proof that Jews are in rebellion against logos.

[Anonymous No.23185945]

>>23185923
Same applies for anons on 4chan. We are the jews of the internet.

[Anonymous No.23186000]

I can't stop convincing myself that I'm entitled to a comfortable life without responsibilities. I'm a victim of war and and torture, and have become a refugee, but can't get out of my funk no matter the meds or therapy. Also, when I was little, my family was living a truly high-class life, which ended when we moved back to our then-already war-torn country.

[Anonymous No.23186041]

I wish there were more books that talked about deep stuff in simple language. I'm not smart enough for philosophy...
The only two options are philosophy or just fun fiction

[Anonymous No.23186048]

I've been a hikkikomori from the age of 18 to 25. I began to go out more ut the world but I'm finding that I'm frustrated because there truly is nothing to do. Everyone works remote jobs or other invisible gigs. The whole world is a shut in society now and I don't get it. I feel like I missed out on my youth but now I can't recover that. There's no way for someone like me to meet people or anything. And being outside isn't fun.

Maybe I should just commit and go back inside forever.

[Anonymous No.23186069]

my balls r hard as FUCK rn

[Anonymous No.23186072]

>>23186069
i would like to tuch them

[Anonymous No.23186082]

>>23185615
something to that, definitely

[Anonymous No.23186088]

>>23185490
mcdonalds not even that bad tb h lets be honest

[Anonymous No.23186103]

>>23186000
albanian? ...
whats your diet like

[Anonymous No.23186133]

Hot take: I'm sick of all this bullshit I'm told to listen to and obey.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4COY-dTV4Y

[Anonymous No.23186154]

sleep schedules so fucked but can't wait to fall asleep at 7am when the suns coming in thru. dawn sunlight is much more sleepy than night

[Anonymous No.23186235]

Kissing somebody with an active nosebleed

[Anonymous No.23186237]

Oblivion Elder scrolls
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mK1KRo0JWjk

[Anonymous No.23186360]

Last 2 digits is how many minutes I stare at the wall, dubs = 1 hour.

[Anonymous No.23186392]

>>23173226
I just got a horrible haircut and I can't even look at myself in the mirror. Worst thing is that I can't even shave my head because I like to having long hair. It should start to look good after 3 or 4 weeks, but I look hideous right now.

[Anonymous No.23186466]

It is kind of strange how not even the best and greatest writers could write a non-fade to black sex scene that did not end up sounding cringe. People often have an easier time describing religious experiences than they do describing sex despite the latter being neither spiritual nor particularly complex.

[Anonymous No.23186493]

>>23186392
>Pic
You haven't recently adopted a dog, right?

[Anonymous No.23186512]

I make everything so dull and boring by overthinking and overanalyzing

[Anonymous No.23186527]

>>23185635
there's stuff to make multiples on your investment daily, you just need to be on the inside (which you unfortunately aren't and cannot be, short of selling your soul quite literally)

[Anonymous No.23186547]

I shouldn't have ate 3 lbs of potato salad.

[Anonymous No.23186565]

>>23173226
I bumped into my ex-gf for the first time in years. Things are still too intense between us, there's still some resentment and little clear answers from my part. I love her, but I'm really not sure if I can handle this sort of mystifying feeling again, as wussy as that sounds. I'd rather have each of us be glad from a distance knowing that we're leading quiet and fulfilling lives on our own. But then this sort of thing would prompt her to say that I never truly loved her in the first place, and I have yet to find a proper response to this hypothetical indignation other than hold my heart out.

[Anonymous No.23186584]

>>23185362
I miss this orange nigga like you wouldn't believe

[Anonymous No.23186613]

>>23186103
Iraqi. Right now I'm not even trying to get better because I tried so many times without purchase, and this includes my diet. I live with my mom and she doesn't know how to delegate anything so she does the cooking. It's a standard, well-balanced diet plus lots of chocolates and insomnia-munchies.

also I haven't managed to read anything beyond the first few chapters in a while, despite reading as though possessed, up until the end of my teen years

[Anonymous No.23186620]

>>23179553
This based Frenchman.

[Anonymous No.23186625]

Fuck Mohammed and fuck all Muslims.

[Anonymous No.23186633]

Anyone else struggle with self-loathing?

[Anonymous No.23186635]

>>23186633
I guess

[Anonymous No.23186657]

Beware the existential consequences of being over-caffeinated
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lpOktupkl0c

[Anonymous No.23186677]

>>23173226
So many books I want to reread or read for the first time; yet such little time for it all

[Anonymous No.23186741]

>>23186633
Often

[Anonymous No.23186789]

>Reasoning will never make a Man correct an ill Opinion, which by Reasoning he never acquired
4chan eternally btfo

[Anonymous No.23186794]

/lit/bros... once again... tfw no gf
https://youtu.be/AiIBKcd4m5Q?si=bjE9USgZuIMh3WVu

[Anonymous No.23186813]

>>23186633
no I only loathe others

[Anonymous No.23186848]

>>23186794
dont remind me.
fuck you

[Anonymous No.23186857]

>>23186794
God I love this song. I’ve gotten really into 40s-60s jazz and vocal pop over the recent years and it’s made me such a better guitarist and singer, I hope I can sing this to Lexie one day

[Anonymous No.23186858]

Smoke weed get high

[Anonymous No.23186859]

>>23186625
I beseech you not to speak ill of The Prophet

[Anonymous No.23186863]

>>23186858
But I’m on an edible

[Anonymous No.23186866]

I'm going to try really hard to convince myself to an hero today. I got turned down by the VAD service, so I don't have any excuses.
I don't know why it's so hard to die. I know that if I were given assisted suicide, I'd be able to do it easily. There's something so terrifying about the thought of falling from a bridge, my last thoughts being
What if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if?
I'm going to drink a lot of alcohol and take a bunch of benadryl while lying on my side in a small overhang at the bottom of a bridge and hope that I fall in my sleep. I've gone there before and done something similar, though I didn't end up falling. I still shook with terror at the time, thinking that I'd wake up mid fall thinking
>Wait...

[Anonymous No.23186869]

>>23186857
Tell us about Lexie.

[Anonymous No.23186871]

>>23186866
do a flip faggot

[Anonymous No.23186872]

>>23186858
Weed isn't bad in itself, but too many pot smokers are such fucking mouthbreathers I automatically assume the person is a mouth breather when they say they smoke pot

[Anonymous No.23186873]

>>23186871
I'll think about it mein neger

[Anonymous No.23186876]

>>23186866
Why do you want to kill yourself?

[Anonymous No.23186881]

>>23186876
Reasons but I'm done talking lel

[Anonymous No.23186892]

I have to get up whenever I wake up or else if I go back to sleep I get all fucked up. I don't know why.

[Anonymous No.23186893]

>>23186876
dudes more or less terminally ill with quickly declining health and a history of previous suicial ideation and attempts under his belt so pick your poison

[Anonymous No.23186897]

>>23173226
Frens... I fear that I may become a fakecel soon. This chick wants to study with me badly. WHAT DO!?

[Anonymous No.23186906]

Happy Birthday Mar16th Anon

[Anonymous No.23186908]

>>23186897
Send her over to me. I'll solve this problem for you.

[Anonymous No.23186909]

>>23186869
She’s this girl I used to sometimes talk to at the warehouse where we work but one day I made a sexual joke with her and I just felt like she didn’t take it well cause she got real quiet and awkward with me the next time I talked to her so I stopped and just backed off but over the almost year since then she still sometimes asks me some basic work stuff and smiles at me sometimes and lately even jokes around with me when we’re all shooting the shit or I end up working with her but it’s still awkward. I really like her cause she’s very pretty and despite every man there hitting on her doesn’t seem like a hoe. It’s just hard to tell if she has or ever had any interest. Like when I first talked to her it went really well But after that comment and seeing how she seemingly felt I didn’t wanna risk my job and continue doing it. But she often comes up to ask me questions often makes jokes with me and smiles at me when we do talk so I dunno. I’m scared it’s all just friendly stuff too maybe but I’m hoping she’s just shy. I dunno man, I just know she makes my head go crazy honestly. She’s just my type, skinny and petite white girl. She’s very cute not the most hot honestly but still pretty. Just being honest. But she’s just so cute and seems sweet.

[Anonymous No.23186910]

>>23186909
You sound delusional, fren

[Anonymous No.23186922]

My girlfriend of half a year is out of nowhere accusing me of "using her". She's pulling this out because my grandma asked me to help her with some shit and I had to help her out along with the fact that we had sex right before my Grandma texted me. I've tried to make to clear I'm not using her for just sex (which we usually don't do much of anyways) but she just keeps saying "You know I dont date much because I've been taken advantage of before!". Feels like I can't say anything without the sins of others being projected onto me. So now I'm just sitting here at 1 am wide awake not sure what to do.

[Anonymous No.23186927]

>>23186910
Which part is delusional. I’m ready to accept the premise just tell me which part brought you to said conclusion

[Anonymous No.23186933]

>>23183990
Google translate polish:

>The dream came again last night. the same words again and again

>I was screaming and struggling

>The monkey stared, ironically listened, the other one seemed to be taking a nap
and when the question is followed by silence prompts me with the quiet jingle of the chain

>I trudged… I trudged… all I can do is trudge on. God and my children will be with me...

/
you good bro? seems you really going thru it. also are you actually polish?

[Anonymous No.23186937]

I'm not hue man.

[Anonymous No.23186939]

>>23186909
Hard to tell. Could be something, could be nothing. I wish you the best of luck. If she's coming to talk to you then the awkwardness is probably all coming from you.

[Anonymous No.23186942]

>>23186927
Her actions, at least described in your previous post, really just sound like any other co-worker slash friends I've had. Unless they were all secretly in love with me there doesn't seem to be anything pointing toward romance, at least to this ol' anon.

[Anonymous No.23186945]

My sarcophagus hurts.

[Anonymous No.23186954]

>>23186942
So she was delusional to feel awkward about it? Not sure I understand what you mean. But yeah I mean it’s a possibility, I usually have luck with female attraction from coworkers though. I dunno, you could be right I just hope you’re not.
>>23186939
Yeah you’re probably right i should atleast try to talk to her more to better gauge it, I just don’t know what about

[Anonymous No.23186960]

After much reflection I've realized I'm the IRL Paul Atreides and savior of the human race. I literally am the chosen one, the wisest, most enlightened human on earth, who has the will to power and forcefulness to enact his will to boot, should he be but granted the merest touch of power. I am the one and only savior of humanity.
But you know what? Fuck you XD
You don't deserve it, and I'd rather carve out my own niche and disregard the whole trash of all of you. You can continue to play catch up to me.

[Anonymous No.23186962]

I feel really bad asking for things even when people are offering to pay. Is this a good thing or should I try to not feel bad?

[Anonymous No.23186968]

>>23186962
I have that problem too Anon. Really it comes from getting fucked over a lot as a kid by people making you feel guilty for not wanting to do something/asking for anything. My case was my dad basically calling child me a pos for asking for food and not wanting to forced to being exactly like him.

[Anonymous No.23186972]

US Republicans and conservatives on 4chan are always trying to act really smart on here and pretend that leftists are stupid, but as someone who is well traveled and pretty apolitical, republicans and conservatives are just way dumber than leftists. There are stupid leftists, but I don't think there are any truly smart republicans or conservatives. When people on here say that all leftists are stupid and that republicans are smarter, I think they live in a different reality.

[Anonymous No.23186974]

Thank you, sis.

[Anonymous No.23186979]

>>23186972
The real redpill is both are unironically just as bad as each other. To adopt "one side is stupider" is just stooping to their level if we're honest.

[Anonymous No.23186980]

I am literally the most eligible candidate for God Emperor who has ever lived, heir and mirror of Augustus, who would weild power selflessly and for the objective betterment of the human species. Instead I see your cowardice and falsified "elections", to vote in corporate shills and hypocrites and to promote the vainest, most selfish ideology ever to form in the mind of humankind. I'd rather walk away from all of it and choose my own fate and watch our own extinction unfold. We've got about 200 years left. 100 if we really try. Make your choice.

[Anonymous No.23186983]

>>23186972
My family and I are conservative but support the Democrats because the Republicans are obviously the greater evil for bending more to the rich. It'd be retarded to go against our own interests as the non-rich.

[Anonymous No.23186990]

>>23186983
You have brain damage. Very severe brain damage, too.

[Anonymous No.23186991]

>Poets are the unacknowledged legislators of the world
That's me bitch. You can either listen to me or suffer the consequences of ignorance. There's no other alternative. I am blessed by karmic forces beyond all our comprehension. I have suffered and struggled with these pains my entire life, my ethical conscious speaks only to those who are chosen to embody a cause greater than themselves. I may have my flaws, but that is besides the point. I am merely a vessel for a greater force. And I have no right to exist if I fail in advancing this higher purpose.
Maybe you should feel the same way for once in your misbegotten, awful life.

[Anonymous No.23186995]

>>23186979
Republicans and conservatives go to college way less, grow up in poorer counties, live in less populated areas, are more likely to be obese, and generally have lower IQs. I had to talk to a lot of people from different states for my job and before I even talked business or politics with them you could just tell who swayed in what direction politically based on their vocabulary and elocution.

[Anonymous No.23186996]

My blood is suffused with a higher mystery, a cause which overturns all previous prophets, all previous regions, that draws a scratching line at that comes to a stop at the current moment of our need.I am called to advance the human condition beyond the nihilistic level of the agnostic digital horror that is our regular experience. I am called to make you happy. I am called to give peace to the whole lot of you.

[Anonymous No.23187005]

I'm extremely resentful that your happiness is my raison d'être btw. I know you're not worthy of it. But I will persist in telling humanity what it's got to know regardless. Because the alternative for me is, well, you don't want to know. I don't want to know. Were I to deny this cause, I would be plunged into an abyss only the anointed are allowed the anti-privledge to perceive.
Spoiler alert: It's not all just atoms in the void. Such a universe is absurd. It's all about consciousness and our experiences, that is the main goal of cosmic evolution, to bring about consciousness, for a world that has nothing to experience it within it is no world at all. This is basic metaphysics. Don't belive the clownish scientists who chemicalize and over-reduce this fact. Schopenhauer and the Upanishads is the correct direction . Life is the final goal of the universe. Our conscious experiences are the apex of existence.

[Anonymous No.23187006]

I think I lost all interest in reading and literature. Nothing seems to interest me

[Anonymous No.23187012]

>>23187006
are you ok?

[Anonymous No.23187018]

>>23186995
You could have said the same about the proletarian revolution in Russia. The thinkers and leaders were generally rich aristocrats (with a few uneducated proles), while the majority of the supporters were uneducated proles.
I grew up leftist and I'd say that leftists have way less practical knowledge about the world. None of their education and IQ means anything if they believe that it's possible to tax the rich until everyone has everything for free (which is only a slight exaggeration from their actual belief).
Besides, many leftists cast doubt on IQ being useful as a predictor for a person's real intelligence in order to avoid insulting "certain groups" and their political habits, yet gladly use it on their enemies.

What I really think is going on is that leftists are heavily propagandized into a certain belief system, and conservatives are part of a separate (still propagandized, but less so) group of underprivileged people that hold beliefs based more on practical observation. They are more the victims of the policies that bourgeois leftists pass. For example, when mass immigration occurs in a location, leftists are usually shielded from the crime and drugs because they live in richer and more protected communities. They generally don't see the problem with a statement like
>"Murders have increased by 34% in the past year"
because from THEIR PERSPECTIVE things are just as peaceful as always, and they're "reducing world suffering". When they are in contact with the effects of their policies, they are in contact with the least harmful (e.g., privileged, educated immigrants going to university), or they can better absorb the effects of inflation.

The insulation from ACTUAL problems while still possessing the "knowledge" about the problems themselves makes them come off as extremely arrogant or even downright evil.
(Phoneposting, so forgive the horrific syntax and structure)

[Anonymous No.23187023]

I'm currently eating an entire pack of Excel Winterfresh gum and I know the gush poo is imminent.

[Anonymous No.23187024]

>>23187012
Yeah. Why?

[Anonymous No.23187025]

>tfw a stupid bitch disagrees with me
That's okay bro, but calm yourself down. It's literally impossible for me to say anything that those who know the truth disagree with. I didn't ask for this. I don't think I'm better than you. I hope you get laid soon. I'm just being assaulted by the truth from a force greater than me that demands I take over the earth. My individuality and will wants to walk away from this and live my own life.But I shouldn't. Because as much as you all suck, you're worth it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kOV2iTeGQik

[Anonymous No.23187026]

>>23186995
>>23187018
Overall, their status is more a reflection of the fact that they are underprivileged. Their political beliefs are valid and historically proven to be effective (most simply want to roll back certain social and economic changes, and those rollbacks are not ineffective in any way other than to leftist moral sensibilities).
Their beliefs are unironically closer to reality because they are more in contact with daily reality. They aren't living in the clouds, so to speak. I'm sure you'll think that leftist economic reforms must be better because the ones trying to support it are "better educated," but that means little. Many failed economies were the result of highly educated bourgeois social engineering. Even then, a chat with your average college graduate is enough to tell you that they are completely disconnected from all reality. They live exclusively inside a twitter bubble.

[Anonymous No.23187036]

Also heavy metal is the chosen music genre, sorry. If we want to conquer the universe and transcend our horrid existence we need to embrace the "heavy metal" attitude. We'll be hopeless confined to our suicidal sphere of earth otherwise. It's heavy metal or bust. Stop being a little bitch and embrace the grand future that is our destiny .

[Anonymous No.23187039]

It's a great folly of narrow minded micro-concepts of the left that colonialism is considered a sin. The only thing wrong with colonialism is that we have inflicted it upon ourselves. The way to reinvigorate humanity is to point us to the stars. We need to expand our human domain to everything, and conquer all opposing entities. What wonders, what riches, what beauties await us! This very universe contains unfathomable possibilities. But we must take it for ourselves. The future of humanity is in the stars. The galaxy is so fast that every one of us has a world to our name, should we but take it. So why waste resources on anything else when there are literally diamonds the size of the moon floating around in space? AM I WRONG?
>verification not required

[Anonymous No.23187044]

My attraction to passing trans girls is back. Well fuck me.

[Anonymous No.23187049]

>>23186613
This doesn't have to do with anything but I know a Neo-nazi from Iraq who threatened to kill one of his relatives if he fled to europe. And is probably going to do it, given that he fled to europe.

[Anonymous No.23187060]

>>23186859
I shit, spit, piss and SHIT on the rotting, stinking corpse of your putrescent pedophile "prophet". May he burn in hell forever

[Anonymous No.23187061]

>>23186995
That the conclusion you got from that wasn't that the lefty consensus is the ideology of the elite and the bourgeoisie but rather that republicans are le dumb speaks more about your understanding of politics than anything else, I'm afraid.

[Anonymous No.23187063]

Mohammed boiling in shit

[Anonymous No.23187066]

>>23187063
Calm down, Shlomo Ben Ishmael.

[Anonymous No.23187068]

I literally represent the collective will and desire for the human spirit to transcend its muddy, striving, downcast current experience. I am singularly alloted the cosmic rite to interpret and advance the question of the human condition. No one but me is equipped to deal with such fundamental questions. And I promise you, I will not fail you. Rest easy.

[Anonymous No.23187071]

The effort to overcome my own hatred and resentment of humanity is intense and difficult. I have a mother and father like all of you. I can't let myself be devoured but such tempting hatreds. I can't fail you.

[Anonymous No.23187091]

A father should only represent two things to his son, and nothing else. Either an unreachable, distant source of authority revered, feared and resented in equal measure, or an overgrown ruin in the distant past. Any other purpose suits the mother far better.

[Anonymous No.23187097]

>>23187091
So a transgender, heavily abusive schizo that wanted to troon out his kids is better for a mother?

[Anonymous No.23187101]

Trannies boiling in shit

[Anonymous No.23187106]

Why do people keep saying that religions would have to completely change or be destroyed after first contact with aliens? I don't think any religion is in conflict with aliens existing unless it explicitly said they don't exist.

[Anonymous No.23187118]

>>23187068
Post wrist now.

[Anonymous No.23187165]

Dear Poppy,

I shouldn't be doing this. Your father would be upset with me. He just told me not to dwell. But you are both asleep now: you forever, your father for now.

For a long time I haven't believed in God because why would He allow me to give birth to you if you didn't intend on following Him? If I spend a lifetime in worship and you choose otherwise, what am I to do with my life? My afterlife? I would refuse to reap the benefits of my servitude if I knew you could not. I would fall to hell with you, in penance for putting you in sight of God, to punish or favor at His discretion, to have used me as a tool to bring forth your soul for judgment.

And yet now that you are gone I feel as though you did have a soul, and God judged it rightly as young and pure, innocent and faultless, the most deserving of His Kingdom. I cannot imagine you as belonging anywhere other than heaven, now that you will never be in my arms, but safely in His.

I am terrified of that embrace.

Because He has you captive now: where I was once committed to following you to hell, it seems I now must try and claw my way to heaven. I will have to continue living this life, to allow God time to make his judgment. I will have to comfort your father in the morning, if he wishes me to. On Sunday I will have to tell your grandparents of my failure to secure their lines. In a few weeks I will have to clear an area in the garden to plant poppy seeds in the fall.

I must wade through the muck and miracle of this life, helpless but to enjoy it sometimes, even without you. I was planning to thank you for all your firsts: God planned something else for us. I see now that your death, like your birth would have been, is pain with a purpose. I suspect you've saved my soul tonight. It might take me many more years to realize it fully, but when I do I will know who to thank.

Thank you, Poppy.

I hope you will wait for me.

I love you.

[Anonymous No.23187311]

Just laid a shit. I hope there are seeds in it. Afterwards, I jack off.

[Anonymous No.23187342]

I'm on a fucking warpath and good lord does it feel holy. Sorry to inflict this upon all the participant cowars but my meaning trumps all yours.

[Anonymous No.23187346]

>Khazukan Kazakit-ha - "Look out! The Dwarfs are on the warpath!"
Look out (NIGGER) the dwarves (ME) ware on a warpath!!!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QC-eDtV5O0Q

[Anonymous No.23187408]

Seeya when I wake up. Hopefully I don't back out of becoming an hero.

[Anonymous No.23187411]

My fiance is losing hair, it looks thin and you can see her scalp, and while I encourage her and say it doesn't matter I'm really no longer attracted to her

[Anonymous No.23187420]

balding

[Anonymous No.23187430]

>>23187411
There's gotta be some kind of pill she can take to fix it. Or she has some kind of curable disease.

[Anonymous No.23187501]

Just looked at myself in the mirror for the last time. What a ghastly, gaunt and disgusting faceー I look like a serial rapist. My hairline is receeding in an unkempt manner up the sides, and it seems both my eyebrows and hair are thinning as well. I bent closer to the mirror to inspect my skinー rough, blotchy, and heavily scarred by acne. This is a face so disgusting that not even a mother could love it.

I tried to go to sleep right away. As I drifted off, I had a pre-dream vision of a woman, chubby, cute, and with a piercing in her nose, sitting in front of me as a girlfriend. I reached out to touch her, and the image of my own face flashed before meー felt so much disgust and shame that I awoke nauseous, and even as I write this, my stomach churns uneasily within me. I haven't been able to fantasize about romance lately for the same reasons. Not only can I not realistically imagine being loved, I feel so much shame and disgust at the thought of tainting someone else with my touch that I can no longer fantasize at all.

I hate myself more than I can even describe. I must die.

[Anonymous No.23187589]

>>23187501
Dont kill yourself anon. God loves you.

[Anonymous No.23187603]

There's a clicking noise to my left when I'm at the computer, but it doesn't seem to emanate from any electronics or my speaker. It also stops when i turn to look at it.
Am i going insane? Are they coming?

[Anonymous No.23187650]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXJXEzNP9Es

[Anonymous No.23187654]

>>23187603
Are you wearing a watch?

[Anonymous No.23187671]

>>23187589
>God loves him
>Actually cursed him with that face
what did God mean by this?

[Anonymous No.23187685]

>>23187501
>gaunt
Eat more. Go on a high calorie bulking diet and start lifting weights.
>rough, blotchy, and heavily scarred by acne
Get a good skin care routine and ask your doctor for prescription tretinoin or accutane, it will make a huge difference.
>hairline is receding
Shave your head and grow a beard if you can.

Things can get better. I doubt you're as unattractive and hopeless as you seem to believe. Change what you can about your appearance, and accept the things you can't change. Look into getting therapy and medication.

[Anonymous No.23187714]

>>23187685
>accept that your ugly and people will treat you like shit and deny you of experiences

[Anonymous No.23187727]

Actions have an inward and an outward effect. I suppose "actions" can be divided into those which are meant to have an immediate effect, such as taking a swig of water, and those meant to have a more long-term effect, such as pursuing a particular career. It is true that one could plausibly find oneself suddenly unable to take a swig of water from a cup stationed right next to one, but it would mark a disruption of a taken-for-granted order of things, an order of things which founds the basis of the possibility of intention. Actions have aims. One could possibly claim that certain voluntary acts of thought, such as for instance surpressing the urge to say or do something, which has no observable outward effect, are forms of actions, "negative actions" perhaps, in that they do constitute a effort of will in order to achieve some tangible outward goal.

There is the tremendous mystery of what it means to give thought to something, to ponder, which in my experience I would think of as more or less intentional, although to be fair I have shown little ability so far in life to "say no" to a good train of though, and so perhaps it is more correct to think of this phenomenon as an enticing exposition. But probably one can choose to think or not to think about something, and this should probably constitute a kind of action. This is more gut-feeling than anything else. What do you think?

The point really is that all action takes place with a predetermined medium- that which you are trying to effect is truly "given"; but there can also be inward consequences. If there can not be inward consequences then moral self-improvement, if at all possible, would be entirely divorced from action. This is hard to believe, since in order to be meaningful moral self-improvement is meant to inform action. I suppose this isn't to say that contemplation plays no part, and, I suppose, I am not in a position to determine that it isn't in fact contemplation which alone achieves moral self-improvement. But if so then at the very least contemplation must be informed by *something*, inward or outward observation. An example of inward observation here would be something like feelings of guilt; outward observation could be feelings arising from observing some event, like a tragedy.

[Anonymous No.23187734]

>>23187727
>But probably one can choose to think or not to think about something, and this should probably constitute a kind of action. This is more gut-feeling than anything else. What do you think
Don't think about the white bear

[Anonymous No.23187737]

>>23187727
I think that to a Great extent, what religions claim to provide are holistic ways of life meant to engender inner and outer peace, which would include schemes of actions meant to safeguard and cause to grow "better" qualities in man. For instance regarding charitable giving as a means for "self-purification". The apparent implication being that beyond an outward good- "a poor person gets comfort"- there is also an inward effect, the action shapes the person. I stated this as an axiomatic fact- and I do believe in it- in the beginning of my last post, but I must admit that I could not determine it as such is pressed.

What I am really thinking about is what could be meant by Gods rulership of all things. One thing I've thought before is that if we could have perfect insight in this rulership, we could perfectly predict the weight and value of all things, which seems a haughty goal for us. Then again in some ways I suspect there could be saints who have made that journey. For myself I've been stuck on this point a long time. I'm really just train-of-thoughting this to see where it goes, if anywhere. I feel I have a lot of fragments of thoughts that could perhaps be discovered to cohere being thusly examined.

[Anonymous No.23187742]

>>23187734
Fair enough, that is a relevant example. I mean more like you could think "what are the implications of the colors of the suits of the Power Rangers" but then you could think "that's really not worth thinking about it"

[Anonymous No.23187755]

>>23187742
Both thoughts are just nuances of a prejudice. To have the second one, you have to arrive at the first to dismiss it, which means you have to explain why you had the first which led to the second, when most people have not had the first, and for those that do have the first, the second is a long time coming for many, generally after they researched the shit out of japanese words for red, green, blue, yellow, pink and their social meanings. You're just assuming the value of the second thought is greater than the first, rather than present in the prejudice which created the first.

[Anonymous No.23187763]

>>23187727
>I suppose "actions" can be divided into those which are meant to have an immediate effect, such as taking a swig of water, and those meant to have a more long-term effect, such as pursuing a particular career.
It seems this is an important distinction. And, if one is honest, it seems rather clear that a sober mind will view virtually all acts as more or less probabilistic with regard to their achieving their intended goal, be it in shorter or longer term. In their outward consequences, actions with more longer-term inentions simply can not be predicted like more immediate actions sometimes can.

This leads to perhaps the greater question, and the question of what "purification" or "improvement" could entail: what accounts for the specific variables a person judges before he decides to act? What determines what interests a person? Can it be altered? I think much of religious morality pertains to this. Chastity, not just in terms of sexual abstinence but even as "abstinence of the eyes", for instance.

[Anonymous No.23187767]

>>23187755
what I'm trying to claim is that there is a faculty of will at play, that there is a choice

[Anonymous No.23187775]

>>23187727
The schools of thought have perverted the art of thinking. In reality, thought is no more than a bodily tool like hands and legs. When a complex problem arises, thought is there to solve the problem. Give no food to your thoughts; your thoughts will be about nothing. Feed your thoughts with thoughts, and you will produce philosophy. This somewhat incestuous reproduction of thoughts is exactly what can make philosophy so perverted. Something like the snake that eats it's own tail. You must give your thoughts real food. Of course, and I have done this mistake myself, was to feed my thoughts with thoughts because there was nothing better to feed my thoughts with. You can feed your thoughts with drugs and that will give your thoughts entertainment. In reality, this is not real thinking, it's passive thinking, mere entertainment, it is genuinely as bad as TV. You can use your thoughts for your own entertainment; but if you don't feed them, the thoughts will become undernourished. And I did the following mistake as well, to think that my thoughts will get used to this hardship, and one day improve out of the situation and turn into something better, something that lives up to the expectation of entertaining itself. With itself; truly, this is just mental masturbation. It is the sexual infancy of thought. Sexual; the thought produces an output triggered by an input, without said output being useful for anything other than a momentary pleasure after wich it rots out and dies. The thought is as good as the seed. Keep it, and you keep it's energy. Use it purposelessly, you waste it's output, you age your thoughts, mature them perhaps well enough if you do it within certain measures, get past them and you engage in something as bad as porn. Truly, meaningless thinking is not only a waste of energy and time, done long enough it will turn you as stupid and retarded as someone who watches TV and porn all day.
To not think at all, that is the highest of philosophies, it is the ultimate self-constraint and the wisest application of the power of thought; to keep it, not to waste it, and to only use it when it brings real returns.

[Anonymous No.23187782]

>>23187767
You're going to have to cook your examples a lot more

[Anonymous No.23187807]

>>23187775
I think you have helped me point out some problems with my entire approach to things. There should be some kind of harmony, the solution shouldn't be sought in thought alone. One shouldn't wait too much to act, this is unbalanced. That is in fact what I have been doing, waiting to act until something makes sense. "Sense" requires value, and value requires the festival of life. I'm sure thought has its due place, but I thank you for helping me realize that it shouldn't be able to do what I'm trying to use it for. God bless you anon and good travels!

[Anonymous No.23187902]

New >>23187901